booO.today is sunday.i'm gg to rest.nt even gg with my sis fer tuition.

i feel like a loser troublemaker.in sch i cause troble.at hm i cause trouble.i go to church.and i still cause trouble.and what makes me feel worse is that everyone whom icaused trouble for tells me its okayy.i know they probably just said it becuz they didnt want to further upset me or anything.but it just makes me feel worse.and guilty.i dun want thm to treat me so well.u know?its my fault.so why cant u just tell me its my fault?

ytd.they went to west coast.i wanted to go with mel.but mel had a fever so she didnt go.and i didnt go.and they thot i was gg.supposed to meet at 1330 at jurong east mrt.and daniel called me at 1410 to ask me where am i.i am a troublemaker.thn after tt.went to church.saturday night life.when the speaker was speaking.i was talking.disturbed ppl around me.yifang had to ask me to keep quiet.and after church.we went fer dinner.and my freaking moronic stomach hurted agn.if i had just.if i had just controled the pain.overcomed it.and daniel called the ambulance cuz i was trembling and i passed out.and everyone said he made a wrong decision.though he says tt he isnt sad bcuz everyone says so, we all can tell he is.and it isnt his fault. u know? its my fault.if i didnt have whatever crap stomachache.he wouldnt call the ambulance.and they wouldnt blame him.and after tt.the ambulance came.they talked to my dad cuz i didnt want to go to the hosipital.and they said my sis had to come and fetch me or else i have to go to the hospital.and my sis was alrdy on her way hm.it was so troublesome for her.and she's usually very gd tempered.but ytd.she was pissed.she was all tired frm work.and she had to go all the way there to fetch me.and daniel yifang fay and mel had to wait fer me until ten plus for my sis.u know?if nth had happened, they wouldnt need to wait for me.and after tt.i spilled dan and mel's fries all over the floor.and they just kept telling me its okayy.and everything else.they just kept saying its okayy.u know how much trouble i caused?

but anw.thx to karyn,grace,yen,mel,yifang,daniel,fayanne and joy.thx alot.and to wanting [i think tt's the name] and the uncles and aunties at the hawker centre.thanx to all of u! and sorry too.

and to my sis.i'm really very very sorry.but thx anyway.

i really feel very very bad.maybe i shouldnt have one for dinner or whatever.the more time i spent with thm.the more trouble i bring to thm.i am trouble.

tian ah.i'm so tired.just reached home.went to Golden Mile with my mum to get army stuffs.haha.not for my brother.for me.hahaha.i got this army shirt.u know.the grey one.though everyone thinks its not nice.haha.i like it. [=

got the addidas shoe too. sharing it with my sis cuz i dun have enough to pay for it myself. haha

sis got her o level's results. 3marks. not bad.in fact, very good. she can go to a better JC. but she choses to stay in TJC. oh wells. TJC is not very bad anyway.haha.its the top 5 at least.

sch was fine.seniors came back for the results.and gwen and sherilyn went mad.and natania too.haha.natania was having bad hair.haha.looks weird.

ate quite alot today.haha.

so tired.i've so many slp debts.i'm gg to blog this.bath and go slp.until tmr.i shall wake up at 11am. bath.get ready to go sch to fetch melissa.haha.she doesnt want to go to the outing at west coast. until i said i would fetch her.oh wells.haha.so anw.will fetch her and have lunch before we meet the rest i think. her band ends at 1230.

laura lost her phone again.the second time.both are expensive phones. what a day to lose her phone. a day when i brought my extra clothes and undergarments to change cuz there was [supposed to have] trng. i mean i thought there was trng but they cancelled it. i brought so i could bath after kayaking. apparantly. they did a spot check. and they have to check my undergarments. and i didnt bring the nice sportsbra today.hahaha.i brought the orange one with grey straps. yuck. sarah and sheri thinks its nice. i think the blue one is much nicer. oh yah.sarah was wearing this cool bra that was black and had hot pink straps. cool. its not sports bra.its normal. it seems abit like a push-up to me.hahahahahahahahahahaha. oh wells. sarah doesnt need thm.hers are big enough. d=

so so so so so so so tired. everyday. i will have something on. am i over-working myself? sigh. sunday. i'm gg to be free on sunday. i swear. i'm not gg anywhere. i need time to relax. so i wun become stupid. i'm becoming stupid. its so scary. i dun want to become stupid.

