my Shepherd King, You're watching over me, Emmanuel
ilovemyJesus!!
its been long since i last read a blog belonging to any sec 4 in crescent.
i realized i've been reading blogs of people frm church, people in canoeing..and it ends there.sometimes even random blogs belonging to people i dont even know.
saw jiaqi's tag saying she left something at her blog for me.went there, scrolled up and down.re-read a few posts to make sure i didnt miss out anything.BUT THERE WAS NOTHING =\ ok.maybe it was a looooOooong time ago.thn i went to zhixin's blog because she tagged(i think a long time ago also la).mm.read her latest posts and re-read her birthday post, which wasnt very far off, probably because she has been studing and not blogging, which is good.i digress. =my point is, there was something in her birthday post that kinda affected me somehow.but i cant write it down here firstly because its private.and secondly because, i dont know how to put down in words how i feel.mm.well.
that aside, some thought for the day:
Andy played all afternoon with his best friend, Joe, who lived down the street. When Mother called him home for supper, Andy came in smiling and whistling a happy tune. "My," said Mother, "you're in a good mood. Did you enjoy your day?"
"Boy, I did!" exclaimed Andy. "I just spent the whole afternoon with my very best friend in the whole wide world."
"I see," said Mother. "How do you know he's your very best friend?"
Andy thought for a moment then replied,"Well, we spend alot of time together. We always have fun playing games or talking or just hanging around. We jelp each other, and we cheer each other up when we're feeling bad."
"You know," said Mother in a quiet gentle voice,"you just described my best friend too-except for one thing. My best friend did something extra special for me a long time ago. Something that no other best friend could ever do."
"Really? What did your best friend do for you?" wondered Andy.
Mother smiled."My best friend loved me so much that He gave His life for me so that i could have eternal life with Him."
"Oh,you're talking about Jesus, arent you?"asked Andy."T never really thought about Him as a best friend."
"Well, He will be if you let Him," Mother said."You can do some of the same kinds of things with Jesus that you like to do with Joe. You can include him in everything you do. He's always there for you, just like a best friend."
"Yeah, He is, isnt He?"said Andy thoughtfully.He grinned."I guess Joe wont mind much is He's only mt second-best friend, especially after I tell him who my best friend in the whole wide world really is,"he said."And I'll tell him I dont mind if he makes Jesus his best friend too."
Do you have a best friend too? Friends are special blessings.You have wonderful times together.Even more special is the friendship you may have with Jesus. He wants to be your friend, and he's the most faithful friend you can ever have.
"There are 'friends' who destroy each other, but a real friend sticks closer than a brother. -proverbs 18:24"
(this is from PowerKidsChurch when i was still with them - 27/11/2000)
i have alot to say about the story.but i guess its better to leave it to the readers to think about it themselves.
thank You Jesus. [=
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
Monday, September 19, 2005
i know that i'll be running home to You
ilovemyJesus!!
ahh.black is so dull.i really like my new blogskin.
well, technically, its not a new blog skins.
i just made the border thicker, and changed the colours, and reshuffled things here and there.
anyhow, love it.*2 thumbs up*
mm.i found out that quite a number of people actually read my blog but dun leave tags.WHY?!?! =[
let my post a random thought today:
"i hope the man doesnt drop his chainsaw on me"
a worker was on top of a fence with a chainsaw, trying to saw of the branches of either a very tall bush or a very short tree.i was walking on the pavement right beside the fence such tht if tht worker was to accidentally drop his chain saw, given tht he wasnt balancing properly, I WOULD DIE.well..
random. (x
today's chemistry practical was really bad for me.but it doesnt rly matter to me.i'm not discouraged or anything.besides, i'm not intending to include chemistry for my L1R5.
speaking of which, the prelims has got me thinking about the relationship of God and examinations yet again.strangely, it never dawned on me this fact: if all Christians were to do very well because God is with them and all go to very good schools, WHO IS GOING TO SHARE THE GOSPEL IN THE OTHER SCHOOLS?! okay okay.i dun know if this is biblical or not, but i guess i do make some sense anyhow.sometimes it may be God's plan for us to go to not-so-good schools even though we studied very hard because He has greater plans for us elsewhere.besides,we're not called to earthly blessings but heavenly riches.so its not like we will get the best everytime, in this case, going to top junior colleges.uh.correct me if i'm saying something non-biblical or anti-christ(?!) or something to that extent la.
personally,i'm affected.i've always wanted to be the best, though i may not show it as some says(but i think i do leh), and i'm constantly finding ways to prove myself.i rmb the canoeing senoirs once saying that i was "ambitious".well, that was what i am.when DSA provided oppurtunities for me to go to various top JCs (hci, njc, rjc, sajc), one of the main reasons i contemplated so much was because i sought "recognition" from people, wanting to be labelled 'SMART'.yet now as i think of it, why should i? havent God given me enough assurance, and hasnt He been leading me in victory all the time? why would i need to seek it from men when it has been given from God.i dun need to go to hwachong.i can be in the worst ITE and still be 'SMART', because i know God. :D
and i have no pressure about exams.i study, i do my best, and the rest is up to God.and when i say the rest is up to God, i dun mean, "God will help me do well", but i mean "God will let His will be done in me".amen? amen.
