booO.today is sunday.i'm gg to rest.nt even gg with my sis fer tuition.

i feel like a loser troublemaker.in sch i cause troble.at hm i cause trouble.i go to church.and i still cause trouble.and what makes me feel worse is that everyone whom icaused trouble for tells me its okayy.i know they probably just said it becuz they didnt want to further upset me or anything.but it just makes me feel worse.and guilty.i dun want thm to treat me so well.u know?its my fault.so why cant u just tell me its my fault?

ytd.they went to west coast.i wanted to go with mel.but mel had a fever so she didnt go.and i didnt go.and they thot i was gg.supposed to meet at 1330 at jurong east mrt.and daniel called me at 1410 to ask me where am i.i am a troublemaker.thn after tt.went to church.saturday night life.when the speaker was speaking.i was talking.disturbed ppl around me.yifang had to ask me to keep quiet.and after church.we went fer dinner.and my freaking moronic stomach hurted agn.if i had just.if i had just controled the pain.overcomed it.and daniel called the ambulance cuz i was trembling and i passed out.and everyone said he made a wrong decision.though he says tt he isnt sad bcuz everyone says so, we all can tell he is.and it isnt his fault. u know? its my fault.if i didnt have whatever crap stomachache.he wouldnt call the ambulance.and they wouldnt blame him.and after tt.the ambulance came.they talked to my dad cuz i didnt want to go to the hosipital.and they said my sis had to come and fetch me or else i have to go to the hospital.and my sis was alrdy on her way hm.it was so troublesome for her.and she's usually very gd tempered.but ytd.she was pissed.she was all tired frm work.and she had to go all the way there to fetch me.and daniel yifang fay and mel had to wait fer me until ten plus for my sis.u know?if nth had happened, they wouldnt need to wait for me.and after tt.i spilled dan and mel's fries all over the floor.and they just kept telling me its okayy.and everything else.they just kept saying its okayy.u know how much trouble i caused?

but anw.thx to karyn,grace,yen,mel,yifang,daniel,fayanne and joy.thx alot.and to wanting [i think tt's the name] and the uncles and aunties at the hawker centre.thanx to all of u! and sorry too.

and to my sis.i'm really very very sorry.but thx anyway.

i really feel very very bad.maybe i shouldnt have one for dinner or whatever.the more time i spent with thm.the more trouble i bring to thm.i am trouble.

tian ah.i'm so tired.just reached home.went to Golden Mile with my mum to get army stuffs.haha.not for my brother.for me.hahaha.i got this army shirt.u know.the grey one.though everyone thinks its not nice.haha.i like it. [=

got the addidas shoe too. sharing it with my sis cuz i dun have enough to pay for it myself. haha

sis got her o level's results. 3marks. not bad.in fact, very good. she can go to a better JC. but she choses to stay in TJC. oh wells. TJC is not very bad anyway.haha.its the top 5 at least.

sch was fine.seniors came back for the results.and gwen and sherilyn went mad.and natania too.haha.natania was having bad hair.haha.looks weird.

ate quite alot today.haha.

so tired.i've so many slp debts.i'm gg to blog this.bath and go slp.until tmr.i shall wake up at 11am. bath.get ready to go sch to fetch melissa.haha.she doesnt want to go to the outing at west coast. until i said i would fetch her.oh wells.haha.so anw.will fetch her and have lunch before we meet the rest i think. her band ends at 1230.

laura lost her phone again.the second time.both are expensive phones. what a day to lose her phone. a day when i brought my extra clothes and undergarments to change cuz there was [supposed to have] trng. i mean i thought there was trng but they cancelled it. i brought so i could bath after kayaking. apparantly. they did a spot check. and they have to check my undergarments. and i didnt bring the nice sportsbra today.hahaha.i brought the orange one with grey straps. yuck. sarah and sheri thinks its nice. i think the blue one is much nicer. oh yah.sarah was wearing this cool bra that was black and had hot pink straps. cool. its not sports bra.its normal. it seems abit like a push-up to me.hahahahahahahahahahaha. oh wells. sarah doesnt need thm.hers are big enough. d=

so so so so so so so tired. everyday. i will have something on. am i over-working myself? sigh. sunday. i'm gg to be free on sunday. i swear. i'm not gg anywhere. i need time to relax. so i wun become stupid. i'm becoming stupid. its so scary. i dun want to become stupid.

oh wells. shall go do the shit english thing now. byee

i am turning stupid.

new phrase: oh mee-an~
haha.something tt gwen would use to make me laugh. and wake me up.

new most commonly sung song: wo she bu de ni------ yeayea... HAHAHAHHA. i was singing tt to people who walked pass me at the bus stop when cherlynn and i were at the bus stop going hm frm sarah's house. i sang tt to mdm kwan too. [=

