didnt sleep on sunday night. talked to jq on the phone. bwahahaha. so dumb. called her at 3am in the morning thinking it was only 1am. she must have been thinking:"this woman is insane!". anw. talked abt a whole deal of stuff n pu down the phone at abt 4.45am. thn went to write diary until 5am+++. went to slp. woke up at 5.30am. bwahahahahaha. quite pro lah.
anyway. monday had trng. cuz i din slp i felt so tired during trng. bwahahaha. but thn i "pia" like siao lorh. rmb wad my brother said:"in NS, you have to 'pia' until ur limit. n even when u reach ur limit, they wun let u off". ya. so canoeing tt time, i kept telling myself not to rest n everytime i stopped paddling, i forced myself to continue. was quite surprised tt i managed to canoe the whole distance without resting. in fact, very suprised. didnt think i could do it.
went jq's hse after tt. oh yah. it was mr josef tan's bday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR TAN!. thn went to the family service centre after tt. reached hm very late le. no energy to blog le. woke up on tuesday afternnon at 3pm+++. went out with jie jie to buy my sandals. cuz mum wasnt free. got my sandals. rushed home. n rushed off to the family service center again. bwahahaha. played the game of "life" there. as in. not the board game. something more real. like others always say:"u'll never know until u experience". agree to the fullest. everytime it was my turn, i know paying the bills whatever is inevitable. at first, i thot the game was unfair. tt paying the bills, sch fees, transport fees etc should not be compulsory. but thn. i realized. that IS life. life's like that. when i had not enough money, i had to borrow. it wasnt easy to ask. but anw. my sis offered me the money. after tt she had not enough for herself. n i had to borrow frm someone else. it really wasnt easy at all. borrowed frm sanker and alvin. wait. did i borrow frm alvin? ok. i forgot. but anw. i learnt tt, when u need money, u HAVE TO put away ur pride. when jason landed on "work opportunity", he was very happy. but thn when he found out what he had to do, he said "No. I dun want it". n since i was desperate, i took it for him. i sang. i cant believe it. loud n clear. until the everyone there could hear me. bcuz when u are desperate, u have to do things even if you dont want to. you cannot afford to bother abt what ppl think of u. learnt alot from the game. n the whole course. jason said:"this game sucks". i kinda agree. life's like tt. even if u dun like it, u HAVE to get on with it. n like SoonWhy said. everything "chance" we take, we all think it sucks. this IS life. this IS reality. really learnt alot from the game. n the entire course. n alvin. i mean. the BIG alvin. really thank the whole FSC team. if i were to write a book about ytd's game, it would take me 6months to do so. n to read it, maybe 6 days. but look. the game itself i was playing took only 2hrs. experience. is more than anything. to quote SoonWhy. i dun think any of u ppl reading my blog would catch wad i'm saying. bcuz u werent there last night. bcuz words are just words. yepp. but anyway. i really really truly truly sincerely sincerely thank the entire FSC team. for having such a program. for the talks. the game. everything. THANK YOU! u've made a big difference in my life. =)