oh wells. shall go do the shit english thing now. byee

i am turning stupid.

new phrase: oh mee-an~
haha.something tt gwen would use to make me laugh. and wake me up.

new most commonly sung song: wo she bu de ni------ yeayea... HAHAHAHHA. i was singing tt to people who walked pass me at the bus stop when cherlynn and i were at the bus stop going hm frm sarah's house. i sang tt to mdm kwan too. [=

ytd. sch. fwd the entire sch part. went to great world for lunch. sarah and i lied to the woman selling the jap food tt we were 16. and gg to go overseas to study at the end of this yr.she thot we were too young.and we said tt it was possible to go right after 'O's. thn she asked about expenses. we said sch sponsor. and she sure was shocked.haha.she was like [in chinese.she frm china i think] "I should have sent my daughter to ur sch!" went to sarah's hse after tt.gwen cherlynn sheri and i. wanted to swim.security guard there.say we cnnt swim without "proper attire". cant he say swimming costume? want to go gym. stupid another security guard say only two allowed at a time. plz lorh. and sarah was like:"then why is the gym so big?" haha.tried to follow this crescentian staying at the same condo so tt we could ask her to bring us to the gym. cuz one resident can only bring two people there.haha.mission failed. wanted to play tennis. gwen and cherlynn complained hot.haha.played water for a while.thn i had this great idea tt we pretend to fall into the pool. tt way, the old man who sits there and do nth actually cant do anything to us.haha.laughed about how we would look like pinballs.one after another, in a line. *tud-tud-tud-tud-tud* and we all drop down.HAHAHAHAHHA.ended up at sarah's house.study room.using com.haha.pretending to do project.haha.thn the two piggy sheri and piggy cherlynn went to sarah's bed to slp.in their sweaty dirty PE kit.haha.they slpt like little babies.they lked so cute.like two babies slping on the bed.really!haha.so cute.just tt abit too overgrown for a baby.gwen and i prank called ppl.haha.spoke in a funny accent to jan.telling her she owes the hospital money. $150 for an operation.HAHHAHAHA.some weird right knee op.hahahaha.oh wells.she was tricked.until we told her the truth.hahahahahha.sarah was watching some hongkong vcd.tried to prank call you fong aka yuxi aka yukee aka yuke fong.haha.she cute girl lah.i say one sentence thn burst out laughing.and so.yea.it was spoilt.hahaha.thn dunnoe still got call who.

i'm so tired.just finishd my dumb english portfolio shit.hahaha.oh wells.dun blog leh.i'm gg to slp.right now. at this time. good night. [=

Proverbs 3:5-6:
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight."

haha.so obsessed with my bible.bwahaha.
here's one for you,grace [yeeWw]:
Jeremiah 29:11-13:
"For I know the plans I have for you", declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
take care loads.