ytd. sch. fwd the entire sch part. went to great world for lunch. sarah and i lied to the woman selling the jap food tt we were 16. and gg to go overseas to study at the end of this yr.she thot we were too young.and we said tt it was possible to go right after 'O's. thn she asked about expenses. we said sch sponsor. and she sure was shocked.haha.she was like [in chinese.she frm china i think] "I should have sent my daughter to ur sch!" went to sarah's hse after tt.gwen cherlynn sheri and i. wanted to swim.security guard there.say we cnnt swim without "proper attire". cant he say swimming costume? want to go gym. stupid another security guard say only two allowed at a time. plz lorh. and sarah was like:"then why is the gym so big?" haha.tried to follow this crescentian staying at the same condo so tt we could ask her to bring us to the gym. cuz one resident can only bring two people there.haha.mission failed. wanted to play tennis. gwen and cherlynn complained hot.haha.played water for a while.thn i had this great idea tt we pretend to fall into the pool. tt way, the old man who sits there and do nth actually cant do anything to us.haha.laughed about how we would look like pinballs.one after another, in a line. *tud-tud-tud-tud-tud* and we all drop down.HAHAHAHAHHA.ended up at sarah's house.study room.using com.haha.pretending to do project.haha.thn the two piggy sheri and piggy cherlynn went to sarah's bed to slp.in their sweaty dirty PE kit.haha.they slpt like little babies.they lked so cute.like two babies slping on the bed.really!haha.so cute.just tt abit too overgrown for a baby.gwen and i prank called ppl.haha.spoke in a funny accent to jan.telling her she owes the hospital money. $150 for an operation.HAHHAHAHA.some weird right knee op.hahahaha.oh wells.she was tricked.until we told her the truth.hahahahahha.sarah was watching some hongkong vcd.tried to prank call you fong aka yuxi aka yukee aka yuke fong.haha.she cute girl lah.i say one sentence thn burst out laughing.and so.yea.it was spoilt.hahaha.thn dunnoe still got call who.

i'm so tired.just finishd my dumb english portfolio shit.hahaha.oh wells.dun blog leh.i'm gg to slp.right now. at this time. good night. [=

Proverbs 3:5-6:
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight."

haha.so obsessed with my bible.bwahaha.
here's one for you,grace [yeeWw]:
Jeremiah 29:11-13:
"For I know the plans I have for you", declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
take care loads.

recap of saturday. morning-common test for.uh.english and maths d i think.forgot.after tt went to amanda's house.haha.helped her paint her room.her dad's cool.cute.nice.unlike typical stern strict dads.yea.her mum's nice too.and this was this other man frm church tt.he looked so familiar.i must have seen him back thn 6 yrs ago.haha.anw.he was helping to paint the room.hm.they paint veri differently frm my family.for us, we just buy the paint and start painting every corner every inch of the house.for thm.they move the furniture,clean the place.wipe every inch with a wet towel to remove ducst and to provide a smooth surface for painting.and woah.the preparation itself takes a longer time thn painting.and angel,the dog, was there agn.attempting to eat the paint.lucky uncle [manda's dad] chased her out of the room fast enough.haha.anyway.so we went to church.cell havent started.joind the shalom first.they were playing this weird game where u have to stick a piece of paper at a certain body part and there will be this person reading this story.and everytime she comes across the word "butterfly" u have to stick ur piece of paper with another person's.mel had hers on her butt.haha.and she had to stick her butt to someone else's leg cuz tt person got tt paper on her leg.haha.cool.thn we also played this weird version of concentration game.where we dun use numbers.we use actions for animals in stead.i got the cute mosquito action.which was so easy to do tt everyone sabotaged me.sigh.so bad.thn everytime i wanted to change action.they would change their target action also.so bad right?haha.nvm.thn ltr on i sian rdy.i wanted to be mrs william faquar.but thn got no action.hahaha.anyway.after a long long of tt weird animal game, cell finally started. ros,mel,karyn,yi fang and fay present.haha.fay was just being cute.mel was sick.she was feverish and had stomach flu.think she's better now.anw.so cell as usual with me crapping and warning thm not to sing high pitched songs.haha.yea.thn karyn wanted us to write what we pray for on a piece of paper.she did the sharing for tt day.and yepps.we did.guess what i wrote:
1.)Pray tt Mel would be better
2.)Pray that Ros will grow taller
tee-hee.fay saw it.she laughed.haha.thn went for sat night life.sang the usuals.and there was this Dr Agatha Chan speaker frm hongkong who had this weird hongkong accent.haha.so cute.and she kept going like:"isnt tt gross?? huh?huh?"and she keeps walking arnd,which is good.so my eyes wun stay at a certain place and cause me to fall aslp.and she was just sooo cute and funny.and mel was being cute again.haha.sat night life supposed to end at 7.and at 7.10 she said the closing prayer.which was about 5mins long.haha.everytime she said:"in Jesus' name..." Joy and i would think tt the prayer was gg to end.and she will continue.haha.so anyway.after the closing prayer.Dr agatha chan said:"now let me tell u another 2 or 3 stories." and we were like........................................hahax.she thinks its supposed to end at 7.30.haha.nvm.anyway after tt had dinner with fay yifang joy joseph lin.yah.lin and yen are sisters.haha.i knew it.they looked too alike.and lin is 13.but she looks like 16.haha.yen is 16.but she looks.well.13.haha.ate at macdonalds.or should i say "madonna".*looks at Joy*haha.cuz Joy is mixed.so when she says macdonalds, we all hear it as madonna.haha.oh btw.yifang is my cousin.my dad's william faquar.and her dad's kelvin faquar.see.i told u she was my cousin.bwahahaha.no larhx.she's not.she just looks like my cousins who i see once a yr on new year.thn we talked and laughed alot through dinner.haha.about the agatha woman.hahaha.kind of like gossiping abt her.haha.oh well.she's just so cute.thn after tt we went hm.

