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ok.update on nationals.mm.ONEmei/SHOEyun,berns/HEADy,sitty/tabby,zakTHEPRETTYONE, janeTHESHORTONE(oops!) got into the finals.and the rest, a-man-duh!, jiayi, deviana, charlotte, zheng/narmy, huiqin/pras and of course, not to forget, LYNETTE/sijing did CRESCENT proud and brought us glory by ompleting the race and winning themselves.yup.we all gave our best shot, uh-huh?

WELL DONE CRESCENT CANOEISTS! GLORY TO CRESCENT! YOU GAVE YOUR BEST SHOT, AND U'RE ALL WINNERS BABY!

yup.its not the position that matters.u know what matters most.its your efforts.yea?

and i shall elaborate on MY race paticularly.i felt that it was a pity because chances of us(sijing and i) getting into finals were SO high.i'm not sad that i didnt get it, i'm just..mm.feeling pity? (ke3 xi1 in chinese) miss ang thinks its bad luk that i sprained my leg RIGHT before the competition.actually i sprained it on monday.but i still went for trng and the swell got worse.rested on tue and wed, and competition was on thur.and on thur, right bfor my race, while i was getting up the boat, i slipped down the mud and sprained the already sprained ankle.it was kinda painful.while paddling to the start line(at 500m), i wanted to tell sijing to call out, because it was indeed painful.but i thot of everything..what have i been trng for? so much efforts for this day.how can i just..yea.and i shouldnt let sijing down.so i went for the race.and yea..during the race i stepped on the footrest very hard (as of usual.btw, YES U DO NEED UR FOOT FOR CANOEING,WANKERS!) and after crossing about 250m, it was hurting like siao..as if i fractured a bone.but i pushed on and continued to kick and push the footrest while sreaming lah.at tht time we were still 3rd (top 3 gets into finals).but at the last about 70m or so (which is very very little distance) i stopped kicking the footrest and rested my foot.THEN THE DIRETION WENT HAYWIRE! and BGSS caught up and crossed the finishing line (which was so near YET so far) before us by a few seconds.well, it doesnt rly matter bcause i gave as much as i could, though i cant say its my best.my best would have been given if my ankle was fine.another error on my part would be not slowing down my strokes.at the start of the race, sijing kinda told me tht my strokes were too fast and asked me to slow down.but i was so caught up with winning, since GESS and NJC were not too far off yet, i replied "no,cannot!we must be fast!".during trngs, when she asks me to slow down, i would.but..mm.oh well.error on my part here.and last lesson learnt..MOOD.mood is important.never get urself upset/angry over ANYTHING bfore the ompetition.i was mad at a certain penny ang bfore the competition because she claimed that we didnt give our best just because some didnt qualify.but hey!this is nationals, not SDBA..whr we have more space to dominate.i was SOOO mad tht i didnt wanna compete at all.and i was seriously serious about it because i kept thinking i was going to do it FOR HER.and that thought pisses me.and sijing rubbed off bad-mood frm me.right bfore the rae she becamse very depressed that i didnt wna race.and so..yea.mentally we were kinda unprepared.

ANYWAY, i feel that more important are these lessons learnt thn the outcome of the competition.yup.and i dun wan this to mark the END of my crescent canoeing career.i'm going to make this the START of a new career.yup.i've made up my mind to continue with canoeing.i wna complete the incomplete task. (: all for the glory of crescent canoeing team.and if i get a medal/trophy in the future, i will dedicate it to crescent team.and i MEAN this alright.

and today, i've officially stepped down from canoeing in crescent.CRESCENT CANOEISTS: THANKS SO MUCH DARLINGS FOR MAKING UP HALF OF MY SECONDARY SCH LIFE.U ARE MORE THN JUNIORS, MORE THN TEAMMATES TO ME.U ARE SPECIAL TO ME IN YOUR OWN INDIVIDUAL WAYS AND U'LL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN.WE'VE BEEN THROUGH THICK AND THIN, RAIN AND SHINE TOGETHER.I'LL NEVER FORGET OUR TIME TOGETHER, BE IT SAD OR GLAD.YOU ALL TAUGHT ME ALOT OF VALUABLE THINGS IN LIFE, LIKE LOVE AND FRIENDSHIP. (: AND YOU ALSO SHOWED ME WHO I RLY WAS, WHAT I AM CAPABLE OF, WHAT I AM NOT.OF COURSE I WISH I COULD STAY IN THE TEAM AND BE WITH YOU ALL FOREVER, BUT I HAVE TO MOVE ON."TRUE FRIENDS NEVER PART, MAYBE IN DISTANCE, BUT NOT IN HEART."NO MATTER HOW FAR OFF WE ARE FROM IN EACH OTHER IN THE FUTURE, YOU WILL ALL STILL BE LIVING IN MY HEART AND MIND.YUP.TAKE CARE EACH OF YOU AND CONTINUE TO DO CRESCENT PROUD! LASTLY, I WILL NOT FORGET OUR FAMOUS HUGS. *HUGS* I LOVE YOU INFINITE RED M&Ms! <3

today i expected a canoeing nationals championship lunch/dinner of some sort but we didnt.well, i guess everyone's tired so i cant blame them.SMILE(: while i was feeling sad about not doing anything for this signifiant day (esp for me), shoee made my day by offering to lunch with me.thn we walked around and bought 2 pairs of earrings.we exchanged one side of each.heh.I LOVE YOU SHOE.u made my day! *HUGS*

i have many new friends! yay! BGSS and GESS mainly.abit late huh..my last day.LOL.oh well. (: