this is specially for the person who saved me from battling the evils of the enemy, MR SPYWARE.after 3 nights of fighting and lack of sleep (look at the worm-like things forming under my eyes please)..I AM VIRUS-FREE!

i shall make this big and bold since i always bully MUAJI.LOL.
THANK YOU MUAJI! =D
and now, i dun feel guilty for bullying her.we're quits.

therefore..i shall start bullying her again. (:

i will praise Your name, praise You all day long
ilovemyJesus!!

AIYOH!
my house nearly burnt down just now.strangely, the washing machine had overworked or sth and thr was a fire apparantly.and my dad was sleeping in the living room, my mum in the bed room.i was using the com and my sis was watching TV.thank goodness my house is small, that's why my sis smelt the burnt smell and could stop the fire in time.all i know was i was fighting Mr Spyware (virus LAH) and suddenly my sis went nuts, making funny noises and stomping loudly and quickly ard.
the rest were all OBLIVIOUS.ahaha.i like the word.makes me sound smart. =D
anw, so my sis killed the fire and woke my mum..who woke up whining depressingly (e.g: aiyooh,ahhh,tsk*,aiyoh eh, aiyoh).yea.the long series of whines was due t the fact that we HAD TO get a new washing machine.and that does not come free.sigh. :(

everything is WRONG! the house nearly burnt down, thr's a virus in the NEW laptop (which gets worse each day), and WORSE STILL.i cut my hair today.as you all know, me cutting my hair is never a good thing.i told the auntie to CUT IT SHORTER.but she didnt.i said LAYER.but its straight.but well.i still go thr despite all the bad experiences bcuz 1) it is cheap and 2) they give u free drinks and occasionally, cheesecake or sth.*smiles

but still.sigh.now my hair is long when i intended t keep it short. ): i'll wait anthr 3 months and i shall give it a decisive CHOP. =D for now, i shall just visualise. ):

GGRRRR! now i'm mad.spyware/elitebar/etc etc VIRUS is getting worse everysince i installed search&destroy.IRONIC but true.please ask jingan t testify bcuz hers got worse too.HRMPH!my poor poor laptop, barely 2wks (?) old.*cries*

and even though its near the end of the week, i find myself busier and busier each day.sigh.talk about holidays..SIGH.liars.

into marvellous light i'm running, out of darkness out of shame
ilovemyJesus!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! i'm laughing.and so is my sis.
my sis's friend,also my new friend, eileen, is so funny LAH!
i 'lamed' with her and she 'lamed' back.
and we were talking about playing soccer tmr:

me: i can be the ball!
she: haha
me: ok.let's go play soccer tmr! =D
me: i be the ball, you be the goal post
me: belle[my sister] can be the CHEERLEADER!
me: and lisi[another of my sis + my friend] can be...mm.THE GRASS!
she: haha.no la.grass too cruel.
she: she be the flag at the corner la.LOL

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAAHAHHA.and alot of other stuff.i got a sugar rush.bcus i had van houten chocolates for dinner.i swang arnd on the fan just now. =D

tdy's trng was..hmm.i still need t buck up abit more.i am so rusty. *screeching sounds*

and ytd was rly accomplishing.i packed my table.*bleams*its quite neat now, though thr are still many things lying around and it looks kinda overcrowded.but heck.
and thn i went t meet MUAJI.we ate a tub of wall's ice-cream each.u knw..the nice nice one.they were selling it a tiong bahru for just $3 a tub.2 for $4, so we got 2 tubs.actually i was anti-buying, but she was pre-buying.and she went like, "challenge me."so..LOL.mine was strawberry and hers was choc.and we set off for great world.half way thr, she got sck of her ice-cream.i finished 3/4 at tht time and she finished 1/4.thn we exchanged which is very unfair.so obviously i couldnt finish.we both threw the left overs away before we died of over-consumption.and MUAJI insists that she is the champion.sigh..immaturity is still getting the better of her.oh wells.if she insists..but as we all, the matured people, know..i'm THE UNDENIABLE WINNER.MUAHAHAHAHAHHA.muaji ought t be thrown into the reservior.

and the lit seminar tdy.SIGH.i gained NOTHING.excpt for alot of entertainment frm stupid questions posted by this guy who wanted t flaunt his inexistent intelligence.SIGH.and he thought he was cool, asking us if we wanted his msn.HMMMM.strange people of the nation.

ok.so thr's not lit tmr cuz AUNTIE AZLIN is sick.but i'll still be going t sch for bio up till 3pm.thn i'll meet my sis t go t the sports warehouse tgt t get some anti-porn shorts.anti-porn bcause i realized my FBTs are transparent.hmmm.thn we'll go watch eileen's match.but maybe i wun go.for fear of being shot since i dun have a certificate for being lame.HMMM.and maybe we'll plau soccer. =D

ONE PROBLEM: we dun have a player yet.any takers? LOL.

alright.goodnight, world.

pushing every hindrance aside, out of my way, cuz i want to know You more
ilovemyJesus!!

as DAPAO sits here in front of the laptop screen, with fingers moving as quick as mice, waiting for MUAJI's sms which she will react to be switching off the com and running t tiong bahru plaza..DAPAO has something to say...

