Your grace is enough Your grace is enough
ilovemyJesus!!
life is terrible when you have 2123858724823 mosquitoes in youe house and 5342893472972034782394 mosquito bites on ur body and every two words u type, u have to stop and scratch for a while.life ie terrible indeed.tragic.
alright.so yesterday we had trng.was fine as of usual, except that it was afternoon trng.and shuyun who promised me she'll be early was late for 21mins.but well, as the gracious me, she's forgiven. (X and wanmei and discovered that we were a family after all. XD
some of us were pretty upset today because of our teacher in charge.yes, her intentions are right.i know she wants us to do better too. but her approach was wrong.we WERE giving our best.and i really tried hard.the nationals means as much to me as it means to her, probably even more for me.so i'm giving my best.and i didnt like it when we all get accused of not trying hard enough, not giving our best.we dont need ms ang to tell us what to do because we know better.i dun rly appreciate the way she acts as if she knows everything the BEST.i mean, ask her to come down and paddle and i'll let her talk.all she does is sit up thr and criticise.how can she base our efforts on our timing?thr are other factors which affect, like waves and currents etc.she is not understanding.i was rly hurt yesterday and i was so angry, trust me, i wanted to kill her and drown her in macritchie.thn i thought if i did that, we wouldnt have water to drink because it will be polluted.LOL. XD no.anw, after wat she said i found it difficult to perform agn because i was so wronged and angry and i couldnt breathe properly since i was crying.BUT i remembered what coach once smsed me.that i was doing all these for myself and that no emotions should get involved.he's right.who cares about what the worthless PENNY says? i'm doing all these for myself. XD thanks coach, if you ever read this,that it.
thn bernice, amanda and i rushed for church.when we reached, p&w just ended.sermon was given by Ps Dave ridden [or sth like that[ from Youth Alive in australia.his accent was strong, some things he said i couldnt catch.anyway, i thought his sermon wasnt exceptionally good or what.it was funny though.he touched alot of things about about our purpose and our ability and basically, christianity, but none of them he went into details.so its like what the chinese idiom says:"walk horse see flowers"[zhou2 ma3 kan4 hua1].yea, everything was pretty shallow.couldnt rly see any MAIN point in his sermon.but it was still good though, enforces my relation with God.
bernice thought our church was fun.and she thought melissa was pretty.LOL. XD
oh wells.today rosaline, rebecca, liying and nicholas are getting baptised!
CONGRATS ON YOUR BAPTISM! XD
Sunday, June 26, 2005
Friday, June 24, 2005
JESUS You are my BEST FRIEND and You'll ALWAYS be, nothing will ever change that
ilovemyJesus!!
I LOVE MY LIFE LIKE ANYTHING AND I BET YOU'LL LOVE MY LIFE TOO IF YOU WERE ME.what more can i ask for?
i thank You Lord Jesus for blessing me with treasures around me; my family and friends.and i thank You for the happiness i feel despite all circumstances.i thank You for the peace.You are my joy
today was PURE JOY.trng was GOOD because SIJING was around.and our timing NEVER crossed 3mins! WHOOOHOOO! *throws confetti* had alot of fun during trng.but that didnt mean slacking.we still trained hard alright.i tried very hard to improve.i rly listened t what coach says.but all he comments it:"well..ure trying."which means i havent got it yet.oh wells.it takes time.XD
after trng went to sch with siti and berns to bath.HA.i saw bernice chia in nothing more thn a towel.LOL.used my JOHNSON KID'S WATERMELON TOP-TO-TOE AGAIN! XD thn we set off for tiong to meet SHOEyun, who was a classic.cuz we wanted her to get up the train we were in and told her to count ten doors frm the front of the train.guess what? whn our train reached tiong, we saw NO shuyun!so we ran out shouting for her like looking for dogs.LOL.we thn called her frantically and she was like
SHOE:i'm on the train alrdy
me:okok.we got off.we are at tiong.GET OFF NOW!
SHOE:cnt!door closing alrdy!my train goes to jurong right?
me:(not rly paying attention t her qn)yayayayaya.u get off nxt stop.its tanjong pagar right?yes yes it is.count ten doors frm the front and wait for the next train.u'll see 3 idiots thr asking u to go in..
