are you tired of chasing pretty rainbows?
ilovemyJesus!!
I AM A HAPPY GIRL!
LET ME SMILE FOR YOU TO SEE.
XD
SEE?
why am i so happy? that's because i just painted a rainbow on the wall of my house.i dun have a proper personal room by the way.so anyway.at the corner of the other room, i painted a nice colourful rainbow and i wrote the following:
are you tired of chasing pretty rainbows?
"cast all your anxieties on Him
because He cares for you
-1Peter 5:7"
now i love the wall! YUM XD
my sis was against the idea bcuz she thought it was vandalism.and my bro didnt rly sem to like it.and my mum was doubtful..BUT I STILL DID IT.and my sis and mum thought its nice.AHAHAHAHAHA.i am so happy!i wish i had a camera.then can take a pic of it and post it here right now.OH MY GOSH ITS SO BEAUTIFUL!
anyway.the history of it is like this:
one fine day, which is today, i was feeling depressed and angry because alot of stuff happened at home.so i vandalized the wall, using shuyun's sisters marker [oops.sry SHOE.LOL], writing stupid things.but no vulgarities anyway. (: thn i thought.why am i doing this? so i decided to draw happy stuff.i wanted to draw "ONE WAY" sign.but i dun knw which direction it should point.so.HEH.i drew a pretty pretty rainbow.YAY! XD
and now.every second i am happy. (:
alright.back to more isketching.TOODLES!
pretty pretty rainbow.
PRETTY.
Monday, June 20, 2005
Sunday, June 19, 2005
is all that's within you heart seek to worship Him alone?
ilovemyJesus
mm.been 3 days since i last blogged.
well.thursday i went for trng half dead since i was playing isketch with muaji at night, or rather, in the morning.LOL.thn i went for SOUL REVOLUTION conference night rally.mm.manda didnt go with me.*sulks.LOL XD
was feeling quite awful at first due to some personal reasons.but when i got thr finally, everything was fine.i remember praying alot to my Father to lift off the burdens.ps daniel chUA spoke for the sermon.he talked about the SIN OF SILENCE.we need to be witnesses for Gid and share Christ with others or we are not of Him.in heaven, there is only ONE thing we cannot do.and it is to EVANGELISE.
thn took church bus back all the way frm connerstone church at katong to church at bkt tmh.and the most classic thing is, frm bkt tmh, i took a bus in the opposite direction again twards home.HA.was rly tired, and evn more tired when i had t wake up early next morning to go for trng.but my God empowers me. =D
so i went for trng on fri morning.and i was surprisingly very energetic whn in the water though at first i was vry vry sleepy and tired.i sprinted very quickly during the sprints.realized my strength in sprinting when i rotate my shoulders and bend forward.and yes, mindset is very important.
thn it rained haldway during trng after part 1 of water trng so we ended early.and God is GREAT cuz He knew i had to leave early for the conference. =D amazing huh? rushed of to bath and ran to the bus-stop.guilty of j-walking bcuz i was in a rush and i managed t catch the bus with the other canoeists even though i spent time bathing and they left immediately after trng.You're awesome, Daddy. (:
oh.i wore a skirt because my cell planned to.and people were shocked.i saw many jaws dropping.LOL.
met rebecca kan and made our way to connerstone at katong without knowing how to get thr.LOL.but we got thr just in time.they were going for lunch.so we had lunch tgt and went for wrkshops later.attended part 2 of 'Invading the Streets' (its about street evangelism) without attending part 1.LOL.that was me, rebecca, nicholas (her brother) and liying (her cousin).was kinda lost at first but everything went well later on.
hmm.thr's sth i rly have t say.i didnt feel comfortable about the method we were taught.we were given this structure and survey forms.i didnt think it was necessary to stick to a 'system'.shared with 3 people in the 2hrs.one of them was a little interested.stunned her when i asked her about life after "death" on earth.got her thinking about her salvation.well.i'm glad.i hope she'll know the truth soon. (:
PrayUntilSomethingHappens.
thn it was rally,and sermon was given by Ps Mark of Emmanual.awesome testimony he gave.he actually contracted GPS virus, at the same time this singaporean mountain climber (i forgot his name) contracted it.it was deadly.it messes up ur nervous system here and there.go check it out on the net for more info.LOL.anw.so everyone around him prayed and prayed AND prayed and he recovered in 3weeks! AMEN! he could walk and move as normal in 3 short weeks! and the mountain climber person took 6 whole months to recover and learn to walk and move again.and the doctor even told ps mark's wife that he wasnt going to make it.yet he did.God is real. (:
and his daughter is a miracle child.his wife had a cist in her womb when she had her baby and the doctor said women with cists in their wombs couldnt conceive.yet she did.HALLELUJAH!God is indeed real. (:
we're winners over our problems, because if God is for us, who can be against us?
and thn yes, went back t church late at night AGAIN and went home frm threre AGAIN and reached hm at 11+++pm AGAIN and had to wake up early the next morning AGAIN.because we had to reach church by 8am to take the bus to connerstone.but i did it.for the 3rd time.
so at first i was quite snappy and depressed.but during praise and worship, i was alright again.i knew what i'm called to do.and i'm going to live for God.so we had service whr a certain Ps Jeremy frm america preached.HA!that guy is GOOD i must say.awesome guy.spoke about sacrificing ourselves for God to use us and seeing the need in others.AMEN.i now know that everywhere i go, thr is a NECESSATY for me to be thr therefore i must be thr.i got to be thr to create the opportunity.i need to sacrifice my "lunch" for the sake of others, like the boy with the fish and bread in John 6:1-15.but i'm not called to be miss supergirl or what, i'm thr to witness God's powers. (: ps jeremy is AWESOME i say.and my God is AWESOMErrr. (: oh.and ps jeremy is funny too! to the max. XD
thn went for workshops "Penetrating the Y-subculture" and "Mobilising Campus Ministry" respectively.i thought the first workshop was useful and good.we didnt focus of like the subculture itself but instead, our focus was KINGDOM culture.AMEN to that.what need to we have to know about the subcultures if we do not know about the KINGDOM culture? the lady who shared is rly funny and cute and rly nice.she's sincere and caring.and she's a counsellor.heh. (:
thn after that we proceeded to take the bus back to church for night life.pretended to be some psycho secret agent with liying.LOL.thn SNL started.the australian speaker, Ps Paul spoke.he was the pastor of youth alive, which is where planet shakers is from.i was kinda distracted by fascinating feathers *AHEM*.sry.personal joke.LOL.and i was guilty of not paying attention.and i liked the guilt.bcause it tells me about my relationship with God. (: but i'm still sry anyway for allowing myself to be distracted. ):
oh! and nicholas shared his testimony and how he, like the prodigal son, turned back to God.i liked a certain line he said.