I HATH MADETH UP MY MIND.
DAPAO has decided not to apply to go to NJC through DSA even though all doors are opened and all DAPAO need to do is to step.uh.no.correction: bounce.inside.but DAPAO does not do so.

DAPAO decides to go the traditional way.

thanks to njc canoeing team anyway for the opportunity to train with you.special thx to mindy, shi'en, chiteng and the one who did physica trng with me though i forgot ur name! a thousand apologies.

DAPAO has learnt that nothing comes easy and with each decision made, thr's always something to lose.if so, are we to live in regret? NOOOoooO.DAPAO understands this fact alrdy and is at peace with herself.no regrets, no regrets.DAPAO smiles.
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BY THE WAY
amazing race was GREAT! ahahaha.kept me smiling and laughing and high for almost one day.thx to team 25 aka BIMBO 25! *smiles* we were the best girls team [since there was ONLY ONE girls team] HA! and we came in 9/31.mummum.

at the end of the day, LYNETTE learns tolerance, teamwork and patience.LYNETTE also realizes that being too ambitious is not very good.LYNETTE thought amazing race was a grt experience.

AND YESTERDAY AFTER BIBLE STUDY
i was at first drowned in sorrow.
but mel put a smile on my face for the rest of the day.
spent the whole time laughing and laughing at our past experiences esp in pri sch days! how immature we were..LOL.
THANKS MELLIMOO!
despite gg of the msia the next day, she took time t make me happy..after one sad long week.and now i feel lighter! um.i mean,not literally.in fact, in literal sense, i'm HEAVIER! oh well.

LYNETTE should exercise.about time!

and LYNETTE hereby thank her SAVIOUR who is sitting up there in heaven now for being wit LYNETTE the whole time when she felt that no one else was available for her.yup!
THANK YOU JESUS!

alrights.MUAJI has smsed.DAPAO shalt be goneth. (:

all day all night, i press on toward the goal.You are my King, and that is why i sing.all because Christ Rules EVERYTHING About Me
ilovemyJesus!!

i do love Jesus.even in times like this, when i feel so down and cant keep smiling for more than 10 secs for almost one week, i have learnt t keep a spirit of praise with me.i dun wanna base my relationship on feelings anymore.i know God is real.i dun have to FEEL Him all the time.remember TEABAG? yes, times like this are my hot-water tests.and i praise God for it, not hypocritically.

people around me.i'm sorry havent been able t act/speak/etc normally recently.many things are happening around me and i cnt take my life so lightly and happily like i had been doing.i'm a grown girl, i must learn to think and act maturely.i'm still trying to adapt to a more serious surrounding, give me time and i'll learn t balance my life properly.we'll still have fun in the future. (:

i feel awfully horrid! i'm lagging behind in trng, far far behind.i'm under-performing even though i seem to have given my best.and i rly doubt my abilities of going to njc.i dun wanna t become a lie to them.i can secure a place RIGHT NOW, but nothing comes easy.i'll have t train hard, and study hard.i'm going t need t put in alot of time and energy so that i can become worthy of the DSA programme.i dun want t be taking advantage of the system.i want t go there with true abilities.

i feel awfully horrid a second time! whatever it is, there's something bothering me.i cant sleep at night and when i do, not more than 15mins.and i wake very early.as tired as i feel, i just cant get t slp, causing the sluggishness in me for the rest of the day.

i feel awfully horrid the third time! people around me just cant get serious about things, and disciplined about what they want to do.i dun see the reason of going t a place t do sth but not doing it in the end.we'll just be losers going thr for the sake of going, and wasting our precious time which could have been used t do something more productive.and if u wanna do something, why dun u give it ur best shot? aim for the best, not just above average.i'm rly disturbed by slackers who slack just because they are more skillful and are better in the field, so wasting EVERYONE's time.