*END CALL*
it then suddenly dawn on me tht she was on the wrong train because she said she was going to JURONG?!?! so bernice immediately called her to take the other side.and lucky us, she did.but when her train was at tiong, we didnt see her in the tenth entrance.GUESS WHAT?bsides having bad directional sense, she couldnt count.she was in the eleventh door.LOL.it was hilarious.we laughed our kindneys off.and SHOE was rly cute tdy!her hair, her shirt, her shorts, her shoes, her bag.AWWW.they made her look so pretty and cute!
oooh.berns has a nice addidas polo tee!and SITI HAS A RAULPH LAUREN POLO.just how rich is that girl?!
so we set off for junction 8.ate yoshi.thn proceeded to macs for halal food for siti.met alot of funny people at mac.like this guy and girl whom we didnt knw if they were a couple.they acted awkardly.like.LOL.like they were on a blind date or sth.and this guy who cleans up the tables.haha.he laughed at me unintentionally.oh well.thn we did our homewrk.berns needed a dictionary for english and strange enough, she wanted to go ask the raffles guys thr because she thought they may just be carrying their dictionaries around.LOL.many funny things happened thr too.
SIMPLE PLEASURES.SWEET MEMORIES XD
thn at 4.30 we realized we had no time so we hurriedly went t take a neoprint.BERNICE SAID IT WAS THE NICEST CANOEING NEOPRINT EVER TAKEN! i agree.its rly cute.we made alot of funny and stupid faces.and we drew CHRISTINE[coach's girlfriend;our imaginery friend] on it!LOL.thn we zoomed arnd J8 to buy prasana's bday present.we got her this Happy House Notebook Set and a Sesame Street cup.LOL.
thn we got stranded at BISHAN cuz we didnt knw how t go.called many ppl but they either didnt answer or didnt turn on.finally got through to pras and we made our way thr, not forgetting to go up wrong blocks and walk down 3 storeys frm the 5th floor to get t the 2nd floor bcuz the lift only stops at the 5th floor.(?!)haha.and when we were at block "173", pras thought we are at the "cemetry".LOL.
had a grt time at the party playing th finger game whr siti would always lose because she screams.LOL.even when nth happens to her yet.LOL.she's cute la.and thn we had BBQed food and swenson's sticky chewy choc ice-cream cake.YUMS.coach came and we showed him the neoprint which he kept smiling at.probably bcuz we drew his girlfried and we wrote the following:"WE ARE FAMILY AND WE LOVE JOSEPH *blushes*".LOL.watched part of Cinderella Story.and coach was rly cute!we were comparing the show with White Chicks and coach suddenly took my shoe bag up and went "its a prada!"LOL!(ps:that's a line frm white chick)
coach is funny la! he jokes with us and he's more lame now.i still rmb being the very hateful one who couldnt accept him as a coach and though i would nvr acknowledge him.just because he replaced our old coach, huang jiao lian.yet he was patient and he was kind.i rly rly love my coach.he is a grt man. XD
thn after tht i realized it was late and i didnt want my sec 1s and 2s to get in any danger since most of thm live quite far.told pras we'll make a move first.thn we all left.took the train with deviana and shuyun.thn sent shuyun home to make sure she was fine.and i'm now at peace cuz all my jnrs have sent me an sms telling me they're home safe. XD
mm.my nice sister actually smsed me and asked if i wanted her to fetch me.sweet.alright.she needs to slp and i'm hogging her bed as i type this.so.TATA!
ilovemyJesus!!
I LOVE MY LIFE LIKE ANYTHING AND I BET YOU'LL LOVE MY LIFE TOO IF YOU WERE ME.what more can i ask for?