recap of saturday. morning-common test for.uh.english and maths d i think.forgot.after tt went to amanda's house.haha.helped her paint her room.her dad's cool.cute.nice.unlike typical stern strict dads.yea.her mum's nice too.and this was this other man frm church tt.he looked so familiar.i must have seen him back thn 6 yrs ago.haha.anw.he was helping to paint the room.hm.they paint veri differently frm my family.for us, we just buy the paint and start painting every corner every inch of the house.for thm.they move the furniture,clean the place.wipe every inch with a wet towel to remove ducst and to provide a smooth surface for painting.and woah.the preparation itself takes a longer time thn painting.and angel,the dog, was there agn.attempting to eat the paint.lucky uncle [manda's dad] chased her out of the room fast enough.haha.anyway.so we went to church.cell havent started.joind the shalom first.they were playing this weird game where u have to stick a piece of paper at a certain body part and there will be this person reading this story.and everytime she comes across the word "butterfly" u have to stick ur piece of paper with another person's.mel had hers on her butt.haha.and she had to stick her butt to someone else's leg cuz tt person got tt paper on her leg.haha.cool.thn we also played this weird version of concentration game.where we dun use numbers.we use actions for animals in stead.i got the cute mosquito action.which was so easy to do tt everyone sabotaged me.sigh.so bad.thn everytime i wanted to change action.they would change their target action also.so bad right?haha.nvm.thn ltr on i sian rdy.i wanted to be mrs william faquar.but thn got no action.hahaha.anyway.after a long long of tt weird animal game, cell finally started. ros,mel,karyn,yi fang and fay present.haha.fay was just being cute.mel was sick.she was feverish and had stomach flu.think she's better now.anw.so cell as usual with me crapping and warning thm not to sing high pitched songs.haha.yea.thn karyn wanted us to write what we pray for on a piece of paper.she did the sharing for tt day.and yepps.we did.guess what i wrote:
1.)Pray tt Mel would be better
2.)Pray that Ros will grow taller
tee-hee.fay saw it.she laughed.haha.thn went for sat night life.sang the usuals.and there was this Dr Agatha Chan speaker frm hongkong who had this weird hongkong accent.haha.so cute.and she kept going like:"isnt tt gross?? huh?huh?"and she keeps walking arnd,which is good.so my eyes wun stay at a certain place and cause me to fall aslp.and she was just sooo cute and funny.and mel was being cute again.haha.sat night life supposed to end at 7.and at 7.10 she said the closing prayer.which was about 5mins long.haha.everytime she said:"in Jesus' name..." Joy and i would think tt the prayer was gg to end.and she will continue.haha.so anyway.after the closing prayer.Dr agatha chan said:"now let me tell u another 2 or 3 stories." and we were like........................................hahax.she thinks its supposed to end at 7.30.haha.nvm.anyway after tt had dinner with fay yifang joy joseph lin.yah.lin and yen are sisters.haha.i knew it.they looked too alike.and lin is 13.but she looks like 16.haha.yen is 16.but she looks.well.13.haha.ate at macdonalds.or should i say "madonna".*looks at Joy*haha.cuz Joy is mixed.so when she says macdonalds, we all hear it as madonna.haha.oh btw.yifang is my cousin.my dad's william faquar.and her dad's kelvin faquar.see.i told u she was my cousin.bwahahaha.no larhx.she's not.she just looks like my cousins who i see once a yr on new year.thn we talked and laughed alot through dinner.haha.about the agatha woman.hahaha.kind of like gossiping abt her.haha.oh well.she's just so cute.thn after tt we went hm.

[just received a phone call frm bedok south neighbor hood police station.interestingly,they used my sister's hp to call.what a waste of hp bill.haha.anyway.i guess my sis lost her phone.yea.cuz tt's wad the policeman said.he sounded like those blurblurr policeman.haha.cute.nvm]

kayys. and on sunday.i was supposed to go church with grace.but i reached hm too late on saturday tt i overslept.sorry grace!went with my sis to my cousin's house.my sis wanted me to study.oh wells. i did study.