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ilovemyJesus!!
ahh.black is so dull.i really like my new blogskin.
well, technically, its not a new blog skins.
i just made the border thicker, and changed the colours, and reshuffled things here and there.
anyhow, love it.*2 thumbs up*
mm.i found out that quite a number of people actually read my blog but dun leave tags.WHY?!?! =[
let my post a random thought today:
"i hope the man doesnt drop his chainsaw on me"
a worker was on top of a fence with a chainsaw, trying to saw of the branches of either a very tall bush or a very short tree.i was walking on the pavement right beside the fence such tht if tht worker was to accidentally drop his chain saw, given tht he wasnt balancing properly, I WOULD DIE.well..
random. (x
today's chemistry practical was really bad for me.but it doesnt rly matter to me.i'm not discouraged or anything.besides, i'm not intending to include chemistry for my L1R5.
speaking of which, the prelims has got me thinking about the relationship of God and examinations yet again.strangely, it never dawned on me this fact: if all Christians were to do very well because God is with them and all go to very good schools, WHO IS GOING TO SHARE THE GOSPEL IN THE OTHER SCHOOLS?! okay okay.i dun know if this is biblical or not, but i guess i do make some sense anyhow.sometimes it may be God's plan for us to go to not-so-good schools even though we studied very hard because He has greater plans for us elsewhere.besides,we're not called to earthly blessings but heavenly riches.so its not like we will get the best everytime, in this case, going to top junior colleges.uh.correct me if i'm saying something non-biblical or anti-christ(?!) or something to that extent la.
personally,i'm affected.i've always wanted to be the best, though i may not show it as some says(but i think i do leh), and i'm constantly finding ways to prove myself.i rmb the canoeing senoirs once saying that i was "ambitious".well, that was what i am.when DSA provided oppurtunities for me to go to various top JCs (hci, njc, rjc, sajc), one of the main reasons i contemplated so much was because i sought "recognition" from people, wanting to be labelled 'SMART'.yet now as i think of it, why should i? havent God given me enough assurance, and hasnt He been leading me in victory all the time? why would i need to seek it from men when it has been given from God.i dun need to go to hwachong.i can be in the worst ITE and still be 'SMART', because i know God. :D
and i have no pressure about exams.i study, i do my best, and the rest is up to God.and when i say the rest is up to God, i dun mean, "God will help me do well", but i mean "God will let His will be done in me".amen? amen.
ps: new i4C blog! new i4c blog! new i4c blog! click link for more details.
Thursday, September 15, 2005
all over the world Your song will resound
ilovemyJesus!!
word,
why should i feel accursed or that i am the victim of bad luck when the Bible says that Christ redeemed me from the curse of the law that i might receive His Spirit? -galatians 3:13,14
i should blog about the progress of the prelims.
well, everything's pretty fair.should be able to get a reasonable L1R5?
except for bio paper 2 and chemistry!!
its really a pity because i probably can do well for bio ppr 1, but not ppr 2.for chem, i'm good at chem practicals, BUT the theory papers were so tough! probability of me passing the examination is 0,and probability of me scoring an A1 -10. =\ ppr1 was relatively difficult, but ppr2 was HARD.for the first half of the time, my paper remained blank.the paper started at 10am and i only started writing things at 11am.and in btwn tht one hour i was so furious i kept making alot of noises.like going "grrr", "tsk" and banging my stuff.bcause when i look around, everyone seemed to be writing something.anyhow, i think that was extremely childish of me.extremely.
so yes.at the end of today's exam (yup.tdy's chem paper), hasyimah (who sits beside me), gwen (who sits in front of me) and yukefong (who sits infront of hasyimah, beside gwen) where like:
hasyimah: you ah..bang table.make noise.
gwen: YA! i heard! i was like, 'oh no.lynette angry liao'
yukefong: so noisy ah..