i thank You Lord Jesus for blessing me with treasures around me; my family and friends.and i thank You for the happiness i feel despite all circumstances.i thank You for the peace.You are my joy
today was PURE JOY.trng was GOOD because SIJING was around.and our timing NEVER crossed 3mins! WHOOOHOOO! *throws confetti* had alot of fun during trng.but that didnt mean slacking.we still trained hard alright.i tried very hard to improve.i rly listened t what coach says.but all he comments it:"well..ure trying."which means i havent got it yet.oh wells.it takes time.XD
after trng went to sch with siti and berns to bath.HA.i saw bernice chia in nothing more thn a towel.LOL.used my JOHNSON KID'S WATERMELON TOP-TO-TOE AGAIN! XD thn we set off for tiong to meet SHOEyun, who was a classic.cuz we wanted her to get up the train we were in and told her to count ten doors frm the front of the train.guess what? whn our train reached tiong, we saw NO shuyun!so we ran out shouting for her like looking for dogs.LOL.we thn called her frantically and she was like
SHOE:i'm on the train alrdy
me:okok.we got off.we are at tiong.GET OFF NOW!
SHOE:cnt!door closing alrdy!my train goes to jurong right?
me:(not rly paying attention t her qn)yayayayaya.u get off nxt stop.its tanjong pagar right?yes yes it is.count ten doors frm the front and wait for the next train.u'll see 3 idiots thr asking u to go in..
*END CALL*
it then suddenly dawn on me tht she was on the wrong train because she said she was going to JURONG?!?! so bernice immediately called her to take the other side.and lucky us, she did.but when her train was at tiong, we didnt see her in the tenth entrance.GUESS WHAT?bsides having bad directional sense, she couldnt count.she was in the eleventh door.LOL.it was hilarious.we laughed our kindneys off.and SHOE was rly cute tdy!her hair, her shirt, her shorts, her shoes, her bag.AWWW.they made her look so pretty and cute!
oooh.berns has a nice addidas polo tee!and SITI HAS A RAULPH LAUREN POLO.just how rich is that girl?!
so we set off for junction 8.ate yoshi.thn proceeded to macs for halal food for siti.met alot of funny people at mac.like this guy and girl whom we didnt knw if they were a couple.they acted awkardly.like.LOL.like they were on a blind date or sth.and this guy who cleans up the tables.haha.he laughed at me unintentionally.oh well.thn we did our homewrk.berns needed a dictionary for english and strange enough, she wanted to go ask the raffles guys thr because she thought they may just be carrying their dictionaries around.LOL.many funny things happened thr too.
SIMPLE PLEASURES.SWEET MEMORIES XD
thn at 4.30 we realized we had no time so we hurriedly went t take a neoprint.BERNICE SAID IT WAS THE NICEST CANOEING NEOPRINT EVER TAKEN! i agree.its rly cute.we made alot of funny and stupid faces.and we drew CHRISTINE[coach's girlfriend;our imaginery friend] on it!LOL.thn we zoomed arnd J8 to buy prasana's bday present.we got her this Happy House Notebook Set and a Sesame Street cup.LOL.
thn we got stranded at BISHAN cuz we didnt knw how t go.called many ppl but they either didnt answer or didnt turn on.finally got through to pras and we made our way thr, not forgetting to go up wrong blocks and walk down 3 storeys frm the 5th floor to get t the 2nd floor bcuz the lift only stops at the 5th floor.(?!)haha.and when we were at block "173", pras thought we are at the "cemetry".LOL.
had a grt time at the party playing th finger game whr siti would always lose because she screams.LOL.even when nth happens to her yet.LOL.she's cute la.and thn we had BBQed food and swenson's sticky chewy choc ice-cream cake.YUMS.coach came and we showed him the neoprint which he kept smiling at.probably bcuz we drew his girlfried and we wrote the following:"WE ARE FAMILY AND WE LOVE JOSEPH *blushes*".LOL.watched part of Cinderella Story.and coach was rly cute!we were comparing the show with White Chicks and coach suddenly took my shoe bag up and went "its a prada!"LOL!(ps:that's a line frm white chick)
coach is funny la! he jokes with us and he's more lame now.i still rmb being the very hateful one who couldnt accept him as a coach and though i would nvr acknowledge him.just because he replaced our old coach, huang jiao lian.yet he was patient and he was kind.i rly rly love my coach.he is a grt man. XD
thn after tht i realized it was late and i didnt want my sec 1s and 2s to get in any danger since most of thm live quite far.told pras we'll make a move first.thn we all left.took the train with deviana and shuyun.thn sent shuyun home to make sure she was fine.and i'm now at peace cuz all my jnrs have sent me an sms telling me they're home safe. XD
mm.my nice sister actually smsed me and asked if i wanted her to fetch me.sweet.alright.she needs to slp and i'm hogging her bed as i type this.so.TATA!