"even if we forsake Him for 5yrs, He will nvr forsake us." AMEN.
after nightlife found out tht we had cafe duty.and i thought,"oh man! and i was just thinking of getting a good rest."had t reach church by 0745.and i did it.for the 4th time.AMEN!i reached home on sat at 11.30pm++ but still could wake in time without alarm clock.LOL.
so we were at the cafe today.was quite tired at first.but i became less lethargic after tht.thn i became full of energy.mm.NANA is funny and blur.PINGFEN is the joke of the year.and SARAH is pretty and cute.quite easy to talk to too.and everyone else is nice. (: i did the frying.LOL.sarah, the waitress, kept popping in to give me a hand.but got herself into lots of mess.haha.she flicked the marinating sauce on herself a couple of time and cut herself with a knife accidentally.haha.and she likes to eat chicken wings.well, cant help it.i fried them.
AND MATTHEW IS HEALED OF HAND FOOT MOUTH DISEASE! within 5 days! AMEN!
oh.yvonne & lindy (cousins) went msia.lindy told me they got my jacket.and upon receiving, i was.SHOCKED.it was a HOT PINK and white VON DUTCH jacket.i shall not comment.but its just so NOT me.well.i thanked thm for the goodwill anyway. (:
thn cleaned up and went for the last 15 mins of bible study.and went down to eat the leftovers.i wanted to eat the pau but didnt want the fillings.so i passed silvestre a plastic knife so he could use it to dig and eat up the fillings inside.so he was eating and eating, digging deep in until he ate my bread part!!! and thr was a hole.and just to joke arnd, he delibrately pierced the kinfe right down the middle of the pau.and guess what? my finger was thr.so he cut my finger.AND THR WAS BLOOD ALRIGHT.LOL.i went arnd showing off the blood and the cut telling everyone how silvestre cut me."SEE! SILVESTRE USE A KNIFE AND CUT MY FINGER EH!"thn smart ken took this yellowish thing, i think its iodine, and applied it on my finger and immdiately i stopped bleeding.LOL.
this entry is rly long.i have more to say but i think entries shouldnt be THAT long even thought this is alrdy long.so.TATA! (:
ilovemyJesus
mm.been 3 days since i last blogged.
well.thursday i went for trng half dead since i was playing isketch with muaji at night, or rather, in the morning.LOL.thn i went for SOUL REVOLUTION conference night rally.mm.manda didnt go with me.*sulks.LOL XD
was feeling quite awful at first due to some personal reasons.but when i got thr finally, everything was fine.i remember praying alot to my Father to lift off the burdens.ps daniel chUA spoke for the sermon.he talked about the SIN OF SILENCE.we need to be witnesses for Gid and share Christ with others or we are not of Him.in heaven, there is only ONE thing we cannot do.and it is to EVANGELISE.
thn took church bus back all the way frm connerstone church at katong to church at bkt tmh.and the most classic thing is, frm bkt tmh, i took a bus in the opposite direction again twards home.HA.was rly tired, and evn more tired when i had t wake up early next morning to go for trng.but my God empowers me. =D
so i went for trng on fri morning.and i was surprisingly very energetic whn in the water though at first i was vry vry sleepy and tired.i sprinted very quickly during the sprints.realized my strength in sprinting when i rotate my shoulders and bend forward.and yes, mindset is very important.
thn it rained haldway during trng after part 1 of water trng so we ended early.and God is GREAT cuz He knew i had to leave early for the conference. =D amazing huh? rushed of to bath and ran to the bus-stop.guilty of j-walking bcuz i was in a rush and i managed t catch the bus with the other canoeists even though i spent time bathing and they left immediately after trng.You're awesome, Daddy. (:
oh.i wore a skirt because my cell planned to.and people were shocked.i saw many jaws dropping.LOL.
met rebecca kan and made our way to connerstone at katong without knowing how to get thr.LOL.but we got thr just in time.they were going for lunch.so we had lunch tgt and went for wrkshops later.attended part 2 of 'Invading the Streets' (its about street evangelism) without attending part 1.LOL.that was me, rebecca, nicholas (her brother) and liying (her cousin).was kinda lost at first but everything went well later on.
hmm.thr's sth i rly have t say.i didnt feel comfortable about the method we were taught.we were given this structure and survey forms.i didnt think it was necessary to stick to a 'system'.shared with 3 people in the 2hrs.one of them was a little interested.stunned her when i asked her about life after "death" on earth.got her thinking about her salvation.well.i'm glad.i hope she'll know the truth soon. (:
PrayUntilSomethingHappens.
thn it was rally,and sermon was given by Ps Mark of Emmanual.awesome testimony he gave.he actually contracted GPS virus, at the same time this singaporean mountain climber (i forgot his name) contracted it.it was deadly.it messes up ur nervous system here and there.go check it out on the net for more info.LOL.anw.so everyone around him prayed and prayed AND prayed and he recovered in 3weeks! AMEN! he could walk and move as normal in 3 short weeks! and the mountain climber person took 6 whole months to recover and learn to walk and move again.and the doctor even told ps mark's wife that he wasnt going to make it.yet he did.God is real. (:
and his daughter is a miracle child.his wife had a cist in her womb when she had her baby and the doctor said women with cists in their wombs couldnt conceive.yet she did.HALLELUJAH!God is indeed real. (:
we're winners over our problems, because if God is for us, who can be against us?
and thn yes, went back t church late at night AGAIN and went home frm threre AGAIN and reached hm at 11+++pm AGAIN and had to wake up early the next morning AGAIN.because we had to reach church by 8am to take the bus to connerstone.but i did it.for the 3rd time.