hasyimah: *demonstrates what i did*
mrs d tang: no talking (or something to that extent)
actually, in the last 45mins,i found that i could actually do some questions.however, out of 80marks, i only attempted 31 marks worth of questions.=mm.perhaps there would be more questions i could have done if i had been more focused.i was kinda nervous at tht time, esp when i couldnt do the first question.i felt..mm.distracted? its like.whatever i read couldnt go into my mind and i counldnt understand the questions.oh well.
and though things may seem bad, i'm glad that God spoke to me.
well, He just told me the importance of prayer.for most of the exams, i felt confident.not today however.because i forgot to pray.i was so absorbed in memorising what sherilyn showed me last minute (which wasnt tested by the way) tht i forgot to pray.that's how the devil works.
oh yes, how can i forget to thank God?
thank you Jesus. [=
praise Him
ilovemyJesus!!
word,
why should i feel accursed or that i am the victim of bad luck when the Bible says that Christ redeemed me from the curse of the law that i might receive His Spirit? -galatians 3:13,14
i should blog about the progress of the prelims.
well, everything's pretty fair.should be able to get a reasonable L1R5?
except for bio paper 2 and chemistry!!
its really a pity because i probably can do well for bio ppr 1, but not ppr 2.for chem, i'm good at chem practicals, BUT the theory papers were so tough! probability of me passing the examination is 0,and probability of me scoring an A1 -10. =\ ppr1 was relatively difficult, but ppr2 was HARD.for the first half of the time, my paper remained blank.the paper started at 10am and i only started writing things at 11am.and in btwn tht one hour i was so furious i kept making alot of noises.like going "grrr", "tsk" and banging my stuff.bcause when i look around, everyone seemed to be writing something.anyhow, i think that was extremely childish of me.extremely.
so yes.at the end of today's exam (yup.tdy's chem paper), hasyimah (who sits beside me), gwen (who sits in front of me) and yukefong (who sits infront of hasyimah, beside gwen) where like:
hasyimah: you ah..bang table.make noise.
gwen: YA! i heard! i was like, 'oh no.lynette angry liao'
yukefong: so noisy ah..
hasyimah: *demonstrates what i did*
mrs d tang: no talking (or something to that extent)
actually, in the last 45mins,i found that i could actually do some questions.however, out of 80marks, i only attempted 31 marks worth of questions.=mm.perhaps there would be more questions i could have done if i had been more focused.i was kinda nervous at tht time, esp when i couldnt do the first question.i felt..mm.distracted? its like.whatever i read couldnt go into my mind and i counldnt understand the questions.oh well.
and though things may seem bad, i'm glad that God spoke to me.
well, He just told me the importance of prayer.for most of the exams, i felt confident.not today however.because i forgot to pray.i was so absorbed in memorising what sherilyn showed me last minute (which wasnt tested by the way) tht i forgot to pray.that's how the devil works.
oh yes, how can i forget to thank God?
thank you Jesus. [=
praise Him
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
because of You its all brand new, my life is now worthwhile
ilovemyJesus!!
i have no time to do ANYTHING else.not even reply tags etc.by the way, i havent came online for a long time.the person accepting testimonials and checking emails for me is not me.thank you very much anyhow.
who is the islamic prophet muhammad?
its a serious distraction.i'm not very prepared for tmr's bio paper yet after reading something abt this man.i am very distracted.confused.i went to Yahoo and typed "muhammad" and they brought me to an islamic website which...well.the more i find out, the more i realized i dun know.
Holy Spirit, teach me.
and to the rest reading this, have a great week ahead.God bless. [=
ilovemyJesus!!
i have no time to do ANYTHING else.not even reply tags etc.by the way, i havent came online for a long time.the person accepting testimonials and checking emails for me is not me.thank you very much anyhow.
who is the islamic prophet muhammad?
its a serious distraction.i'm not very prepared for tmr's bio paper yet after reading something abt this man.i am very distracted.confused.i went to Yahoo and typed "muhammad" and they brought me to an islamic website which...well.the more i find out, the more i realized i dun know.
Holy Spirit, teach me.
and to the rest reading this, have a great week ahead.God bless. [=
Thursday, August 11, 2005
Jesus, will You light up my way?
ilovemyJesus!!
the amazing thing about Jesus is, i feel joyful at times like this knowing He is here for me.
yet.i am terribly upset about a certain matter.its affecting me in every way except my spiritual walk with God.but this is no good.
i promised my sis not to come online until after prelims.this afternoon, i even promised her tht i'll not post a last post to tell you (avid readers) about my leave.BUT.i must come.i have been bearing frm 9pm+ until now.i need to blog.about this.
i am awfully depressed.i lost all my farewell cards from my fellow canoeists.they gave it to me during the camp.yet i lost it at FOP.the whole envelope containing my cards/letters and other stuff which i do not deem as important.because these things mean much more to me.i rather a hundred dollar bill be inside the lost envelope than my little gifts.