Thursday, June 23, 2005
i dont care what the world throws at me now i'm gonne be alright
ilovemyJesus!!
HELLO! trng tdy was GREAT.though my partner wasnt ard bcause she[sijing] and pras went tto NJC t take the test.LOL.and ms wrote a reference letter for my to NJC when i didnt apply to go thr thru DSA.LOL.the remarks goes like this:
Lynette is goal-oriented and self-disciplined towards achieving in CCA. She is physically fit and always strives for better results in competitions. She is a responsible Vice Captain and has the initiative to organise activities to foster team-spirits among the members. She believes in her abilities and can endure the hardship of training. Her peers have great respect for her willingness to share her knowledge and skills in Canoeing.
well-said.except tt i dont rmb organising ANY activities!LOL.and she missed out the part whr i would always nag at people when they slack.and also the part whr i talk too much.
today, she scolded me and told me to "shut up".maybe to her its a joke, i dunno whether she meant it or not.even if her intentions are right, they way she said it was hurtful.though i joked it off, i was feeling kinda bad.how could a teacher ask her student to 'shut up' and tell her tht she's 'ignorant/stupid' repeatedly.OUCH. ):
ohh!coach went into the waters tdy.haha.i like his boat.its a purple K1, and it has a smiley face on it.probably given to him by CHRISTINE (his girlfriend;my imaginery friend XD).he looks too big for the slim boat.heh.
and bernice and i chatted with 'huang jiao lian' (coach huang) for a while.he was showing off his addidas bottle and armani exchange shirt!HA!and he bet i couldnt go to RJC. ): if i could, he would buy me a pair of LEVI jeans, ARMANI EXCHANGE shirt, MARCHE everday and the list goes on.LOL.it was hilarious. XD
and i have to say something.i do not exactly love chinese high canoeists!!!
1.) a whole group of them in their canoes were blocking the racing course when we were racing.they were like, PERPENDIULAR TO THE LANES?!totally blocking us lah!and thn when they saw us coming, their 2-seaters were lost and didnt move.UGH.and i was like:"PADDLE FORWARD!FASTER!DUN BLOCK THE WAY!"and thn, i screwed up my directions. ):
2.) this chineses high guy and his partner were getting off their canoes at the platform whr everyone launches or gets out.and his partner went off.so his was left thr with the 2-seater.and he sat thr, waiting for the sky t drop or sth.and thn thr was alot alot of ppl waiting to get up and alot alot of ppl waiting t go down but all could not because of mr i-am-waiting-still-and-i-cnt-see-the-queue-or-crowd-around-me.UGH.and so i shouted to 'huang jiao lian' to ask his SJI boys t give the poor lil thing thr a hand.'huang jiao lian' asked the boy to move off, but his reply was "i'm waiting for my parnter." (for i moment i thought what partner he was referring to.LOL. XD)thn after the sky dropped and a new one was made, and i was tired of waiting, i asked "um.can u let me get up of my boat first thn i help u carry ur boat or sth?"and he was like:"my partner is coming".and 'huang jiao lian' was laughing his toes off.LOL.and so were the SJI guys and my fellow teammates.UGH.but his partner had apparantly taken his own swt time to make his way and delayed the queue for longer.i rmb hearing bernice say "cant u carry up a T2 by urself? ni shi bu shi nan ren? (are u a man?)"LOL.i told berns tht was mean and she tried to apologize.but the guy pretended he didnt hear anything at all.HAHAHA.
thn whn finally all the boats were up, bernice felt so bad tht she told coach abt wht she did.and coach approached the guy with bernice..
coach: uh.hello?
bernice and us: *LAUGHS*
bernice: i just wantd to say sry for saying "[the above]" just now.
guy: [not even daring to look at bernice; back facing us]huh..?
guy's friends: *LAUGHS*
guy: i didnt hear.i cnt rmb anything.