[just received a phone call frm bedok south neighbor hood police station.interestingly,they used my sister's hp to call.what a waste of hp bill.haha.anyway.i guess my sis lost her phone.yea.cuz tt's wad the policeman said.he sounded like those blurblurr policeman.haha.cute.nvm]

kayys. and on sunday.i was supposed to go church with grace.but i reached hm too late on saturday tt i overslept.sorry grace!went with my sis to my cousin's house.my sis wanted me to study.oh wells. i did study.

monday.yesterday.in sch.everyone kept saying tt i didnt study.no one believe tt i studied.haha.oh wells.i was too busy preaching to the class.i seriously think what i said was crap.since it sounded like crap anyway.and sheri was just being cute.after sch was supposed to go hospital for confirmation of the operation.but my mum changed the date.cuz she knew i had common test.so anyway.was supposed to go with grace [yew] and gang.but thn ended up with grace [yeo] and gang.hahaha.grace,ros,yifang,mel.yepps.we ate lunch tgt.and mel was disgusted to find a chicken leg in her lotus soup.hahaha.yifang grace and mel drank lotus soup.i dun understand.why do they all like it so much.i havent even seen a lotus before.haha.so they ate lunch and we left.on the way to westmall library, mel felt guilty cuz she was supposed to accompany her mum.her mum was home alone.so she went to find her mum instead.so it was my ros yifang and gRace.haha.grace was just being tooooo cute again.haha.we ended up in mac at bukitbatok mrt instead.haha.shared some stuff with yifang.about my life.and grace and mel went to popular for 241274382724362734623 yrs.haha.ate ice-cream.and mac colosso.oh yah.out side sch we bought ice-cream.and mel the ice-cream and had a stomach ache.she forgot she wasnt supposed to cuz she had stomach flu.bwahaha.oops.i'm sadistic.anyways.back to macdonalds.yah.so after tt i sat on the baby chair and tested thm geog.cuz they had geog common test the next day.grace is so cute.and rosalind.hahaha.saying all the lame things and speaking indian.i mean.tamil.really.she speaks like tamil.haha.and yea.after tt in the evening.arnd 6+++ we left.i went back to sch to collect my bike.and went to tbp to meet my sis.who was alrdy rotting there.haha.anyway.so.walked arnd.she treated me soon kueh.yea.blah blah blah.

today.lit was such a waste.i had sooooooooooooooo much to write.but i didnt.not enough time.and somemore i re-writed cuz it was too untidy.but still.after re-writing.it was still untidy.bwahaha.oh wells.waste of time man.i think i still can pass.but it'll be a bare one. ]= during recess played bball with sheri [yayys!throw paper] gwen cherlynn sarah yuxi aka you fong aka mdm fool real name FOO YUKE FONG!!! huiyi and kong hoon.huiyi konghoon cherlynn and sheri oo=ne team.all the tall tall giants.excpt for cute little baby sheri.who was barely my size.hahaha.it looks so cute.i meant.SHE looked so cute.like a little baby.in her over-sized uniform.trying to look tall by boosting her chest.HAHAHAHAHAHA.youfong gwen sa-la and i one team.WE WON!!! YAYYY! it was a thrast 20-0!!! YAYYS! okayy.tt was a lie.hahahah.we lost.oh wells.i was too busy screaming and shouting and singing and jumping abt like a mad giraffe.hahahaha. d= i think they think i'm mad.helped sarah give birth to her bagladeshi or however u spell tt weird word sheri uses baby.yah.it was so hard.i had to pull the baby out.and the head was stuck inside.BWAHAHAHAHAHHA.so i dug it out.my hands were full of her blood.and i super glued the baby's head back.it wasnt very stable.so we left it at the bball court to dry.and we continued bballing.hahaha.so funny.sarah's blood was dripping all over the bball court.even at places she didnt walk pass.BWAHAHAHA.okayy.to those who are confused: its just all crap.hahahahaha.anywayys.i think youfong is a good player.her defence and passes are good.her dribbling is not bad either.clam when aiming and shooting.she's above average for everything.yea.just needs to practise more.and huiyi has good passes and defence. sherilyn.uh.very nice to hug.i was hugging her in the bball court to prevent her frm catching any balls.u know right.she shouting like dun noe wad to get people to pass the ball to her.so cute.cuz she so small sized.SO CUTTTEEEEE! back to huiyi.huiyi's weak point is at her shooting.too nervous.when she reaches a distance she can shoot in, she just shoots without aiming.just shoots in the direction of the board.yea.youfong should be a power forward.as for me, a point guard.hahaha.cherlynn can aim well.but not very good at dribbling.passess and catches are slightly above average.but is calm.though sometimes may delay passes.yah.not alert enough.but very calm.AIYAH! WHAT AM I DOING?! behaving like some stupid coach.haha.why do i bother?bwahahahah.
had english with the sweet and adorable ms siao.bwahaha.funny.we were making fun of youfong.hahaha.about some toilet cleaner thing and some Golden Bowl Award. Golden Toilet Bowl Award would have been more appropriate.haha.youfong's cute.and sheri and i were practising and revising what we learnt in english lesson-formal letter writing.we used the apporpriate format and language and wrote letter to youfong.hahaha.congratulating her for winning the golden bowl award.inviting her for the gold bowl awards ceremony held in the biggest toilet in india.transport frm her bagladesh [or whatever] hometown would be provided.she has to collect her sampam tickets frm the sampan-port in HongKong.crapss/the the ceremony held on 13 April 1989.wow.she was born on 14 April 1989.and the letter was written on 24 February 2004. Yet the time we checked the toilet she cleaned was 24 March 2004.bwahaha.sheri and i are just full of crap. oh wells.