ANYONE WHO WAS AT INDOOR STADIUM ON 7TH AUG 2005 FOR FESTIVAL OF PRAISE (FOP) AND WAS SITTING AROUND THE WEST WING AT THE SEATS AT B31(IF I RMB CORRECTLY) QUITE NEAR THE STAGE.. PLEASE RETURN TO ME MY TRANSLUCENT WHITE ENVELOPE! IT'S ABOUT A4 SIZE, ABIT BIGGER AND HAS ALOT OF CARDS/LETTERS/SMALL PRESENTS/OTHER ELECTRONICS INSIDE.PLEASE RETURN ME MY ENVELOPE.EVEN IF U WNA KEEP THE ELECTRONICS, GO AHEAD.PLEASE RETURN ME MY MEMORIES.PLEASE.PLEASE.I'M WILLING TO SACRIFICE MY ONE WEEK WORTH OF LUNCH MONEY IF U RETURN IT TO ME.
and about 1 hr ago..i broke my last significant gift.the glass candle from the whole team.it was still in its box.lying on my table.i wanted to keep it in my cupboard.but i dropped it accidentally.it broke.but it didnt just break.it shattered completely.i am in great despair.i dno what else to say.
please please please please please please please return to owner.please please please please please please.
and any CITY HARVEST people, especially ushers, pleas ehelp me find my envelope.please.go find the person in charge.or the lost and found or something.please do something.please.
i will not be back til after prelims.
ilovemyJesus!!
the amazing thing about Jesus is, i feel joyful at times like this knowing He is here for me.
yet.i am terribly upset about a certain matter.its affecting me in every way except my spiritual walk with God.but this is no good.
i promised my sis not to come online until after prelims.this afternoon, i even promised her tht i'll not post a last post to tell you (avid readers) about my leave.BUT.i must come.i have been bearing frm 9pm+ until now.i need to blog.about this.
i am awfully depressed.i lost all my farewell cards from my fellow canoeists.they gave it to me during the camp.yet i lost it at FOP.the whole envelope containing my cards/letters and other stuff which i do not deem as important.because these things mean much more to me.i rather a hundred dollar bill be inside the lost envelope than my little gifts.
ANYONE WHO WAS AT INDOOR STADIUM ON 7TH AUG 2005 FOR FESTIVAL OF PRAISE (FOP) AND WAS SITTING AROUND THE WEST WING AT THE SEATS AT B31(IF I RMB CORRECTLY) QUITE NEAR THE STAGE.. PLEASE RETURN TO ME MY TRANSLUCENT WHITE ENVELOPE! IT'S ABOUT A4 SIZE, ABIT BIGGER AND HAS ALOT OF CARDS/LETTERS/SMALL PRESENTS/OTHER ELECTRONICS INSIDE.PLEASE RETURN ME MY ENVELOPE.EVEN IF U WNA KEEP THE ELECTRONICS, GO AHEAD.PLEASE RETURN ME MY MEMORIES.PLEASE.PLEASE.I'M WILLING TO SACRIFICE MY ONE WEEK WORTH OF LUNCH MONEY IF U RETURN IT TO ME.
and about 1 hr ago..i broke my last significant gift.the glass candle from the whole team.it was still in its box.lying on my table.i wanted to keep it in my cupboard.but i dropped it accidentally.it broke.but it didnt just break.it shattered completely.i am in great despair.i dno what else to say.
please please please please please please please return to owner.please please please please please please.
and any CITY HARVEST people, especially ushers, pleas ehelp me find my envelope.please.go find the person in charge.or the lost and found or something.please do something.please.
i will not be back til after prelims.
Monday, August 08, 2005
on our knees we pray that Father You would, You would open the way
ilovemyJesus!!
i have a boyfriend.
his name starts wit J.
its five letters.
J _ _ _ _
he is from my church.
and i love HIM because HE first loved me.
guess who?