so at first i was quite snappy and depressed.but during praise and worship, i was alright again.i knew what i'm called to do.and i'm going to live for God.so we had service whr a certain Ps Jeremy frm america preached.HA!that guy is GOOD i must say.awesome guy.spoke about sacrificing ourselves for God to use us and seeing the need in others.AMEN.i now know that everywhere i go, thr is a NECESSATY for me to be thr therefore i must be thr.i got to be thr to create the opportunity.i need to sacrifice my "lunch" for the sake of others, like the boy with the fish and bread in John 6:1-15.but i'm not called to be miss supergirl or what, i'm thr to witness God's powers. (: ps jeremy is AWESOME i say.and my God is AWESOMErrr. (: oh.and ps jeremy is funny too! to the max. XD
thn went for workshops "Penetrating the Y-subculture" and "Mobilising Campus Ministry" respectively.i thought the first workshop was useful and good.we didnt focus of like the subculture itself but instead, our focus was KINGDOM culture.AMEN to that.what need to we have to know about the subcultures if we do not know about the KINGDOM culture? the lady who shared is rly funny and cute and rly nice.she's sincere and caring.and she's a counsellor.heh. (:
thn after that we proceeded to take the bus back to church for night life.pretended to be some psycho secret agent with liying.LOL.thn SNL started.the australian speaker, Ps Paul spoke.he was the pastor of youth alive, which is where planet shakers is from.i was kinda distracted by fascinating feathers *AHEM*.sry.personal joke.LOL.and i was guilty of not paying attention.and i liked the guilt.bcause it tells me about my relationship with God. (: but i'm still sry anyway for allowing myself to be distracted. ):
oh! and nicholas shared his testimony and how he, like the prodigal son, turned back to God.i liked a certain line he said.
"even if we forsake Him for 5yrs, He will nvr forsake us." AMEN.
after nightlife found out tht we had cafe duty.and i thought,"oh man! and i was just thinking of getting a good rest."had t reach church by 0745.and i did it.for the 4th time.AMEN!i reached home on sat at 11.30pm++ but still could wake in time without alarm clock.LOL.
so we were at the cafe today.was quite tired at first.but i became less lethargic after tht.thn i became full of energy.mm.NANA is funny and blur.PINGFEN is the joke of the year.and SARAH is pretty and cute.quite easy to talk to too.and everyone else is nice. (: i did the frying.LOL.sarah, the waitress, kept popping in to give me a hand.but got herself into lots of mess.haha.she flicked the marinating sauce on herself a couple of time and cut herself with a knife accidentally.haha.and she likes to eat chicken wings.well, cant help it.i fried them.
AND MATTHEW IS HEALED OF HAND FOOT MOUTH DISEASE! within 5 days! AMEN!
oh.yvonne & lindy (cousins) went msia.lindy told me they got my jacket.and upon receiving, i was.SHOCKED.it was a HOT PINK and white VON DUTCH jacket.i shall not comment.but its just so NOT me.well.i thanked thm for the goodwill anyway. (:
thn cleaned up and went for the last 15 mins of bible study.and went down to eat the leftovers.i wanted to eat the pau but didnt want the fillings.so i passed silvestre a plastic knife so he could use it to dig and eat up the fillings inside.so he was eating and eating, digging deep in until he ate my bread part!!! and thr was a hole.and just to joke arnd, he delibrately pierced the kinfe right down the middle of the pau.and guess what? my finger was thr.so he cut my finger.AND THR WAS BLOOD ALRIGHT.LOL.i went arnd showing off the blood and the cut telling everyone how silvestre cut me."SEE! SILVESTRE USE A KNIFE AND CUT MY FINGER EH!"thn smart ken took this yellowish thing, i think its iodine, and applied it on my finger and immdiately i stopped bleeding.LOL.
this entry is rly long.i have more to say but i think entries shouldnt be THAT long even thought this is alrdy long.so.TATA! (:
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
got to let You know You're the One that i adore
ilovemyJesus!!
CHURROS! =D my love.
iceskating with the team today.
LOL.more than half the population couldnt skate.
amanda, jane, peizheng, bernice and i had to go around helping them.LOL.hilarious to see ur teammates scream and stumble.
but after all these, we have grown closer and become aware of HOW MUCH WE NEED EACH OTHER!! LOL. XD
i cant believe i fell!
amanda and i were going at high speed, holding hands.she was rly fast and so i went fast too.however, my blades slipped sideways and i slid down, resulting in a WET BUTT. *SOBS*
thn we went to the arcade.amanda and i were watchin bernice and [i think it was] wanmei race when the man beside me sudenly pointed to bern's scrn and instructed her to do sth.i turned to look at the man..
*me shocked, jaws dropped, screams and points at the 30+yr old man*
me: YOUUUU!!!!
man: (semi-smiling) whaaaat?
me: YOOOOUUUUUUU!!!
man: (now laughing) yes?
me: WHEN DID YOU COME?! OH MY GOSH! HOW COME YOU COME? I DIDNT SEE YOU! OH MY GOSH
(to all) DID YOU ALL SEE HIM?
(to the man) WHEN DID YOU COME? HOW COME I DIDNT SEE YOU?
jane: just now he came..he was standing outside the iceckating rink.about 10, 20mins ago
LOL! hilarious.IT WAS MY COACHIE WOACHIE!uh.yes, my coach.
my coach is a man in his early thirties, who wears high socks with shirts tucked neatly into his slightly-above-knee-length shorts and asics shoes.occasionally, he wears a fisherman hat, a cap, and sunglassess.he is nice to laugh at, as u can see.LOL.
BUT DUN MESS AROUND WITH MY GREAT AND ALMIGHTY COACH MAN!
he has a driving license. XD he won prasana in car-racing ALRIGHT! (he actually played in the arcade! LOL) but bernice won him one. =D i thought he looked kinda funny in the arcade.imagine a tall and gentlemen guy in his usual "UNIFORM" walking in an arcade.positively FUNNY. XD
ok.so after that we had our indecisive lunch and left JE.most of them went home while bernice, jane and i headed for town.we took the longer MRT route since we needed to like KILL TIME.LOL.talked alot about christian stuff.mm.didnt expect that conversation.well i'm glad for bernice.i used to think that she wasnt walking the talk and talking the walk.but tdy, i saw that she was trying.and i can see the passion she has for the Father.i'm glad. (:
Dear Daddy, as You see how willing bernice is to do something for You, i pray that You'll use her to impact the youths around her mightily.i pray that in whatever she does, You guide her, and that she may glorify Your name and change the lifes of others.Lord, let her be a worldchanger for You.Amen.
okay.so we ended up in town, not doing muc except for alot of talking.and i had sprife float after 3months plus of craving.LOL.thn at 6.30++pm, jane had t go meet her friends while little bernie had to meet lindis [her sis] who WANTED TO HAVE MUTTON SATAY FOR DINNER (?!?!).LOL.she's cute alright.and so i headed home.
and once again, i find my sister doing the laundry.ok.i'll do it.not tmr, i have sth on.not fri, i have sth on.not sat, i have sth on.um.sunday evening?
ilovemyJesus!!