after sch didnt go trng.didnt bring anything for trng.somemore got mesus.got cramp.plus common test over.should go relax.AND.plus the most important thing.i couldnt go since my bag was in class and hasyimah happily went home with the key.and we were locked outside.until the end of time.okay.crap.ran around the whole school like bananas until we finally found someone who can open our door.hahaha.we even tried to climb pass windows kay.but got grill.haha.oh well.

after tt went to town with grace[yew] and co.they ate.i went to kino.met weiling there.long time nv see her liao.hahaha.not the crescent weiling.another one.haha.so we walked arnd for a while.thn i went back to KFC to find thm.they walked arnd.blahblahblah.thn talked to grace.yah.about stuffs.yea.tried to clear her doubts.but.haha.like i said.tried.haha.and well.i got her pondering over what i said.bwahahaha.oh wells.anyway.after tt i walked to sch frm town.and fetched my bike.and zooooom.left.and went home.

okok.my eyelids falling rdy.sigh.tmr's gg to be another long day.i feel so tied up.and i havent paid so many slp-debts.my immunce system is gg to breakdown one fine day man.oh wellx.byyyeeeee. [=

yess.i'm still alive.after 9218439132849108490823940 seconds.havent gone offline yet.so bored.chatted with gwen.sigh.things go really wrong when u misunderstand and become rash. make rash decisions etc.

[gwen: i seriously hope u'll think through agn.wisely.everything.abt the future too.yah?once its gone it will be gone.dont want to see another broken friendship.take care.okayy?]

all friendships are the same.all the same.everything she say i can relate to and understand.

life is not as simple as it seems.and its not as smooth-sailing as u think it is.we just have to hold on.

i got scolded by my dad just now.not really scolded.since he doesnt dare to.we're like strangers now.sigh.anyway.he just said tt i shouldnt waste money eating ice-cream.i bought the walls thing tt cost $6.80.come to think of it.it was really a waste.

xiaoyi is gg to stay here for 2 weeks.her mum's in china.i dun noe.i'll try to be nice.i will be nice.

read proverbs just now.i've been so wrong.terribly wrong.and i'm glad i read proverbs.i havent finished the whole book of proverbs yet.halfway through.its mostly about rules, warnings etc.

actually.its not brave to be bad.as in.there is more challenge to try to be good.its easy to give in to temptations, but if u can resist thm, u are strong.yea.i want to be good from now on.i dun want to be so easily influenced.

let's randomly pick out sth frm proverbs..hm..
"A fool finds pleasure in evil conduct, but a man of understanding delights in wisdom"
-Proverbs 10:23

GOD BLESS 3G3!!! [= and the whole of crescent.and the whole of singapore.bwahahaha.okok.in short.

GOD BLESS THE WORLD!

its been 924832498108347183479018430918309183091 yrs since i last bloggd.sigh.havent really gone online for 94819481348920834920384298 yrs.used to go online everyday.see how stressful sec 3's life is?double sigh.

today had chinese and chem common test.i should have studied for chinese.i didnt.i was watching "band of brothers" ytd.my bro taped it.sigh.and i was out.went to cut my hair.its layered now.though grace says it doest look any different.no one ever notices my haircut everytime.=[ nvm.anyway.and.i was out.and when i reached hm.i was watching tv.sigh.and to think sheri n i were like:"from now on, i want to study."and.double sigh.i broke my promise.nvm.lesson learnt.i will study next time.and not regret ltr on after the test. =]

always look on the bright side of life.dadum.dadadadum.

haha.ytd ms chia was just being too cute.i miss her.i have a serious problem with kwa- uh.MDM kwan.i have no idea how she even became a tcher.i mean,even mr loh said we should refrain frm using words like wah piang.how can we when the teacher is not even setting a gd example for us.mdm kwan goes wah piang everywhere she goes.and sits so unlady-like with her legs wide open in a skirt.its like.she's the total opposite of ms chia.i really really miss ms chia.

i miss ms chia

today is thinking day.haha.the guide singing on the stage.like a robot.nonono.the guides on the stage were so hilarious.like robots.and vanessa's voice was so high pitch i swear every glass in the parade square broke.and the singing guidee was like so monotonous or however u spell it.hahahaha.it was so hilarious.i couldnt stop laughing.

got breakout.again.mensus.alot of pimples!!and they are BIG and VIOLENT.and itchy.yikes!

deeda deeda.i got my bible finally.it was the last one in the shop.haha.i went arnd s'pore to find it.great world,the dun noe wad place,jurong point etc etc and finally found it at the.uh.stamford house i think.the one near bras basah.the shop name is C&S.a cool christian shop indeed.i wanted to buy the notebook there.it was really cool.really.but the bible cost $17.85 and i only had $17.haha.bargained with the cashier.she paid 85cents for me in the end.how nice.she's so sweet.i dun even know her and she paid 85 cents for me. [=

sat have cell agn.they are gg to study.hm.i wonder if i can help thm.hehehe.since i'm the oldest there, technically,i should be the smartest.haha.*shrugs* we'll see...

i'm still thinking abt gothika.and still having nightmares abt it.wah liewww.the bloody scenes.so bloody.as in.literally bloody.YIKES!shant talk abt it.

sheri wants me to go watch gothika agn.after common test.diediee.i shall go commit suicide.seriously.i'ld do anything.ANYTHING.just dun make me watch a horror film agn.haha.oh wellx.i shall end my entry here.

not my philosophy[ha!ha!].a verse frm the bible:
"Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path"
-Psalms 119:105

today.haha.was fine as usual.paula was feeling sick but she didnt go home.hope she's fine now.yep.take care,paupau.haha.sherilyn and paula wont be gg to sch tmr.sigh.both of thm sitting beside me lorhx.maybe i dun wanna go also.shall see.erbx.forgot to sher's house there to buy bible.haha.i lost mine.haha.i told sheri tt i lost it while biking.the bible just flew off my hand.i think she believed me.BWAHAHAHAHAH>hilarious.aiyah.she's gg to read this.so i shall tell the truth here.i lost it in the mrt with a present i bought for mingee.haha.oh wells.thn thn thn.yah.after sch it was raining n i went to fetch my bike into sch cuz i didnt want it to get wet.thn jan soph and cherlynn went to the back to play with my bike.