XD
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there are so many things to blog about that i feel lazy to blog.oh well.
i'll just keep it to the farewell.not literally though.
so anyhow, canoeing chalet/camp was awesome indeed.i must say the canoeists did a rly grt job.i rmb a fews weeks ago (i think was the last day of nationals), i told shoee to "make it memorable" while we were walking pass tiong bahru park.and they did.i had alot of fun, and was touched by many things.all the efforts they put in, and the love they showed and stuff.i cant express the kind of feeling i felt when i walked out of my room to the hall (where they were working, where i was forbiddened but..) and saw them all doing something for my farewell.amongst all the mess, the strings, banner, ribbons etc, i saw a special kind of love and bonding.i rly dun knw how to put these in words.i love you.
tears and smiles.
canoeing has taught me so many things and developed in me strength and character.each race taught me how to fight and humble myself.each stroke brought me hope and destiny.each training showed me who i really was.each member moulded me into what i am today.i am eternally grateful to crescent canoeing.you made my life so colourful.thr's really alot alot of emotions i have twards this team.and i finally see my efforts come to something.hardwork does pay off indeed.everything was worth the sweat and blood.seeing everyone grow and become something.. the feelings are so deep.as i type this, i am thinking rly hard what the next word should be.
ufhaifhehglshfhgjslkfhsjhgfnjxfnslfhuhfsuhgu
fjwhflhlffuhsjkfhajsfhiurjsbvfhbvlkzhcdycirh
fjslahfuilrhafiojksfxnjkbfufuiwhaufwgytehguf
aslfuxhfulxeajfhxurxgkahfyaehgxahfafifwoiafz
qpqwjrxfmklevmjkxnbengfyzyouihjksaglfiowjkls
axoifuwoafhxawhfmiuhklhfuiagoiwuoaxj,wfuhgai
axwxfauwfhmxaefhiauhfowioqjpozwfjirfjoafjoif
axjwhiodjuwopijfoqjiowfjirjgnhuihgkjmfunfhio
aifuxfhiwajfizrouijowaijfwuhfoiwajrpqjrpjrqo
this is how i'ld describe my joy and gratitude.its inexplicable.
I LOVE YOU CRESCENT CANOEING.and my glory, my honour in future, i dedicate to YOU.of course to GOD first, next, to YOU.
do me proud, canoeists, do crescent proud.
once a crescent canoeist, forever a crescent canoeist.
ilovemyJesus!!
i have a boyfriend.
his name starts wit J.
its five letters.
J _ _ _ _
he is from my church.
and i love HIM because HE first loved me.
guess who?
XD
_________________________________________________________________
there are so many things to blog about that i feel lazy to blog.oh well.
i'll just keep it to the farewell.not literally though.
so anyhow, canoeing chalet/camp was awesome indeed.i must say the canoeists did a rly grt job.i rmb a fews weeks ago (i think was the last day of nationals), i told shoee to "make it memorable" while we were walking pass tiong bahru park.and they did.i had alot of fun, and was touched by many things.all the efforts they put in, and the love they showed and stuff.i cant express the kind of feeling i felt when i walked out of my room to the hall (where they were working, where i was forbiddened but..) and saw them all doing something for my farewell.amongst all the mess, the strings, banner, ribbons etc, i saw a special kind of love and bonding.i rly dun knw how to put these in words.i love you.
tears and smiles.
canoeing has taught me so many things and developed in me strength and character.each race taught me how to fight and humble myself.each stroke brought me hope and destiny.each training showed me who i really was.each member moulded me into what i am today.i am eternally grateful to crescent canoeing.you made my life so colourful.thr's really alot alot of emotions i have twards this team.and i finally see my efforts come to something.hardwork does pay off indeed.everything was worth the sweat and blood.seeing everyone grow and become something.. the feelings are so deep.as i type this, i am thinking rly hard what the next word should be.
ufhaifhehglshfhgjslkfhsjhgfnjxfnslfhuhfsuhgu
fjwhflhlffuhsjkfhajsfhiurjsbvfhbvlkzhcdycirh
fjslahfuilrhafiojksfxnjkbfufuiwhaufwgytehguf
aslfuxhfulxeajfhxurxgkahfyaehgxahfafifwoiafz
qpqwjrxfmklevmjkxnbengfyzyouihjksaglfiowjkls
axoifuwoafhxawhfmiuhklhfuiagoiwuoaxj,wfuhgai
axwxfauwfhmxaefhiauhfowioqjpozwfjirfjoafjoif
axjwhiodjuwopijfoqjiowfjirjgnhuihgkjmfunfhio
aifuxfhiwajfizrouijowaijfwuhfoiwajrpqjrpjrqo
this is how i'ld describe my joy and gratitude.its inexplicable.
I LOVE YOU CRESCENT CANOEING.and my glory, my honour in future, i dedicate to YOU.of course to GOD first, next, to YOU.
do me proud, canoeists, do crescent proud.
once a crescent canoeist, forever a crescent canoeist.