CHURROS! =D my love.
iceskating with the team today.
LOL.more than half the population couldnt skate.
amanda, jane, peizheng, bernice and i had to go around helping them.LOL.hilarious to see ur teammates scream and stumble.
but after all these, we have grown closer and become aware of HOW MUCH WE NEED EACH OTHER!! LOL. XD
i cant believe i fell!
amanda and i were going at high speed, holding hands.she was rly fast and so i went fast too.however, my blades slipped sideways and i slid down, resulting in a WET BUTT. *SOBS*
thn we went to the arcade.amanda and i were watchin bernice and [i think it was] wanmei race when the man beside me sudenly pointed to bern's scrn and instructed her to do sth.i turned to look at the man..
*me shocked, jaws dropped, screams and points at the 30+yr old man*
me: YOUUUU!!!!
man: (semi-smiling) whaaaat?
me: YOOOOUUUUUUU!!!
man: (now laughing) yes?
me: WHEN DID YOU COME?! OH MY GOSH! HOW COME YOU COME? I DIDNT SEE YOU! OH MY GOSH
(to all) DID YOU ALL SEE HIM?
(to the man) WHEN DID YOU COME? HOW COME I DIDNT SEE YOU?
jane: just now he came..he was standing outside the iceckating rink.about 10, 20mins ago
LOL! hilarious.IT WAS MY COACHIE WOACHIE!uh.yes, my coach.
my coach is a man in his early thirties, who wears high socks with shirts tucked neatly into his slightly-above-knee-length shorts and asics shoes.occasionally, he wears a fisherman hat, a cap, and sunglassess.he is nice to laugh at, as u can see.LOL.
BUT DUN MESS AROUND WITH MY GREAT AND ALMIGHTY COACH MAN!
he has a driving license. XD he won prasana in car-racing ALRIGHT! (he actually played in the arcade! LOL) but bernice won him one. =D i thought he looked kinda funny in the arcade.imagine a tall and gentlemen guy in his usual "UNIFORM" walking in an arcade.positively FUNNY. XD
ok.so after that we had our indecisive lunch and left JE.most of them went home while bernice, jane and i headed for town.we took the longer MRT route since we needed to like KILL TIME.LOL.talked alot about christian stuff.mm.didnt expect that conversation.well i'm glad for bernice.i used to think that she wasnt walking the talk and talking the walk.but tdy, i saw that she was trying.and i can see the passion she has for the Father.i'm glad. (:
Dear Daddy, as You see how willing bernice is to do something for You, i pray that You'll use her to impact the youths around her mightily.i pray that in whatever she does, You guide her, and that she may glorify Your name and change the lifes of others.Lord, let her be a worldchanger for You.Amen.
okay.so we ended up in town, not doing muc except for alot of talking.and i had sprife float after 3months plus of craving.LOL.thn at 6.30++pm, jane had t go meet her friends while little bernie had to meet lindis [her sis] who WANTED TO HAVE MUTTON SATAY FOR DINNER (?!?!).LOL.she's cute alright.and so i headed home.
and once again, i find my sister doing the laundry.ok.i'll do it.not tmr, i have sth on.not fri, i have sth on.not sat, i have sth on.um.sunday evening?
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
saved me, forgiven me, this hole inside my heart You filled
ilovemyJesus!!
training today.i was terribly late and so was wanmei.
LOL.ironically, bfore the holidays, wanmei was the one who pointed to us the change in time for trng.however, she was the only one who came late for trng.LOL.
and as for me, i was late due to the fact that i was playing isketch and also because the washing machine is spoilt and i have to help my mum handwash the clothes like a kampong girl.SIGH.
forgot to eat breakfast cuz i was late.thn because i have low blood pressure, i almost died.while doing my run, i felt so faint and weak that a few foreigners had to help me by supporting me.i thought i could have died.LOL
but i guess my Father doesnt want to see me yet.heh. XD
mm.yesterday had dinner with my mum and sis.and they both asked if they was a second i could stop complaining about this and that.LOL.mm.i do complain alot.
HA!tdy after trng SHOEE [shuyun LAH] and i went to far east for the uh.what was it called? its outside the shopping mall.beside old chang kee.its like this long stick thing made of dough, and before that SHOEE told me it was a DOUGHNUT! [duh] to think i asked the whole team if they wanted doughnut.LOL.it was YUMMILICIOUS.i had the big onewhich was caramel filled.*smack lips*immediate addiction.HAHA.the mini chocolate-glazed ones SHOEE ate were nice too!
thn we walked and walked and walked and walked.
and after that, when we were going home, we waited at the bus stop for 16 for about 2947183472847928572094829048209482 years.usually its quite fast.but because SHOEE was thr..so the bus didnt wanna come.LOL.
SHOEE YOU BUBBLE BURSTER CUM CALORIE-MAGNET CUM DUMMIE.
iloveyouLAH! XD
oh.we had bubble tea at tiongbahru after that.HILARIOUS.i got lemonlime and she wanted to try.and she took a tiny sip and made this loud chicken-like sound!LOL.it was really funny:
SHOEE: AUUUUGGKKGGG! (the high-pitch rooster sound)
me: MY GOSH! SHOEE! that was an awful noise! it was ugly!
SHOEE: sry la.i dont like sour stuff
**people around all turn to look at us**
**me laughing**
me: that was really an ugly noise!
**guy who is still looking burst out laughing and nods his head in agreement to my statement**
LOL!
its not funny when i type it here.u should have been thr.
I PROCLAIM POH SHU YUN (PSY-cho) the JOKE OF THE YEAR!arent u honoured my lil lil jnr who cant order drinks/food for herself and needs me to do it? LOL.awww.
XD
ilovemyJesus!!
training today.i was terribly late and so was wanmei.
LOL.ironically, bfore the holidays, wanmei was the one who pointed to us the change in time for trng.however, she was the only one who came late for trng.LOL.
and as for me, i was late due to the fact that i was playing isketch and also because the washing machine is spoilt and i have to help my mum handwash the clothes like a kampong girl.SIGH.
forgot to eat breakfast cuz i was late.thn because i have low blood pressure, i almost died.while doing my run, i felt so faint and weak that a few foreigners had to help me by supporting me.i thought i could have died.LOL
but i guess my Father doesnt want to see me yet.heh. XD
mm.yesterday had dinner with my mum and sis.and they both asked if they was a second i could stop complaining about this and that.LOL.mm.i do complain alot.