[ people who have read my blog before i dlted this section of it.haha.i realized tt i'm a nice person.bwaha.so i shall just dlt it.[= ]

anyway.ytd was fine too.shc was okayy.and trng.yea.ppl there know what happened.thx to konglam,nihaad,melissa and joanne.haha.konglam's really sweet.i'm seriously gg to miss her when they leave this yr.sighh.oh.and the juniors too.thx and sorry.sorry for ignoring u guys cuz i wasnt in a good mood.i'll learn more self-cntrl in future.sorry yah?and thx anyway.esp amanda,bernice,zakkya.okayy.i forgot how to spell "zakkya"s name.ugh.

[ and to the same grp of ppl agn.i dlted this part too.[= ]

sigh.there's sth wrong with my blog.it takes a very very long time to load.in my laptop at least.nvm.shall deal with it next time.which most probably means i wun.haha.common test in 2 more days.sec ones shuang lor.dun have ct.only D&T.eeyurh.we didnt have this privilledge when we were sec one u know.unfairity.

[ and yes.haha.this part too.i thot my philosophy or whatever was senseless.haha.]

yooOkaboodooOo.bwahaha.creating alot of my own weird language nowadays.bwahaha.ytd was v day.bwahaha.was out for.uh.16hours.pro.and to think i didnt die.

