to You i lift my soul, my God, i trust in You
ilovemyJesus!!

i was kinda angry when as i logged into blogger, intending to vent my anger.but on my com, Enter In [planet shakers] was playing.and it said, "to You i lift my soul, my God, i trust in You."that is my promise to God.i dun wna dissapoint God again.lift my soul to God.like ytd rixiang said, "..to offer Your bodies as living sacrifaces, hoy and pleasing to God.this is your spiritual act of worship."[romans12:1]my life is God's, not mine.

well.what happened was..we needed the microsoft office cd which was at my uncle's houes at admiralty.and i didnt wanna go.i wanted my sis to go.or at least go with me.but my sis was going to meet her friends and she said:"why cant u just go yourself?"though thr was nth wrong saying tht, i was just angry.i rly didnt feel like going out, much less all the way to admiralty which is at the other end of singapore.

but as i logged on to blogger, i heard the song.and i felt so guilty for allowing devil to work in me.besides, even if i get angry, what good can happen? NOTHING.i will STILL have to go anyway.felt so stupid not realizing this earlier.satan is the father of lies, blinder of truth.

another thing that has been bothering me is application to SAJ.when ms ang broke the news about us being wanted by sajc, i was like:"dun evn thnk! i wun take part in DSA." but thn i went home and thought abt it.th reason why i didnt accept njc's offer was because i was afraid i couldnt cope.but sajc, its not as stressful and people there are not exactly the creme of the crope, though it is still a good JC.and i think i'll be able to cope thr well enough.but thn again, i dun rly knw my standards.i mean, if i apply to go thr, it means tht i'm limiting myself ot one jc without evn knowing wht are my real choices.i mean, wht if i take my olvls and realize i CAN make it for njc, tht i'm rly worthy of tht JC.SIGH.

to go or not to go? tmr's the dateline.