monday.yesterday.in sch.everyone kept saying tt i didnt study.no one believe tt i studied.haha.oh wells.i was too busy preaching to the class.i seriously think what i said was crap.since it sounded like crap anyway.and sheri was just being cute.after sch was supposed to go hospital for confirmation of the operation.but my mum changed the date.cuz she knew i had common test.so anyway.was supposed to go with grace [yew] and gang.but thn ended up with grace [yeo] and gang.hahaha.grace,ros,yifang,mel.yepps.we ate lunch tgt.and mel was disgusted to find a chicken leg in her lotus soup.hahaha.yifang grace and mel drank lotus soup.i dun understand.why do they all like it so much.i havent even seen a lotus before.haha.so they ate lunch and we left.on the way to westmall library, mel felt guilty cuz she was supposed to accompany her mum.her mum was home alone.so she went to find her mum instead.so it was my ros yifang and gRace.haha.grace was just being tooooo cute again.haha.we ended up in mac at bukitbatok mrt instead.haha.shared some stuff with yifang.about my life.and grace and mel went to popular for 241274382724362734623 yrs.haha.ate ice-cream.and mac colosso.oh yah.out side sch we bought ice-cream.and mel the ice-cream and had a stomach ache.she forgot she wasnt supposed to cuz she had stomach flu.bwahaha.oops.i'm sadistic.anyways.back to macdonalds.yah.so after tt i sat on the baby chair and tested thm geog.cuz they had geog common test the next day.grace is so cute.and rosalind.hahaha.saying all the lame things and speaking indian.i mean.tamil.really.she speaks like tamil.haha.and yea.after tt in the evening.arnd 6+++ we left.i went back to sch to collect my bike.and went to tbp to meet my sis.who was alrdy rotting there.haha.anyway.so.walked arnd.she treated me soon kueh.yea.blah blah blah.

today.lit was such a waste.i had sooooooooooooooo much to write.but i didnt.not enough time.and somemore i re-writed cuz it was too untidy.but still.after re-writing.it was still untidy.bwahaha.oh wells.waste of time man.i think i still can pass.but it'll be a bare one. ]= during recess played bball with sheri [yayys!throw paper] gwen cherlynn sarah yuxi aka you fong aka mdm fool real name FOO YUKE FONG!!! huiyi and kong hoon.huiyi konghoon cherlynn and sheri oo=ne team.all the tall tall giants.excpt for cute little baby sheri.who was barely my size.hahaha.it looks so cute.i meant.SHE looked so cute.like a little baby.in her over-sized uniform.trying to look tall by boosting her chest.HAHAHAHAHAHA.youfong gwen sa-la and i one team.WE WON!!! YAYYY! it was a thrast 20-0!!! YAYYS! okayy.tt was a lie.hahahah.we lost.oh wells.i was too busy screaming and shouting and singing and jumping abt like a mad giraffe.hahahaha. d= i think they think i'm mad.helped sarah give birth to her bagladeshi or however u spell tt weird word sheri uses baby.yah.it was so hard.i had to pull the baby out.and the head was stuck inside.BWAHAHAHAHAHHA.so i dug it out.my hands were full of her blood.and i super glued the baby's head back.it wasnt very stable.so we left it at the bball court to dry.and we continued bballing.hahaha.so funny.sarah's blood was dripping all over the bball court.even at places she didnt walk pass.BWAHAHAHA.okayy.to those who are confused: its just all crap.hahahahaha.anywayys.i think youfong is a good player.her defence and passes are good.her dribbling is not bad either.clam when aiming and shooting.she's above average for everything.yea.just needs to practise more.and huiyi has good passes and defence. sherilyn.uh.very nice to hug.i was hugging her in the bball court to prevent her frm catching any balls.u know right.she shouting like dun noe wad to get people to pass the ball to her.so cute.cuz she so small sized.SO CUTTTEEEEE! back to huiyi.huiyi's weak point is at her shooting.too nervous.when she reaches a distance she can shoot in, she just shoots without aiming.just shoots in the direction of the board.yea.youfong should be a power forward.as for me, a point guard.hahaha.cherlynn can aim well.but not very good at dribbling.passess and catches are slightly above average.but is calm.though sometimes may delay passes.yah.not alert enough.but very calm.AIYAH! WHAT AM I DOING?! behaving like some stupid coach.haha.why do i bother?bwahahahah.
had english with the sweet and adorable ms siao.bwahaha.funny.we were making fun of youfong.hahaha.about some toilet cleaner thing and some Golden Bowl Award. Golden Toilet Bowl Award would have been more appropriate.haha.youfong's cute.and sheri and i were practising and revising what we learnt in english lesson-formal letter writing.we used the apporpriate format and language and wrote letter to youfong.hahaha.congratulating her for winning the golden bowl award.inviting her for the gold bowl awards ceremony held in the biggest toilet in india.transport frm her bagladesh [or whatever] hometown would be provided.she has to collect her sampam tickets frm the sampan-port in HongKong.crapss/the the ceremony held on 13 April 1989.wow.she was born on 14 April 1989.and the letter was written on 24 February 2004. Yet the time we checked the toilet she cleaned was 24 March 2004.bwahaha.sheri and i are just full of crap. oh wells.

after sch didnt go trng.didnt bring anything for trng.somemore got mesus.got cramp.plus common test over.should go relax.AND.plus the most important thing.i couldnt go since my bag was in class and hasyimah happily went home with the key.and we were locked outside.until the end of time.okay.crap.ran around the whole school like bananas until we finally found someone who can open our door.hahaha.we even tried to climb pass windows kay.but got grill.haha.oh well.

after tt went to town with grace[yew] and co.they ate.i went to kino.met weiling there.long time nv see her liao.hahaha.not the crescent weiling.another one.haha.so we walked arnd for a while.thn i went back to KFC to find thm.they walked arnd.blahblahblah.thn talked to grace.yah.about stuffs.yea.tried to clear her doubts.but.haha.like i said.tried.haha.and well.i got her pondering over what i said.bwahahaha.oh wells.anyway.after tt i walked to sch frm town.and fetched my bike.and zooooom.left.and went home.

okok.my eyelids falling rdy.sigh.tmr's gg to be another long day.i feel so tied up.and i havent paid so many slp-debts.my immunce system is gg to breakdown one fine day man.oh wellx.byyyeeeee. [=

yess.i'm still alive.after 9218439132849108490823940 seconds.havent gone offline yet.so bored.chatted with gwen.sigh.things go really wrong when u misunderstand and become rash. make rash decisions etc.

[gwen: i seriously hope u'll think through agn.wisely.everything.abt the future too.yah?once its gone it will be gone.dont want to see another broken friendship.take care.okayy?]

all friendships are the same.all the same.everything she say i can relate to and understand.

life is not as simple as it seems.and its not as smooth-sailing as u think it is.we just have to hold on.

i got scolded by my dad just now.not really scolded.since he doesnt dare to.we're like strangers now.sigh.anyway.he just said tt i shouldnt waste money eating ice-cream.i bought the walls thing tt cost $6.80.come to think of it.it was really a waste.

xiaoyi is gg to stay here for 2 weeks.her mum's in china.i dun noe.i'll try to be nice.i will be nice.

read proverbs just now.i've been so wrong.terribly wrong.and i'm glad i read proverbs.i havent finished the whole book of proverbs yet.halfway through.its mostly about rules, warnings etc.

actually.its not brave to be bad.as in.there is more challenge to try to be good.its easy to give in to temptations, but if u can resist thm, u are strong.yea.i want to be good from now on.i dun want to be so easily influenced.

let's randomly pick out sth frm proverbs..hm..
"A fool finds pleasure in evil conduct, but a man of understanding delights in wisdom"
-Proverbs 10:23

GOD BLESS 3G3!!! [= and the whole of crescent.and the whole of singapore.bwahahaha.okok.in short.

GOD BLESS THE WORLD!

its been 924832498108347183479018430918309183091 yrs since i last bloggd.sigh.havent really gone online for 94819481348920834920384298 yrs.used to go online everyday.see how stressful sec 3's life is?double sigh.

today had chinese and chem common test.i should have studied for chinese.i didnt.i was watching "band of brothers" ytd.my bro taped it.sigh.and i was out.went to cut my hair.its layered now.though grace says it doest look any different.no one ever notices my haircut everytime.=[ nvm.anyway.and.i was out.and when i reached hm.i was watching tv.sigh.and to think sheri n i were like:"from now on, i want to study."and.double sigh.i broke my promise.nvm.lesson learnt.i will study next time.and not regret ltr on after the test. =]

always look on the bright side of life.dadum.dadadadum.