trng was fine.amanda and joyce didnt get to row.sad.not enough kayaks.and mr josef went down to row.for fun.selfish man.neverminds.after trng went to amanda's house to bath.her dog has the same name as i.angel.angel.bwahaha.no larhx.i'm not angel lah.oh wells.her dog's fur very VERY extremely smooth and fine.like human hair.really.my gosh.it was so nice to touch.bwahaha.sounds sick.nvm.thn i bathed.ate ice-cream.did u know tt ice-cream would be good for u if u have a sorethroat? manda's dad told me tt.he said doctors in london recommended ice-cream when u have a sorethroat.so anw.my throat felt a bit better after eating the ice-cream.but still very painful.thn we left for cell grp tgt.and we met this uh.i think she's insane.woman outside her condo.haha.who was like.telling us a long long story about some weird stones tt nearly damaged her shoes outside the temple.and she even thought manda n i were.what.attached tgt.MY GOSH!she asked me:"u bringing ur girlfriend out?"and pointed to amanda.and i was like:"huh?"*acts innocent*and she said:"oh.are u local?"and i was like:"yah."and she said:"so sorry."and she started to tell us about her so called "damn stones".and in the end.manda n i walked pass the temple.and saw the stones she was talking abt.it was those u know.outside temples.there would be this lion cub stone thing.yah.those.my gosh.she was really insane.and i only talkd to her cuz i thot she knew manda.haha.
cellgrp.started alot later.uh.ros,mel,grace,manda,serena[mel's sis] and i went.during praise and worship.aiyah.talk abt it next time.thn anyway.had alot of fun.played games.and ros is really good.i was rather surprised.felt abit inferior cuz i was supposed to be older.but oh wellx.let's just put this age thing aside.doesnt mean tt i'm older i have to be better in everything.yeppx.and fayanne pro-est.she didnt know there was cell today.and rushed down frm red hill when we started cell.she came.when.we JUST ended cell.haha.and she bought this really cool 37degrees t shirt which i have.hahaha.tt's y its cool.and grace n mel is just tooo cute.love em to bitts.
thn went in to join the shalom.and played.until it was 5.realized sat night life started.immediately ended the game and rushed down.haha.thn.paster daniel talked.about love.yeah.and about apostle paul.yah.and i realized alot of things.everything paster daniel said.was so.i dun noe.just.was glad to be there anyway.thn after tt went for dinner.ros didnt go.manda went home too.ros had to go grandma's hosue.made alot of friends there.haha.i dun even have to make friends actually.since i used to be a memeber of this church.alot of thm alrdy knew me.so it was like.meeting old friends agn.haha.and rachel knows me thru my.uh.mum. she was like:"u are aunty adeline's daughter right?"haha.and joseph also asked me if my mum was aunty adeline.funny.the way they call my mum.aunty adeline.haha.so anyway.ate dinner with.alot of thm.can only name those ppl i know.uh.the guys table i dun noe who was there.the girls table.have.me.the simply cute and adorable grace.china doll cheryl.haha.she's gg to kill me.chio rebecca.melissa.joyce.and another two girls i dun noe their names.and oh yah. audrey and rachel were at the guys table.throughout dinner grace n i were like.some insaned unstoppable laughing crap machine.HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.SHE'S SO CUTE!!!!!!!!!! i laugh until my throat.frm bad to worse to no voice at all.hahahahahahahahaha.SHE IS SOOOOOOO CUTEEEEE! and she looks like monkey.and she do the monkey face with fayanne.SOOOOOO CUTEEEE! hahaha.aiyah.in short.she;s just.CUTE!and we were like.HAHAHAHA.alot of funny things lah.like pretending to use the chocolate to kill each other.hahaha.and making earthquakes.and HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.omg omg.she's so cute!thn after tt crapped.and crapped.and mel and daniel were in front singing song shit song.as in.literally shit.sth abt sitting in the tiolet bowl.backside very cold.thn dun noe wad.shit.HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.they very cute also. daniel in tjc also.haha.but one year older thn my sis.so.i dun think they know each other.thn saw the bus.joseph daniel mel and i ran for it.didnt even have time to say bye bye to my dear grace.haha.smsed her anyway.haha.thn went to westmall to watch movie.they very indecisive.girls wanna watch elixir of love.giuys wanna watch torque.so we ended up with.what.GOTHIKA?!?!?!oh wellx.went in.show ardy started for 15mins.and thn cheryl n rebecca came.daniel went out to fetch thm.they missed more thn us.wah liew.the show so scary.i scream until i frm no more voice become no more lungs.screamed my lungs out.i even cried in the cinema lorhx.i wanted to run out.but no one will pei me.so i stayed there.tortured myself.haha.i screamed the lousdest in the whole cinema lorhx.its like.we were the only ones screaming.all the couples there pissed with us. thn daniel at first sit beside me one.haha.he went to sit at the end there.cuz i think i screamed too loud.and joseph.uh.fell aslp?!?!?>!haha.he so cute lorh.finally show end.haha.so funny.mel was like:"aiyoh.dun cry dun cry.dun watch dun watch."and patting me.so sweet of her.haha.so weird.its like.a junior doing tt to me.haha.walking out of cinema tt time i used my pullover to cover my head.malu malu.dun want to be recognized.as the girl who screamed at anything.haha.one part of the show.only the handphone ring only i scream.and the part where a bird flew past.mel and i screamed.and daniel thought the screaming came frm the show.hahahah.so funny.but scary.after the show msged ros.she so bad lorh.scare me somemore.keep telling me:"NOT ALONE"so bad so bad.haha.but i still love her.thn rebecca left with joseph.mel cheryl daniel n i took mrt.mel and cheryl took the other side.daniel n i took the jurong side.haha.frm bukit batok to jurong.i was walking around in frnt of daniel who was sitting down.talking and talking.and crapping abt lizards,frogs,chickens,cows,monkeys,william faquar,mohamad ghandi. hahaha.weird me.they think i'm insane.oh wellx.not surprising.i was behaving like this unstoppable hyperactive kid.running about for nth shouting "zoooom!!!!"hahahahaha.and bullshitting about me being the founder of singapore but used raffles name instead.thn i got the whatever money and used it to buy anti-wrinkle cream.therefore i look so young even though i'm 101 yrs old.and me being mrs william faquar.knowing alot of stupid stuffs.like if u walk in a certain formation on the tiles in westmall, the wall will open to a secret chamber.hahahahaha.and i know the formation.but the qualifications of walking is tt u have to be 100yrs and below.but i was 101.HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.crapp.oh wellx.so anyway.jurong.we both got off.his train came so soon.and mine.i waited for like 12 mins.reached home dead tired.HAHAHAHHA.daniel thinks the way i speak to my parents is cool.haha.this was how i spoke:
me:hello?may i speak to adeline plz?
dad:adeline? who are u?
me:i'm calling frm the C&C company.
dad:huh?C&C company?
me:yah.she owes us.[pauses]AIYAH! LAO PA! JIAO MUMMY TING DIAN HUA LA[aiyah!dad!get mum on the phone lah.hahah]
so funny.thn my dad said my mum wasnt at home.so i put down the phone.ltr on my mum called:
mum:hello.lynn ah.where-
me:yes m'am.i'm calling frm the C&C company.u owe us $2000.u need to pay us by the end of this month or our company will take legel actions against u.
mum: [laughs]dun play lah.everyday C&C.hahahaha
thn the rest not funny liao.hahahahaha.oh wells.anywayy.so.i reached home at about 12+++.and fell aslp on the floor.hahaha.woke up after dun noe how long and went to bath.stank like mad.hahaha.thn.yah.next thing i know.it was morning agn.hahaha.ate breakfast with my sis at mac today.haha.her treat.for v day.so cool right?lalala.kayyx.shall stop blogging.write for so long liao.like telling story liddat.haha.oh wells. byeee

okayyx.my blog is.officially unofficially done.officially done temporarily.unofficial cuz i intend to change the pic.cnnt find a nice pic despite my search for 1hr++.its now.uh.reaching 3am.my sis just woke up to do her dunnoe wad weird work.oh wells.told her tt i just woke up too.obviously i didnt even slp.yawns.i shall stay awake.and go for trng in another 5hrs++.i shall go make coffee.wheepeedeee.i think.i wasted 6hours.on a blog.which i think i'm gg to re-do agn tmr.what a waste of time.arghs!heck.who cares abt how my blog looks.as long as I am happy,i can even change it to the random ones blogger got.those damn orh-piang ones.who cares.forget it.i'm not.NOT.going to re-do it.damn damn damn.scary scary.my sis suddenly went back to slp agn.i think she just slept-walk.cool.now i know her secret.bwahaha.she slp talks too.shall go and ka-jiao her first.thn make coffee.thn pack my stuff for trng tmr.shit.i just realized.i MUST sleep!oh man oh man.tmr's gg to be a long long day.i'm gg to be out for 14.FOURTEEN!hours..no more coffee.no more nothing.i shall go slp now.i'm not evn gg to switch off the com properly.i shall just press the switch after i publish this.toodless-

has any living soul realized today is friday the 13th?freaky.esp when i'm home alone at this time.okayyx.i'm not exactly alone.except tt everyone else is anywhere excpt in this room.and all slping.and lights all off.and there's no sound excpt for the typing of thekeyboard.friday the 13th.friday the 13th.