HA!tdy after trng SHOEE [shuyun LAH] and i went to far east for the uh.what was it called? its outside the shopping mall.beside old chang kee.its like this long stick thing made of dough, and before that SHOEE told me it was a DOUGHNUT! [duh] to think i asked the whole team if they wanted doughnut.LOL.it was YUMMILICIOUS.i had the big onewhich was caramel filled.*smack lips*immediate addiction.HAHA.the mini chocolate-glazed ones SHOEE ate were nice too!
thn we walked and walked and walked and walked.
and after that, when we were going home, we waited at the bus stop for 16 for about 2947183472847928572094829048209482 years.usually its quite fast.but because SHOEE was thr..so the bus didnt wanna come.LOL.
SHOEE YOU BUBBLE BURSTER CUM CALORIE-MAGNET CUM DUMMIE.
iloveyouLAH! XD
oh.we had bubble tea at tiongbahru after that.HILARIOUS.i got lemonlime and she wanted to try.and she took a tiny sip and made this loud chicken-like sound!LOL.it was really funny:
SHOEE: AUUUUGGKKGGG! (the high-pitch rooster sound)
me: MY GOSH! SHOEE! that was an awful noise! it was ugly!
SHOEE: sry la.i dont like sour stuff
**people around all turn to look at us**
**me laughing**
me: that was really an ugly noise!
**guy who is still looking burst out laughing and nods his head in agreement to my statement**
LOL!
its not funny when i type it here.u should have been thr.
I PROCLAIM POH SHU YUN (PSY-cho) the JOKE OF THE YEAR!arent u honoured my lil lil jnr who cant order drinks/food for herself and needs me to do it? LOL.awww.
XD
Monday, June 13, 2005
i want to tell You what You mean to me, Lord, i give You my whole life
ilovemyJesus!!
mm.i'm quite angry now for 2 reasons.
1.) the washing machine and spoilt and my father was supposed to give my mom money to get it repaird.he promised.but he actually spent the money on gambling! and when my mum ticked him off for that, he blew his top unreasonably at my mum.i mean.HE IS ABSOLUTELY UNREASONABLE.i cant believe him.
2.) i was supposed to meet zhixin and her classmates tdy.they were going cycling at eunos at 9am.and guess what? i awoke at 3.28pm.i know it sounds absurd..but i did.LOL.slept quite late ytd playing isketch.heh.thn i smsed zhixin to ask where they were now.they were at town.and i was lazy to go out of the house now.so.heh.
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on saturday, jingan and shanshan joind us for cell.but it was still pretty quiet with missing people like, amanda [i miss her like nuts!], yifang, sufan, alex and grace.but.it was considerably fun still.we celebrated karyn and rachel's birthday.haha.karyn's a classic.she dressed up so nicely that day for an "unknown" reason [LOL] and even brought a camera.HA!funny.
thn night life's speaker was wanping.mm.i wasnt rly paying attention.was quite distracted.but i took some notes which i'll go through later. (:
thn we had dinner at the 5star chicken rice place where the chicken didnt rly seem like it was 5star.LOL.i ordered porridge which i regretted deeply. ):
ltr on went to good old pataya for milo dinosaur and banansplit.LOL.mine was semi-treated by MUAJI because i only had $1 left after paying my tithes, dinner and the soul revolution conference fee.haha.
after all that.i went over to zibing/jingan's house to stay.thought i could get some decent rest but.LOL.i was wrong.i was UNEXPECTEDLY woken up by a vicious POKE from ms kuang jingan when i was soundly sleeping on zibing's bed.she asked me to go downstairs so she could so-called hack into my account and chat with my friends.LOL.but it was an "enriching" experience since i was introduced to many new games.namely, ISKETCH! haha.please click here.SO FUN!my current obsession.LOL.
thn we played until quite late and until we were quite bored.thn i went up to sleep at 3am.ZzZzzZz..
the next morning i woke at 11.30am AND MISSED MY KIDS SHOW AT 10.30AM ON CHANNEL 8! *sobs* i also realized that jingan has weird sleeping positions.i shall not go into details.LOL.then we talked for a long long time while i tried to complete chapter one of the book zibing asked me to read, while we were both still slacking on the beds.we finally went down to have our branch after her mum called for the 4th time.LOL.and her mum calls me "xiao-mei-mei" or "ah-girl" or anything else that made me sound small. -.-" well at least she recognizes me as "amy-de-zhi-nui"(amy's niece).LOL.i'm content. =D
and so.after brance we went for more ISKETCH.LOL.until 10 mins before zibing came home, we went up to the beds again.and she showed me her yearbooks.LOL.she looked positively FUNNY all 4 yrs and her msg thing was "STC will always be the ONE."are u laughing yet?how corny can that get? LOL. =D
oh.another thing to laugh about MUAJI would be her inability to pronouce certain english word.LOL.kicking = ticking.HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA.oh wells. =D
thn i went home on 75 and fell aslp in the bus, overshotting by 4 stops.
got home, bathed, and went to play isketch AGAIN.heh.supposde to go to KFC for dinner with my sis but apparantly, she fell aslp.thn at 10+++pm, she woke up and asked me if i wanna go eat KFC.HAHAHAHAHAHA.but we still went anyway.only to realize KFC closses at 10pm.so we settled for BK.and we got dinner for my brother frm LJS.mm.i think i ate quite alot ytd night. =X
i think this entry is rly long. XD
ilovemyJesus!!
mm.i'm quite angry now for 2 reasons.
1.) the washing machine and spoilt and my father was supposed to give my mom money to get it repaird.he promised.but he actually spent the money on gambling! and when my mum ticked him off for that, he blew his top unreasonably at my mum.i mean.HE IS ABSOLUTELY UNREASONABLE.i cant believe him.
2.) i was supposed to meet zhixin and her classmates tdy.they were going cycling at eunos at 9am.and guess what? i awoke at 3.28pm.i know it sounds absurd..but i did.LOL.slept quite late ytd playing isketch.heh.thn i smsed zhixin to ask where they were now.they were at town.and i was lazy to go out of the house now.so.heh.