i feel awfully horrid the forth time! after a long, tiring and depressing day, i return t a house where i find no true comfort.perhaps because i've nvr rly opened myself and stated what i want."knock and the door shall be open".i guess i nvr rly knocked on the door bfore.but i find it hard t talk t my family.my dad's totally oblivious t everything that happens in the family.my mum..sigh.she nvr understands what ure trying t say bcuz she is quite dumb.i dun mean t use the word..but she is.i cant find another word t replace 'dumb'.for now, let it stay.i dun mean it in a negative sense.my mum's sweet, she prays for me everyday.and she asks me what's wrong whn something happens.but when u try t tell her ur problem..she drifts away and its just IMPOSSIBLE t talk t her.but her good intentions i'm aware of and appreciate much.i love my mum.and for my sis, who often tells me she loves me and shows it through buying stuff for me and fufiling my material needs, doesnt rly care abt my emotions.perhaps she does, but she says nothing more than an "oh." when u tell her what ure going through.even if that's what she means by caring, or that's just how she expresses it, i'm not satisfied.i dun feel comforted.i need help, not just knowledge of how much everyone cares or loves me.and as for my brother.i dun want t seek anything from him.i dun hate him.he is my brother in Christ and physically.i do not rake up the past and hate him for that.i've moved on.but i just dun want t tell him anything.i shall address that when i knw why.

call upon the name of the Lord and be saved

i have other rantings.but this phrase just stoke me.i feel much better.alright.i'll rant it to my God. (:

we bring sacrifice of PRAISE into the house of the Lord
ilovemyJesus!!

still.

passion does not equate feelings
you can have passion for something you dont feel.
in our christian walk, what do you seek for?
encounters with God? feelings?
"i cannot feel God, i dont think He is real"
"but i never encountered Him before, how can i have faith?"
"i cannot see/hear/feel/smell(?!) Him.."
sounds familiar?
LIES.
knowing God's word is far more important than encountering Him.our christian walk is NOT sustain by experiences and feelings.yes, these are part of our relationship with God.but what are we truly seeking from Him? its His Word we are to seek, not some holy holy mighty mighty *BOOM* touch at the alter that will make u fly a thousand yards.that's not the main point, dear.
our job is just to read His word, obey and have faith in Him.ultimately, our aim is NOT to experience Him, but to KNOW Him.

i do pray that you'll seek not encounters but His will.i do pray that that you'll understand that you can have passion for God even when you claim you never felt/experienced Him before.i do pray that God adds unto you knowledge that you may understand how your life should be.i do pray that things are not routined.i do pray that you not only know but apply.i do pray that you head the right direction in seeking God.i do pray that you will still be coming to church and doing your quiet time even when you think nothing happens.i do pray that you understand the spiritual realm better.i do pray that christianity is not JUST "christianity" to you.

and i do pray that you rly want to know God that's why you go to church and stuff.and not because you go to church and stuff that's why you tell people you want to draw closer to the Father.
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icesktg was pretty fun tdy.just that i felt rly rly tired and looked rly rly moody.and some funny stuff happened btwn kare and i.we held hands while sktg and this guy came out of no whr all of a sudden.i nearly fell and was pushing some part of kare's body for support for abt 10secs.i'm not supposed t go into details lah.hahaha.but i found it rly funny.laughed till i couldnt stand properly.and she was embarrased..sry kare.and thx for rendering assistance. =D

ah.i'm out.for the week plus nxt week.and most probably the following one too.since the canoe team is gg t go icesktg agn.
well.we'll witness how the Father works again. *smiles

Your mighty hand, makes the whole world tremble.Your loving hand, comforts one forever.
ilovemyJesus!!

ytd we had prayer meeting in church.
and i went thr in my semi-pyjama cuz i woke up at 1:20pm when i needed t leave at 1:30pm.
AHAHAHA.
a crumpled BIGWALK tee and oversized orange ripcurl board shorts.
and sneakers.
total mismatch.
ahahaha.

anw.we prayed for alot of things.
people, good weather, safety etc etc.
continue praying, fellow prayer warriors!
=D

AMAZING RACE YOUTH IMPACT VERSION
4JUNE, SATURDAY, 9AM AT CHURCH OF SPORE BKT TMH [NEAR BEAUTY WORLD].FREE REGISTRATION AND PRIZES UP TO $1000.FOR FURTHER ENQUIRIES, uh.tag on my board?
hehe.and if u dun knw how t go.FRET NOT.LYNETTE will personally take u thr. =D

and i stayed over at mellimoo's house after prayer meeting ytd.
OH!the makan heaven western food stall auntie is so cute! she made trumpet noises (with a grand ending), trying t imitate my talking.she said i spoke fast and sounded like a trumpet.SHE'S SO CUTE! (: and mellimoo and i had icecream after that.yums. *smack lips* thn we went over t her house and ate maggie mee at 11pm.hehe.*rubs tummy* oh.EDWIN IS SO CUTE! he burped and vomitted on his shirt and stood thr looking innocent and helpless.HAHAHA.so cute!

and this is a song mel and i wrote(partly inspired by rixiang's sermon about being a world-class worldchanger):
i want to be a worldchanger
i want to fix my eyes on eternity
know what You have in store for me
looking forward, i put my trust in You
cause i know You're true

i want to put others before me
not conform to the world's mentality
i am different, Holy Spirit's living in me
and i wanna live for You

(chorus)
i live to worship You
i live to praise Your name
i want to change my world for You
all glory goes to You

-end-