someone's prank calling.at this time.

searching for new blogskin.all totally sucky.i'm going to use the spongebob one.and perhaps change the retarded spongebob pic there.or the one with a retarded garfield.

so sorry about the previous post if u think its u and its not.apparantly,u would know immediately if its you.so dun worry.if u didnt think it was you,thn it wasnt. [=

alot of things happened in my life.my life is so hectic.i'm committimg myself to too many things.

haha.i just deltd the rest of the post frm this part onwards.sorry if it sounds incomplete.haha

i'm not numb.i can feel stuff.if u want to do it, do it boldly.dun pretend and do little things here and there.it'll only make me despise u more.hypocrite.to think i trusted u so much.u're just another of them.hypocrite.

Hypocrite!

*** the person is not frm my class.dun worry.[= ***

i hate liars.anything but lies.i dun care if u tell me straight in my face that i totally suck n u hate me alot.instead of pretending to be nice.and lying.liar.LIAR!u dun have to use small so-called harmless phrases to attack me,sucker.i know very well u dun like me.and i dun like u very much either.if u had told me u detest me,i wouldnt hate u that much.i wouldnt despise u at all.liar!hypocrite.right now,u must be reading this.since u hate me so much.and i know u do read my blog though u deny it often.and i'm sure.very sure in fact.that you know who u are.very well.i've got a msg for u.i seriously hate everything aout you.everything.thank you very much.

i just regret everything.everything.especially in sec one.i shouldnt have.so many records.so many serious offence.to the principal.to the teachers.and.to the very patient v.p, ms ng.and ms chia.if only all didnt happen.i wouldnt be now.if only.i want back the past.i promise i will be a good student.i promise.

i shouldnt dwell on the past.i should think of what to do to salvage the situation now.

but its all to my disadvantage.all i can do is to be strong.i'm trying to be strong alrdy.evn if i am not,i still will appear to be.but it doesnt help.its just like a treatment for a disease.it doesnt cure.there is no cure.yet.maybe there might be.maybe there wun be.i'ld be glad if things can just remain this way.as long as nothing worsens.and i'll just be wishing better for everything.

to you again:
[i totally dislike u.for now at least.hypocrite!u wun like a hypocrite yourself, would u?cant blame me for hating u then.]

and you:
[u gladly proved yourself.NOT.trust-worthy.just like the hypocrite mentioned above.u're another hypocrite who says something and does another.]

yooOo.so funny.i came online so many times and didnt blog.anyway.today was super funny.was laughing abt 3/4 the day.the other 1/4 eating and slping.so funnyy!everything.frm ss to PE to maths.BWHAHAAHHAAHHAHAHA.so lazy.shant type out what's so funny.die die.dun noe if i can blog everyday frm now on.so sian.keep slping.u know.last wednesday to friday,i slept for an average of 14.5 hours a day.my goshh.and the more i slp,the more tired i get.and on sat and sun.my schedule.woah.so packd.until i cannt evn go for tuition at grace's.i think next time sunday i nt gg lerhx.i'm really very very sorry.bt thn.sometimes.i just want to do what i really need to do first.i'm sorry okayy?anw.next time.my schedule will be routined on sat and sun.sigh.boring.will be so tied up and wunbe able to spend time with my frens that often anymore.tragic-
sat
morning go for trng.[8am to about 1pm]after trng go bath in sch.[1-1.30pm]thn go for cell.[2.30pm to uh.abt 4-5pm]after cell go for sat night life.[5-7pm]after sat night life wait there to meet my sis and aunty to join thm for their service.[7-9pm]frm there.at bukit batok.take bus to choa chu kang.frm choachukang take mrt back.reach hm at abt 10++.i'll be dead.dead tired.out for more thn 12hours.out for 14hours.sigh.wonder if i can commit myself. =[
sun
morning go church with grace and lydia.[8.30-10.30am]after church breakfast/lunch tgt.[10.30-abt 11am].go home.bath.etc etc.thn go with my sis.to church for a while.time not confirmed.cuz we can leave anytime.thn go for tuition at choachukang.my cousin's house.thn tuition finish.reach hm at abt 9plus.if end early.i have to go to grace's hse for tuition.my gosh.