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on saturday, jingan and shanshan joind us for cell.but it was still pretty quiet with missing people like, amanda [i miss her like nuts!], yifang, sufan, alex and grace.but.it was considerably fun still.we celebrated karyn and rachel's birthday.haha.karyn's a classic.she dressed up so nicely that day for an "unknown" reason [LOL] and even brought a camera.HA!funny.
thn night life's speaker was wanping.mm.i wasnt rly paying attention.was quite distracted.but i took some notes which i'll go through later. (:
thn we had dinner at the 5star chicken rice place where the chicken didnt rly seem like it was 5star.LOL.i ordered porridge which i regretted deeply. ):
ltr on went to good old pataya for milo dinosaur and banansplit.LOL.mine was semi-treated by MUAJI because i only had $1 left after paying my tithes, dinner and the soul revolution conference fee.haha.
after all that.i went over to zibing/jingan's house to stay.thought i could get some decent rest but.LOL.i was wrong.i was UNEXPECTEDLY woken up by a vicious POKE from ms kuang jingan when i was soundly sleeping on zibing's bed.she asked me to go downstairs so she could so-called hack into my account and chat with my friends.LOL.but it was an "enriching" experience since i was introduced to many new games.namely, ISKETCH! haha.please click here.SO FUN!my current obsession.LOL.
thn we played until quite late and until we were quite bored.thn i went up to sleep at 3am.ZzZzzZz..
the next morning i woke at 11.30am AND MISSED MY KIDS SHOW AT 10.30AM ON CHANNEL 8! *sobs* i also realized that jingan has weird sleeping positions.i shall not go into details.LOL.then we talked for a long long time while i tried to complete chapter one of the book zibing asked me to read, while we were both still slacking on the beds.we finally went down to have our branch after her mum called for the 4th time.LOL.and her mum calls me "xiao-mei-mei" or "ah-girl" or anything else that made me sound small. -.-" well at least she recognizes me as "amy-de-zhi-nui"(amy's niece).LOL.i'm content. =D
and so.after brance we went for more ISKETCH.LOL.until 10 mins before zibing came home, we went up to the beds again.and she showed me her yearbooks.LOL.she looked positively FUNNY all 4 yrs and her msg thing was "STC will always be the ONE."are u laughing yet?how corny can that get? LOL. =D
oh.another thing to laugh about MUAJI would be her inability to pronouce certain english word.LOL.kicking = ticking.HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA.oh wells. =D
thn i went home on 75 and fell aslp in the bus, overshotting by 4 stops.
got home, bathed, and went to play isketch AGAIN.heh.supposde to go to KFC for dinner with my sis but apparantly, she fell aslp.thn at 10+++pm, she woke up and asked me if i wanna go eat KFC.HAHAHAHAHAHA.but we still went anyway.only to realize KFC closses at 10pm.so we settled for BK.and we got dinner for my brother frm LJS.mm.i think i ate quite alot ytd night. =X
i think this entry is rly long. XD
Saturday, June 11, 2005
You alone, i'm born to worship
ilovemyJesus!!
despite the very long post i posted a few hours ago, which was yesterday, i shall post another one now.cuz its important.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KARE + RACHEL TEO!
uh.let me tell u sth funny.i sent kare a bday msg and i got this for reply:
wheehee.thx dear nette.a great event in my life.i'm looking forward to my birthday.i was born at 10.47am at mount elizabeth.
(?!) cute karyn.i think she wants me to msg at 10.47am next yr.LOL
and melissa is rly sweet.she sent me an sms t make sure i was ok.and it had a picture of a girl singing with sounds of drums.i love mellimoo!
MOOOO!
ilovemyJesus!!
despite the very long post i posted a few hours ago, which was yesterday, i shall post another one now.cuz its important.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KARE + RACHEL TEO!
uh.let me tell u sth funny.i sent kare a bday msg and i got this for reply:
wheehee.thx dear nette.a great event in my life.i'm looking forward to my birthday.i was born at 10.47am at mount elizabeth.
(?!) cute karyn.i think she wants me to msg at 10.47am next yr.LOL
and melissa is rly sweet.she sent me an sms t make sure i was ok.and it had a picture of a girl singing with sounds of drums.i love mellimoo!
MOOOO!
Friday, June 10, 2005
pour down like rain, come touch me again.Lord let Your presence fall on me
ilovemyJesus!!
i'm a christian who happens to be a student.
not a student who happens to be a christian. =D
mm.and i dun think i am a brainwashed person who just absorbs everything the pastor says and have no mind of my own.and i dun think i'm one who "protects/defends Jesus Christ without logical reasoning".i do knw what i'm believing in, and i do knw its real.i'm not a "fundamentalist" (btw, please get ur defination of "fundamentalist" right) who just accepts everything that is from the mouth of a "holy" person or thing.i do make sure what i'm learning is true.and the reason why i dun doubt it because i alrdy knw my God is real, so i dun have to keep doubting and confirming etc.
i've tasted the goodness of God and i've swallowed it.and in fact, ONCE is enough.i dun have to keep experiencing Him.i live with the God's Word as my greatest authority.
can You see how great God is? read the Bible.and if it isnt enough for you, go to church.it doesnt mean u cnt go to church bcuz ure not a christian.church is for everyone, not just christians.u'll find what you need to know in church.
God is real.miracles after miracles i've witnessed during mission trip.the blind see, lame walk and deaf hear.do you not believe?
and recently, my cellgrp mate's brother was demonised.he was sent to the hospital and the doctors were helpless, even they didnt knw what was wrong.and my friend's parents called the taoist ppl etc etc.and finally my pastor.my pastor and 2 other church leaders went and prayed for a long long time and finally the demon came out.there is a spiritual realm indeed.and it is right HERE.
yes, u may say that demonized people become ok after taoist people come.that is possible, i'm not saying only praying works.satan can work "miracles" too.but those are lies.because satan's aim is to prevent people from coming near God.who cares if they believe in buddhism, taoism or even hinduism? as long as they do not know God, satan is happy.
perhaps u think satanism and christianity are the same.NO.we may seem like the same, but we are diff.we have diff motives.satan is here to steal kill and destroy.he hates God, he hates Christians.but God is not like him.God is here to save.and he doesnt want people to become satanists because he wants to save them.and we do not hate satanists, what we are against is SIN, which satan loves.satan hates us and is against holiness.
Love the sinner but hate the sin.
we are here to save.