haha.ytd ms chia was just being too cute.i miss her.i have a serious problem with kwa- uh.MDM kwan.i have no idea how she even became a tcher.i mean,even mr loh said we should refrain frm using words like wah piang.how can we when the teacher is not even setting a gd example for us.mdm kwan goes wah piang everywhere she goes.and sits so unlady-like with her legs wide open in a skirt.its like.she's the total opposite of ms chia.i really really miss ms chia.

i miss ms chia

today is thinking day.haha.the guide singing on the stage.like a robot.nonono.the guides on the stage were so hilarious.like robots.and vanessa's voice was so high pitch i swear every glass in the parade square broke.and the singing guidee was like so monotonous or however u spell it.hahahaha.it was so hilarious.i couldnt stop laughing.

got breakout.again.mensus.alot of pimples!!and they are BIG and VIOLENT.and itchy.yikes!

deeda deeda.i got my bible finally.it was the last one in the shop.haha.i went arnd s'pore to find it.great world,the dun noe wad place,jurong point etc etc and finally found it at the.uh.stamford house i think.the one near bras basah.the shop name is C&S.a cool christian shop indeed.i wanted to buy the notebook there.it was really cool.really.but the bible cost $17.85 and i only had $17.haha.bargained with the cashier.she paid 85cents for me in the end.how nice.she's so sweet.i dun even know her and she paid 85 cents for me. [=

sat have cell agn.they are gg to study.hm.i wonder if i can help thm.hehehe.since i'm the oldest there, technically,i should be the smartest.haha.*shrugs* we'll see...

i'm still thinking abt gothika.and still having nightmares abt it.wah liewww.the bloody scenes.so bloody.as in.literally bloody.YIKES!shant talk abt it.

sheri wants me to go watch gothika agn.after common test.diediee.i shall go commit suicide.seriously.i'ld do anything.ANYTHING.just dun make me watch a horror film agn.haha.oh wellx.i shall end my entry here.

not my philosophy[ha!ha!].a verse frm the bible:
"Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path"
-Psalms 119:105

today.haha.was fine as usual.paula was feeling sick but she didnt go home.hope she's fine now.yep.take care,paupau.haha.sherilyn and paula wont be gg to sch tmr.sigh.both of thm sitting beside me lorhx.maybe i dun wanna go also.shall see.erbx.forgot to sher's house there to buy bible.haha.i lost mine.haha.i told sheri tt i lost it while biking.the bible just flew off my hand.i think she believed me.BWAHAHAHAHAH>hilarious.aiyah.she's gg to read this.so i shall tell the truth here.i lost it in the mrt with a present i bought for mingee.haha.oh wells.thn thn thn.yah.after sch it was raining n i went to fetch my bike into sch cuz i didnt want it to get wet.thn jan soph and cherlynn went to the back to play with my bike.

[ people who have read my blog before i dlted this section of it.haha.i realized tt i'm a nice person.bwaha.so i shall just dlt it.[= ]

anyway.ytd was fine too.shc was okayy.and trng.yea.ppl there know what happened.thx to konglam,nihaad,melissa and joanne.haha.konglam's really sweet.i'm seriously gg to miss her when they leave this yr.sighh.oh.and the juniors too.thx and sorry.sorry for ignoring u guys cuz i wasnt in a good mood.i'll learn more self-cntrl in future.sorry yah?and thx anyway.esp amanda,bernice,zakkya.okayy.i forgot how to spell "zakkya"s name.ugh.

[ and to the same grp of ppl agn.i dlted this part too.[= ]

sigh.there's sth wrong with my blog.it takes a very very long time to load.in my laptop at least.nvm.shall deal with it next time.which most probably means i wun.haha.common test in 2 more days.sec ones shuang lor.dun have ct.only D&T.eeyurh.we didnt have this privilledge when we were sec one u know.unfairity.

[ and yes.haha.this part too.i thot my philosophy or whatever was senseless.haha.]