lift my hands to honor You
because Your Word is true

A penny for your thoughts.

Thinking is crucial, though I really haven't been thinking as much as I used to (hence the significant decrease in blog entries). Thinking is precisely why God gave us brains. To under-use, over-use or abnormal-use them could land you in an irreversible penance. Okay, maybe not irreversible, but it'll be hard to condone yourself anyway.

That said, I'm ashamed. Guilty.

Someone I admire a lot said that I am "always willing to live with much openness and spontaneity". He's right. Much as I wear my heart on my sleeves, I also have my mouth on top of my brains. "Words have so much power", so he says (though not in this context, but still applicable), and under-using my brain by shooting off the top of my head is just.. rude.

This person also frequently reminds me of how I get overly sensitive about others' words and actions. That's when I over-use my brains and jump to conclusions. In fact, these situations occur so annoyingly often, and always succeed in distracting me from the more important things in life. I'm sure I didn't really need anyone to tell me how sensitive I get, I would know too.

As for abnormal usage of the brain, I rather not talk about that. Too many strange thoughts get in my head. I wonder if my mind is actually an empty void. If it is, then maybe I'm in trouble because an idle mind is the devil's workshop.

But.
(always gotta have "but"s somewhere)

Before I conveniently bask myself in the apparent state of hopelessness, and indulge in apathy, I am reminded that there is still hope. That's a good start. Then I implore forgiveness. That's tricky. Psalm 119:101 suggests that keeping my feet from evil paths precedes holiness. One step at a time, one thought at a time.

A penny for a thought.