HA!how could he not hear? it was so loud! even the other guys further away heard berns LOUD and CLEAR. XD
oh well.
in conclusion, i do not like chinese high boys.but they are a great source of entertainment.since their back paddlers usually were caps.since they lean backwards when they race [LOL] and it looks dumb bcuz evn a person who doesnt canoe wouldnt do tht.since they cnt cry a T2 up themselves when any of us crescent canoeists can.since they were yellow and red.
mmm.
after trng, ONEmei, SHOEyun, zaKEYya and i went tiong for lunch.haha.on the bus we talked about alot of funny stuff.like how we wouldnt dare to talk when we had lipsticks on our mouth during kindergarden sch performances.LOL.and wht bernice told us on tue.this little baby on america funniest videos was eating spaghetti.and one strand of spaghetti went into his right nostril when he breathed.LOL.it went in with sauce, and when he breathed out, thr was NO SAUCE!LOL.and it went in out in out bcause of the breathing.VERY FUNNY LA!and thn the dad, laughing like nuts, pulled it out..guess what? ANOTHER SPAGHETTI WAS SUCKED INTO THE LEFT NOSTRIL!HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA.alright.
so we finally got to tiong and couldnt decide whr to eat.wanmei represented macs, shuyun represented KFC, zakkiyya represented burger king and i represented longjohnsilver.and we played "oh ya bei ya somm".HAHAHAHA.it was hilarious!we were just 4 girls, standing in the middle of tiong, playing "oh ya bei ya somm".and 5 rounds somemore!LOL.so shuyun won and we had KFC.yumm.
i've been craving for KFC since the day my sis said we would have dinner thr but didnt bcause she overslept.at long last..(:
wanmei eats very little though.she complained tht the fllet buger which was in the meal was very small and not filling.yet, after eating the burger, she was so full she was offering us her chicken.LOL.and zakk eats REALLY fast. XD
shuyun had to remind me my potato looked like diarrhoea. )X
oh wells.all in all it was a good good day.
and through the hol trng and 'peer tutoring' and lunching with my teammates, i have grown so much more closer to them.i'm begginning to love them more and more and treasure thm alot. (:
ilovemyJesus!!
HELLO! trng tdy was GREAT.though my partner wasnt ard bcause she[sijing] and pras went tto NJC t take the test.LOL.and ms wrote a reference letter for my to NJC when i didnt apply to go thr thru DSA.LOL.the remarks goes like this:
Lynette is goal-oriented and self-disciplined towards achieving in CCA. She is physically fit and always strives for better results in competitions. She is a responsible Vice Captain and has the initiative to organise activities to foster team-spirits among the members. She believes in her abilities and can endure the hardship of training. Her peers have great respect for her willingness to share her knowledge and skills in Canoeing.
well-said.except tt i dont rmb organising ANY activities!LOL.and she missed out the part whr i would always nag at people when they slack.and also the part whr i talk too much.
today, she scolded me and told me to "shut up".maybe to her its a joke, i dunno whether she meant it or not.even if her intentions are right, they way she said it was hurtful.though i joked it off, i was feeling kinda bad.how could a teacher ask her student to 'shut up' and tell her tht she's 'ignorant/stupid' repeatedly.OUCH. ):
ohh!coach went into the waters tdy.haha.i like his boat.its a purple K1, and it has a smiley face on it.probably given to him by CHRISTINE (his girlfriend;my imaginery friend XD).he looks too big for the slim boat.heh.
and bernice and i chatted with 'huang jiao lian' (coach huang) for a while.he was showing off his addidas bottle and armani exchange shirt!HA!and he bet i couldnt go to RJC. ): if i could, he would buy me a pair of LEVI jeans, ARMANI EXCHANGE shirt, MARCHE everday and the list goes on.LOL.it was hilarious. XD
and i have to say something.i do not exactly love chinese high canoeists!!!