God loves us so much.the knowledge of men is FOOLISHNESS to God.i do hope people take a step towards the Father, and stop falling into their own deceit.
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okay.so i woke up rly late tdy.and i missed all the morning lessons.i only went for bio at 1.30pm.ha!ms ng was 'pleasently surprised' that only 4 of us in the class turned up.haha.and we even left early.honestly, i felt bad abt leaving early.i think we rly disappointed her alot.i didnt think it was right.but i had alrdy left the place.sry ms ng.
MELLIMOO GOT PINK BRACES.i'm congratulating her, on her journey twards BIMBOism.now.
trng was alright today.technique trng.love it.i dun see any point paddling like nuts and constanly racing with each other when we dun even get our techniques right.so today was PRODUCTIVE for once. =D and now i knw whr i go wrong.my catch/punch..though it rly lookd right and no one could tell what was wrong, i had actually missed out a step inbtween recovery and catch/punch.uh.why am i typing this here?
anyway.so i'll work on that.and rotation. (:
thanks coach, *smiles.
thn i went home with shoee as usual.and i had t keep telling her to "SHUT UP".LOL.please, though we do look like enemies whenever we talk, we are rly good friends.haha.that's our way of love. (: and she calls me a calorie-magnet. *sulks
oh.i had honeydew sago w pearls tdy again! with shoee.she lent me 40cents.sweet. (:
ok.so i pangsehed many people.1) the canoeists 2) pri sch friends 3) shalom people.the team is staying over at pras's house now.and they're having a party.but i'm giving it a miss.anw, not many people are going la.only 5 ppl staying over.so i guess i may be pretty boring.besides, amanda is out of town.which means she obviously wun be thr.and..yea.and as for my pri sch friends, they're having some gathering at..uh.i forgot whr la.yea.so they're probably still tgt now.and i'm home.bcuz..haha.i didnt knw whr t go so i decided not to go anywhr.and lastly, shalom people went t sentosa tdy and sherie asked me along.mm.but like i said, i was in a dilema.so i'm at home.
haha.came home t find my sis creating a blog.and i sat bside her while she typed her entry.she RECITES everyword she types.HAHA.so cute!
like this:
sis: afhsfhetjeslrherkjsnb (reciting her entry)
me: why are u reading out the words?
sis: its a habit ajhgsdljgtslkjrselrjsfjsldkf
me: huh.but u dun read out when u chat with friends on msn
sis: ahfsljfhslf that's because it doesnt involve one party
me: but u dun recite out what u write when u do compo/write stories/etc
sis: actually, i do.
me: *LAUGHS OUT LOUD*
sis: *looks at her retarded sister and laughs along*
i like this.i like to laugh with my sis.i like feeling as if we're very very close with each other.
today i tried t talk serious with her casually.she said i was dramatic and didnt respond to what i said.i mean, i didnt consider nodding her head as a response.
oh.let me continue with her blog.after she typed a whole 15min worth of words in her entry.she asked me if i wanted t use the com and told me t help her delete her blog. (?!?!?!?!) what can i say? i got a rly weird sister.
alright.the nice neighbour just brought some ginko+barley(or white bean?) soup.just that i nvr liked what she cooked.LOL.but i thank her for the goodwill and i'll eat it eventually.
mummy cooked beehoon.perhaps its because of me.recently i have been a bad bad daughter, complaining that she doesnt sweep the floor, wash clothes (btw, the washing machine is spoilt), cook etc.i think i hurt her alot.i mean, i could have done it.she's just as busy and tired as i am.so i'm touched that she cooked.and i feel guilty.i love my mother alot, just that recently..she's just different.she's becoming a very depressed person.we cannot communicate, and i dunno how to show that i love her.i want t be thr for her, but everytime she tells me sth and i console her, she doesnt listen.to her, i'm not a friend, i'm a daughter.to her, i dun understand.to her, i'm her daughter.i'm her daughter only.
this morning i saw her sitting, one hand hugging her knees and the other supporting her forehead, at the corner.she nvr looked so depressed.wrinkles formed around her draggy eyes and she seemed to have aged alot suddenly.i felt like crying at that sight.what can i do?i want to be a good daughter, and i want to be her friend at the same time.i rly hope she'll not treat me just as a daughter so i can relate with her.
honestly, if what she wants is a daughter frm me, i should be like her friend and provide her with what she wants right? well, be a daughter then.
i see my mum praying everyday.for us, the family.she's given so much for us.i ought to not just love and care for her.i ought to let her know that.i ought to show her.
Daddy, please put a smile on mum's face, as she puts a smile on Yours.Teach me how to honour her, and guide me each day as i see her.let love overcome everything else that displeases me about her.Lord, i pray for strong bonds in this family.may we grow to love each other more and put away our the past, where we all hurt one another.Daddy, dwell among this family and may it be what You want it to be.Lord, speak to all of us.i pray that we can all forgive as You have forgiven and love as You have loved.let our relationship with each other grow deeper as we walk towards You as one.in Jesus' name, i ask and pray, amen.
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i just read one of my teammate's blog to find out that sijing had applied to go to NJC through DSA.mm.good for her.at first i felt kinda..like.jealous?yea, close t that.thn i thought.why should it bother me?i dun wanna go to NJC just because she is going and i'm afraid of losing out.i know what i want.and i dun wanna limit myself to anything. (: her life doesnt affect me.
ilovemyJesus!!
i'm a christian who happens to be a student.
not a student who happens to be a christian. =D
mm.and i dun think i am a brainwashed person who just absorbs everything the pastor says and have no mind of my own.and i dun think i'm one who "protects/defends Jesus Christ without logical reasoning".i do knw what i'm believing in, and i do knw its real.i'm not a "fundamentalist" (btw, please get ur defination of "fundamentalist" right) who just accepts everything that is from the mouth of a "holy" person or thing.i do make sure what i'm learning is true.and the reason why i dun doubt it because i alrdy knw my God is real, so i dun have to keep doubting and confirming etc.
i've tasted the goodness of God and i've swallowed it.and in fact, ONCE is enough.i dun have to keep experiencing Him.i live with the God's Word as my greatest authority.
can You see how great God is? read the Bible.and if it isnt enough for you, go to church.it doesnt mean u cnt go to church bcuz ure not a christian.church is for everyone, not just christians.u'll find what you need to know in church.
