look upon Your countenance, see the fullness of Your grace

I guess there are still things in life that hamper me from moving on, such as mistakes, regrets and guilt. Sometimes, I dont act rationally. But most of the time, its because I dont act Spritually.

I dont mean Spiritually as in, Spirituality. There is a difference. The former means being led by the Spirit- the one and only Holy Spirit, which is the manifestion of God, aka Jesus Christ. The latter just means a believe in a Spiritual realm, not of material.
(Haha, I actually learnt the difference in GP)

Anyway, I said all these because I hope to have someone to talk to. Not that there aint any, but there is a Specific someone (or rather, some group of people) I wish to talk to about these things. Yet they dont seem very available. Its not their fault, but purely, the fault of misunderstandings and miscommunications.

Who can blame people for such things?

I am at a lost, to be honest. To take the initiative would be a risk. Just like in Game Theory, when you dont know which decision node you are on due to the lack of information of the other party's decision. Ignore the complications of Game Theory if you will.

On a lighter note, I'm really thankful to God and only God for today's Econ's paper. It was manageable. I had enough time for once and I wasnt exceptionally stumped by the questions.

(Disclaimer: I am grateful to God about the outcome of taking the Paper, not the Paper itself. Also, I dont mean there is only God to thank throughout the whole process. I thank Friends and Family for prayers and studying sessions etc, but there's only God to thank for a smoooth encounter with the paper.)