sigh. i'm really tired. both physically and mentally. ppl see me as the depression-free person. tt i am. but ppl also see me as the worry-free person. i'm not. no one can every be worry-free. sigh. its just tt i dun show. its time for me to let the whole wurld know tt i am not happy all the time. like bon jovi sang... "i'll smile when i was crying". i'm not telling u all this now because i want to get ur attention or whatever. i'm just tired of u ppl (u know who u r) telling me abt ur troubles and not taking my advice. whatever i say, u will go "cannot lah... like tt thn i will blah blah blah" thn i give u another alternative u say the same thing. thn when i dun bother abt u, u go arnd telling ppl tt i'm insensitive etc. i'm not here to settle all ur troubles for u ok. its fine to tell me. but when i give u an advice, n u dun take it, thn there's nth i can do. so stop bothering me. i've told u all i can tell... stop stressing me. what exactly do u want? u're not satisfied with everything n anything. arghs! nvm.

talking abt me tired physically, sigh. i havent had a gd sleep since last sunday. arghs. yesterday thought i cld finally sleep well. since it was friday night. n sigh. i went online until very late. hahaha. oh yah. adopted a new mum. violent mum. hahaha. nearly killed me. hahahahahhaha. i'm now officially the daughter of the violent grace yew. WAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHA. talk crap. thn this morning wanted to wake up late. but was disturbed by a phone call frm my cousin. forgot tt there was a popiah party. hahaha. so i quickly bathed n rushed off. hhahaha. my very first popiah party. so fun. made a few popiahs. hahaha. my popiah so lousy. all the fillings... bite first mouth drop out liao. aiyoh. thn taught Evan some maths. learned a bit of chi for chi test on wed. first time i study for a test. wheeeeee. got sense of accomplishment. hahaha. thn chatted with aunty shendy. she's erm... how to say... can relte alot of things to her even though i'm not very close to her. she's nice. i wudden mind having her for a mum. she understands wad its like to be a teen. unlike my mum. n she knows exactly how i feel. n she's... like... another of me. like my twin. she tells me a BGR, abt my sexuality status, assured me abt me not being a lesbian.. n she told me abt her sec sch days. so funny. and i found out she used to be in Commonwealth Sec. hahaha. same as kenny n gang. thn so coincidential... she frm NCC also. cool eh. hahaha. she's a cool mum lah. i mean, cool aunty. haha. n she knows abt the latest staff... like.. wad hollywood news etc. very updated. haha. unlike my mum. still living in the 70s. hahahahaha. suddenly feel tt my mum is not so cool afterall. hahaha. nononnoo. my mum is cool. my mum is cool. (forced to say tt somehow) HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA. lame. lame. k. i just told my mum tt i thot aunty shendy was a very good mum material. n she was like... "u nv see how she blah blah blah." my mum trying to find faults in others again. everytime tell her sth gd abt someone, she will find their faults. arghs! hate it!!! n i cannt argue with her one. i dun noe y. she is stupid i guess. ARGHS!!

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sorry for the madness. i'm just... not in the mood to blog now. feeling weird cuz of my arguement with her. nvm. stop blogging now.