my sis wants me to be ahead of the teacher.sigh.my mum still believes inmy independant learning.thinks tt i'm matured enough.bt my sis.dunno larhx.my brother also.in fact.my sis wants me to do well bcuz of the pressure my brother's giving on me.my sis doesnt stress me.its my brother.sigh.he doesnt understand tt i'm not supoerwoman.like my so-much-bttr-thn-me-in-his-eyes sister.he wants me to work.when my sis is against it.bt dares not voice out her opinions.sigh.i'm the only one who dares to stand up for what i believe.but what's the use.i'm forever losing to my brother.i dun understand.he keeps saying tt in our family, i'm the most outstanding and has the most potential.yet he keeps saying tt i'm nothing in the family.that i havent made any contributions and is not fit to be in the family.unlike him.so what am i?my gosh.i am so confused.one moment i'm the best.and the next.i'm the lousiest.dun get him.dun care anyway.
i want to change.i'm serious this time.i'm going to change.okayy?i dun want to always feel lousy abt myself.and thn want to change.and thn dun change.and thn feel even lousier.and thn want to change.and so on and so forth.
i want to be more spiritually involved.
i want to draw closer to God.
i want to trust and have faith in God totally
i want to learn to control myself and stop giving myself excuses.
i want to study.
i want to stop slacking.
i want to be committed in everything i do.
i want to put my best efforts in everything i do.
i want to do what is most important first.no more last minute stuffs.
i want to love everybody.
i want to be more courageous
i want to be able to forgive and apologize to people willingly
i want to be a good girl
i want to make everyone happy
i want to love myself and make myself happy also
i want to keep to promises i make
i want to stop giving in to temptations
i want to be down-to-earth [not materialistic]
i want to be accepted for who i am.that is,if i'm not doing anything wrong.i wun expect the world to accept me for who i am if i'm a selfish bitch.
i want to be able to swallow insults and turn my other cheek
i want to smile at people who are not on good terms with me
i want to be less ambitious
i want to be able to accept failure and learn from them
i want to get over failures, and work harder.and not get over failures, and forget them
i want to learn lessons, and not repeat mistakes.
i want to appreciate everything and not take things for granted.
i want to speak with caution.
i want to be polite no matter what.
i want to feel good everytime. no one can make me upset or angry without my consent. =]

blogged so much.feel like continueing.but i need to go get my bike.hehe.speaking of bike.whoever did it.i forgive u.=]

anyway.what happened to my poor bike.uh.someone dismantled it.and broke the brakes and gears.=[.its okayy.i just wun park it just anywhere next time.i should be more careful where i park it.anyway.i was partly at fault.since i gave those people a chance to meddle with it.oh wellx.but.if i find out who did it.haha.i'll still go confront tt person.to get my money back.repair fees=$40.not as much as i thought. i though it was $60.haha.oh well.shall go collect my darlingg now.yayys.thn can cycle agn tmr.yayys!!!

yooO. went sarah's house for bio project today.her house is so cool.and her sis is twelve but sounds like three.very squeaky voice.cute.but she abit unsociable.we say hi.thn she just shyly walk off.unlike sarah.so crappy.=X [hope she doesnt read this]
anw.sheri cherlynn n i went. and sheri was just being too cute.oh wellx.of cuz she is cute.she is MY partner. *winks*
ordered pizza hut at sarah's place.HAHAHAHA.so funny.cuz i was laughing in the backgrnd.and the pizzahut woman had to shout.and sarah just suddenly hung up on her.sheri n i were like:"what are u doing?"and our dear friend said:"she shout at me! i dun like her!" HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA! so cute right? *dies laughing* anw.so we called back. and the SAME woman pickd up the phone.took our orders.and halfway thru,she just hang up on us. i officially named her the pizzahut number one woman. but sarah changed it to pizzahut bitch. haha. oh wellx. number one woman cuz when u dial 62353535, u need to press one to place orders. thn third time we called. i didnt press one. it would be the same woman. i pressed two. which was for another reason.not for ordering.but the woman who picked up surprisingly took our orders anyway. watched pan wei bo's concert. thn came the pizza. n sarah's maid is called "ena". hahahahaha. so coincidential. anw. did the project. radomly tagged some people's blog. dun evn know who's blog it was. just randomly picked out a blog frm blogger. and we tagged with our arabian/indian/egyptian name. and told the person we loved her and asked if she would marry us. BWAAHAHAHHA> oh wellx. uh. anw. the history of the weird name. uh. i called in to power 98 and dedicated a song to myself. WHICH THE FREAKING DEEJAY DIDNT READ OUT! he must have thought i was insaned. cuz 1.) i was laughing on the phone 2.)i dedicated it to MYSELF. oh wellx. uh. supposed to talk abt the history of the arabian/indian/egyptian name. uh. we wanted to call back to the power 98 dude. and we wanted to fake a name. so we created the longest name in the world. uh. i forgot what it was rdy. its on cherlynn's nick. so cute. it started with "guburuka..." i forgot. haha. too long. anw. so we did the project. left. i went to lot one to meet my sis. walked arnd.

oh. i know the name rdy. its on my nick. its. gubucherkalunakilynnamotosherikakalamasarpilimakadolyn
-by the courtesy of sarah kwok. *winks*

anw. uh. after walking for a long long time. went to tbp. my sis went to fix her contacts. thn ate at mac. lalalalalalalla. and went home. on my way hm saw my brother. gg back to camp. it suddenly dawned on me tt i havent seen him for a long longg time. i shall spend more time with him next time. evn though we dun do much tgt. but. well.

so. went hm. bathed.

haha. popiah party at my uncle's hse ytd was so great. bcuz they suddenly changed it to steamboat. so no popiahs. haha. nvm. just as good. met my cousins agn. haha. fuckbands are official now. on newspapers. cherlynn's mum was questioning her abt hers. haha.and my aunty is just too nice. wonder if she'll ever read this. i love her loads. evn though she is so much older. she is so understanding. and though sometimes she may be rather "sampat" [to quote gwen] she is nice.

oh yah. cycled to church ytd. so cool. hahaha. sweated like nutts. and made lydia n grace wait for sooooo long. sorry. soo sorry. ate after church. n i cycled home. hahahaha.

uh. tmr X-country. cool. i want to cycle there. but. i dun noe how to go. hahahahahahaha.