pour down like rain, come touch me again.Lord let Your presence fall on me
ilovemyJesus!!

i'm a christian who happens to be a student.
not a student who happens to be a christian. =D

mm.and i dun think i am a brainwashed person who just absorbs everything the pastor says and have no mind of my own.and i dun think i'm one who "protects/defends Jesus Christ without logical reasoning".i do knw what i'm believing in, and i do knw its real.i'm not a "fundamentalist" (btw, please get ur defination of "fundamentalist" right) who just accepts everything that is from the mouth of a "holy" person or thing.i do make sure what i'm learning is true.and the reason why i dun doubt it because i alrdy knw my God is real, so i dun have to keep doubting and confirming etc.

i've tasted the goodness of God and i've swallowed it.and in fact, ONCE is enough.i dun have to keep experiencing Him.i live with the God's Word as my greatest authority.

can You see how great God is? read the Bible.and if it isnt enough for you, go to church.it doesnt mean u cnt go to church bcuz ure not a christian.church is for everyone, not just christians.u'll find what you need to know in church.

God is real.miracles after miracles i've witnessed during mission trip.the blind see, lame walk and deaf hear.do you not believe?

and recently, my cellgrp mate's brother was demonised.he was sent to the hospital and the doctors were helpless, even they didnt knw what was wrong.and my friend's parents called the taoist ppl etc etc.and finally my pastor.my pastor and 2 other church leaders went and prayed for a long long time and finally the demon came out.there is a spiritual realm indeed.and it is right HERE.

yes, u may say that demonized people become ok after taoist people come.that is possible, i'm not saying only praying works.satan can work "miracles" too.but those are lies.because satan's aim is to prevent people from coming near God.who cares if they believe in buddhism, taoism or even hinduism? as long as they do not know God, satan is happy.

perhaps u think satanism and christianity are the same.NO.we may seem like the same, but we are diff.we have diff motives.satan is here to steal kill and destroy.he hates God, he hates Christians.but God is not like him.God is here to save.and he doesnt want people to become satanists because he wants to save them.and we do not hate satanists, what we are against is SIN, which satan loves.satan hates us and is against holiness.

Love the sinner but hate the sin.
we are here to save.

God loves us so much.the knowledge of men is FOOLISHNESS to God.i do hope people take a step towards the Father, and stop falling into their own deceit.
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okay.so i woke up rly late tdy.and i missed all the morning lessons.i only went for bio at 1.30pm.ha!ms ng was 'pleasently surprised' that only 4 of us in the class turned up.haha.and we even left early.honestly, i felt bad abt leaving early.i think we rly disappointed her alot.i didnt think it was right.but i had alrdy left the place.sry ms ng.

MELLIMOO GOT PINK BRACES.i'm congratulating her, on her journey twards BIMBOism.now.

trng was alright today.technique trng.love it.i dun see any point paddling like nuts and constanly racing with each other when we dun even get our techniques right.so today was PRODUCTIVE for once. =D and now i knw whr i go wrong.my catch/punch..though it rly lookd right and no one could tell what was wrong, i had actually missed out a step inbtween recovery and catch/punch.uh.why am i typing this here?
anyway.so i'll work on that.and rotation. (:
thanks coach, *smiles.
thn i went home with shoee as usual.and i had t keep telling her to "SHUT UP".LOL.please, though we do look like enemies whenever we talk, we are rly good friends.haha.that's our way of love. (: and she calls me a calorie-magnet. *sulks

oh.i had honeydew sago w pearls tdy again! with shoee.she lent me 40cents.sweet. (:

ok.so i pangsehed many people.1) the canoeists 2) pri sch friends 3) shalom people.the team is staying over at pras's house now.and they're having a party.but i'm giving it a miss.anw, not many people are going la.only 5 ppl staying over.so i guess i may be pretty boring.besides, amanda is out of town.which means she obviously wun be thr.and..yea.and as for my pri sch friends, they're having some gathering at..uh.i forgot whr la.yea.so they're probably still tgt now.and i'm home.bcuz..haha.i didnt knw whr t go so i decided not to go anywhr.and lastly, shalom people went t sentosa tdy and sherie asked me along.mm.but like i said, i was in a dilema.so i'm at home.

haha.came home t find my sis creating a blog.and i sat bside her while she typed her entry.she RECITES everyword she types.HAHA.so cute!
like this:
sis: afhsfhetjeslrherkjsnb (reciting her entry)
me: why are u reading out the words?
sis: its a habit ajhgsdljgtslkjrselrjsfjsldkf
me: huh.but u dun read out when u chat with friends on msn
sis: ahfsljfhslf that's because it doesnt involve one party
me: but u dun recite out what u write when u do compo/write stories/etc
sis: actually, i do.
me: *LAUGHS OUT LOUD*
sis: *looks at her retarded sister and laughs along*
i like this.i like to laugh with my sis.i like feeling as if we're very very close with each other.

today i tried t talk serious with her casually.she said i was dramatic and didnt respond to what i said.i mean, i didnt consider nodding her head as a response.

oh.let me continue with her blog.after she typed a whole 15min worth of words in her entry.she asked me if i wanted t use the com and told me t help her delete her blog. (?!?!?!?!) what can i say? i got a rly weird sister.

alright.the nice neighbour just brought some ginko+barley(or white bean?) soup.just that i nvr liked what she cooked.LOL.but i thank her for the goodwill and i'll eat it eventually.

mummy cooked beehoon.perhaps its because of me.recently i have been a bad bad daughter, complaining that she doesnt sweep the floor, wash clothes (btw, the washing machine is spoilt), cook etc.i think i hurt her alot.i mean, i could have done it.she's just as busy and tired as i am.so i'm touched that she cooked.and i feel guilty.i love my mother alot, just that recently..she's just different.she's becoming a very depressed person.we cannot communicate, and i dunno how to show that i love her.i want t be thr for her, but everytime she tells me sth and i console her, she doesnt listen.to her, i'm not a friend, i'm a daughter.to her, i dun understand.to her, i'm her daughter.i'm her daughter only.

this morning i saw her sitting, one hand hugging her knees and the other supporting her forehead, at the corner.she nvr looked so depressed.wrinkles formed around her draggy eyes and she seemed to have aged alot suddenly.i felt like crying at that sight.what can i do?i want to be a good daughter, and i want to be her friend at the same time.i rly hope she'll not treat me just as a daughter so i can relate with her.

honestly, if what she wants is a daughter frm me, i should be like her friend and provide her with what she wants right? well, be a daughter then.

i see my mum praying everyday.for us, the family.she's given so much for us.i ought to not just love and care for her.i ought to let her know that.i ought to show her.

Daddy, please put a smile on mum's face, as she puts a smile on Yours.Teach me how to honour her, and guide me each day as i see her.let love overcome everything else that displeases me about her.Lord, i pray for strong bonds in this family.may we grow to love each other more and put away our the past, where we all hurt one another.Daddy, dwell among this family and may it be what You want it to be.Lord, speak to all of us.i pray that we can all forgive as You have forgiven and love as You have loved.let our relationship with each other grow deeper as we walk towards You as one.in Jesus' name, i ask and pray, amen.
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i just read one of my teammate's blog to find out that sijing had applied to go to NJC through DSA.mm.good for her.at first i felt kinda..like.jealous?yea, close t that.thn i thought.why should it bother me?i dun wanna go to NJC just because she is going and i'm afraid of losing out.i know what i want.and i dun wanna limit myself to anything. (: her life doesnt affect me.