God is real.miracles after miracles i've witnessed during mission trip.the blind see, lame walk and deaf hear.do you not believe?
and recently, my cellgrp mate's brother was demonised.he was sent to the hospital and the doctors were helpless, even they didnt knw what was wrong.and my friend's parents called the taoist ppl etc etc.and finally my pastor.my pastor and 2 other church leaders went and prayed for a long long time and finally the demon came out.there is a spiritual realm indeed.and it is right HERE.
yes, u may say that demonized people become ok after taoist people come.that is possible, i'm not saying only praying works.satan can work "miracles" too.but those are lies.because satan's aim is to prevent people from coming near God.who cares if they believe in buddhism, taoism or even hinduism? as long as they do not know God, satan is happy.
perhaps u think satanism and christianity are the same.NO.we may seem like the same, but we are diff.we have diff motives.satan is here to steal kill and destroy.he hates God, he hates Christians.but God is not like him.God is here to save.and he doesnt want people to become satanists because he wants to save them.and we do not hate satanists, what we are against is SIN, which satan loves.satan hates us and is against holiness.
Love the sinner but hate the sin.
we are here to save.
God loves us so much.the knowledge of men is FOOLISHNESS to God.i do hope people take a step towards the Father, and stop falling into their own deceit.
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okay.so i woke up rly late tdy.and i missed all the morning lessons.i only went for bio at 1.30pm.ha!ms ng was 'pleasently surprised' that only 4 of us in the class turned up.haha.and we even left early.honestly, i felt bad abt leaving early.i think we rly disappointed her alot.i didnt think it was right.but i had alrdy left the place.sry ms ng.
MELLIMOO GOT PINK BRACES.i'm congratulating her, on her journey twards BIMBOism.now.
trng was alright today.technique trng.love it.i dun see any point paddling like nuts and constanly racing with each other when we dun even get our techniques right.so today was PRODUCTIVE for once. =D and now i knw whr i go wrong.my catch/punch..though it rly lookd right and no one could tell what was wrong, i had actually missed out a step inbtween recovery and catch/punch.uh.why am i typing this here?
anyway.so i'll work on that.and rotation. (:
thanks coach, *smiles.
thn i went home with shoee as usual.and i had t keep telling her to "SHUT UP".LOL.please, though we do look like enemies whenever we talk, we are rly good friends.haha.that's our way of love. (: and she calls me a calorie-magnet. *sulks
oh.i had honeydew sago w pearls tdy again! with shoee.she lent me 40cents.sweet. (:
ok.so i pangsehed many people.1) the canoeists 2) pri sch friends 3) shalom people.the team is staying over at pras's house now.and they're having a party.but i'm giving it a miss.anw, not many people are going la.only 5 ppl staying over.so i guess i may be pretty boring.besides, amanda is out of town.which means she obviously wun be thr.and..yea.and as for my pri sch friends, they're having some gathering at..uh.i forgot whr la.yea.so they're probably still tgt now.and i'm home.bcuz..haha.i didnt knw whr t go so i decided not to go anywhr.and lastly, shalom people went t sentosa tdy and sherie asked me along.mm.but like i said, i was in a dilema.so i'm at home.
haha.came home t find my sis creating a blog.and i sat bside her while she typed her entry.she RECITES everyword she types.HAHA.so cute!
like this:
sis: afhsfhetjeslrherkjsnb (reciting her entry)
me: why are u reading out the words?
sis: its a habit ajhgsdljgtslkjrselrjsfjsldkf
me: huh.but u dun read out when u chat with friends on msn
sis: ahfsljfhslf that's because it doesnt involve one party
me: but u dun recite out what u write when u do compo/write stories/etc
sis: actually, i do.
me: *LAUGHS OUT LOUD*
sis: *looks at her retarded sister and laughs along*
i like this.i like to laugh with my sis.i like feeling as if we're very very close with each other.
today i tried t talk serious with her casually.she said i was dramatic and didnt respond to what i said.i mean, i didnt consider nodding her head as a response.
oh.let me continue with her blog.after she typed a whole 15min worth of words in her entry.she asked me if i wanted t use the com and told me t help her delete her blog. (?!?!?!?!) what can i say? i got a rly weird sister.
alright.the nice neighbour just brought some ginko+barley(or white bean?) soup.just that i nvr liked what she cooked.LOL.but i thank her for the goodwill and i'll eat it eventually.
mummy cooked beehoon.perhaps its because of me.recently i have been a bad bad daughter, complaining that she doesnt sweep the floor, wash clothes (btw, the washing machine is spoilt), cook etc.i think i hurt her alot.i mean, i could have done it.she's just as busy and tired as i am.so i'm touched that she cooked.and i feel guilty.i love my mother alot, just that recently..she's just different.she's becoming a very depressed person.we cannot communicate, and i dunno how to show that i love her.i want t be thr for her, but everytime she tells me sth and i console her, she doesnt listen.to her, i'm not a friend, i'm a daughter.to her, i dun understand.to her, i'm her daughter.i'm her daughter only.
this morning i saw her sitting, one hand hugging her knees and the other supporting her forehead, at the corner.she nvr looked so depressed.wrinkles formed around her draggy eyes and she seemed to have aged alot suddenly.i felt like crying at that sight.what can i do?i want to be a good daughter, and i want to be her friend at the same time.i rly hope she'll not treat me just as a daughter so i can relate with her.
honestly, if what she wants is a daughter frm me, i should be like her friend and provide her with what she wants right? well, be a daughter then.
i see my mum praying everyday.for us, the family.she's given so much for us.i ought to not just love and care for her.i ought to let her know that.i ought to show her.
Daddy, please put a smile on mum's face, as she puts a smile on Yours.Teach me how to honour her, and guide me each day as i see her.let love overcome everything else that displeases me about her.Lord, i pray for strong bonds in this family.may we grow to love each other more and put away our the past, where we all hurt one another.Daddy, dwell among this family and may it be what You want it to be.Lord, speak to all of us.i pray that we can all forgive as You have forgiven and love as You have loved.let our relationship with each other grow deeper as we walk towards You as one.in Jesus' name, i ask and pray, amen.
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i just read one of my teammate's blog to find out that sijing had applied to go to NJC through DSA.mm.good for her.at first i felt kinda..like.jealous?yea, close t that.thn i thought.why should it bother me?i dun wanna go to NJC just because she is going and i'm afraid of losing out.i know what i want.and i dun wanna limit myself to anything. (: her life doesnt affect me.