1.) a whole group of them in their canoes were blocking the racing course when we were racing.they were like, PERPENDIULAR TO THE LANES?!totally blocking us lah!and thn when they saw us coming, their 2-seaters were lost and didnt move.UGH.and i was like:"PADDLE FORWARD!FASTER!DUN BLOCK THE WAY!"and thn, i screwed up my directions. ):
2.) this chineses high guy and his partner were getting off their canoes at the platform whr everyone launches or gets out.and his partner went off.so his was left thr with the 2-seater.and he sat thr, waiting for the sky t drop or sth.and thn thr was alot alot of ppl waiting to get up and alot alot of ppl waiting t go down but all could not because of mr i-am-waiting-still-and-i-cnt-see-the-queue-or-crowd-around-me.UGH.and so i shouted to 'huang jiao lian' to ask his SJI boys t give the poor lil thing thr a hand.'huang jiao lian' asked the boy to move off, but his reply was "i'm waiting for my parnter." (for i moment i thought what partner he was referring to.LOL. XD)thn after the sky dropped and a new one was made, and i was tired of waiting, i asked "um.can u let me get up of my boat first thn i help u carry ur boat or sth?"and he was like:"my partner is coming".and 'huang jiao lian' was laughing his toes off.LOL.and so were the SJI guys and my fellow teammates.UGH.but his partner had apparantly taken his own swt time to make his way and delayed the queue for longer.i rmb hearing bernice say "cant u carry up a T2 by urself? ni shi bu shi nan ren? (are u a man?)"LOL.i told berns tht was mean and she tried to apologize.but the guy pretended he didnt hear anything at all.HAHAHA.
thn whn finally all the boats were up, bernice felt so bad tht she told coach abt wht she did.and coach approached the guy with bernice..
coach: uh.hello?
bernice and us: *LAUGHS*
bernice: i just wantd to say sry for saying "[the above]" just now.
guy: [not even daring to look at bernice; back facing us]huh..?
guy's friends: *LAUGHS*
guy: i didnt hear.i cnt rmb anything.
HA!how could he not hear? it was so loud! even the other guys further away heard berns LOUD and CLEAR. XD
oh well.
in conclusion, i do not like chinese high boys.but they are a great source of entertainment.since their back paddlers usually were caps.since they lean backwards when they race [LOL] and it looks dumb bcuz evn a person who doesnt canoe wouldnt do tht.since they cnt cry a T2 up themselves when any of us crescent canoeists can.since they were yellow and red.
mmm.
after trng, ONEmei, SHOEyun, zaKEYya and i went tiong for lunch.haha.on the bus we talked about alot of funny stuff.like how we wouldnt dare to talk when we had lipsticks on our mouth during kindergarden sch performances.LOL.and wht bernice told us on tue.this little baby on america funniest videos was eating spaghetti.and one strand of spaghetti went into his right nostril when he breathed.LOL.it went in with sauce, and when he breathed out, thr was NO SAUCE!LOL.and it went in out in out bcause of the breathing.VERY FUNNY LA!and thn the dad, laughing like nuts, pulled it out..guess what? ANOTHER SPAGHETTI WAS SUCKED INTO THE LEFT NOSTRIL!HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA.alright.
so we finally got to tiong and couldnt decide whr to eat.wanmei represented macs, shuyun represented KFC, zakkiyya represented burger king and i represented longjohnsilver.and we played "oh ya bei ya somm".HAHAHAHA.it was hilarious!we were just 4 girls, standing in the middle of tiong, playing "oh ya bei ya somm".and 5 rounds somemore!LOL.so shuyun won and we had KFC.yumm.
i've been craving for KFC since the day my sis said we would have dinner thr but didnt bcause she overslept.at long last..(:
wanmei eats very little though.she complained tht the fllet buger which was in the meal was very small and not filling.yet, after eating the burger, she was so full she was offering us her chicken.LOL.and zakk eats REALLY fast. XD
shuyun had to remind me my potato looked like diarrhoea. )X
oh wells.all in all it was a good good day.
and through the hol trng and 'peer tutoring' and lunching with my teammates, i have grown so much more closer to them.i'm begginning to love them more and more and treasure thm alot. (:
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
what to say,Lord,its You who gave me life
ilovemyJesus!!
HELLO XD
nice pretty rainbow at the corner of the room.
sweet
tdy we had trng.and i did a T2.it means Tourer-2 (repeat after me, like, "tu-uh-rrr-err tuuu" LOL).its a 2-seater.for a dead long time i nvr touched a 2-seater.and my partner was the strong sijing.who won me by 3 secs during the SDBA competitions. )X but anyhows,IT WAS AWESOME!though we were pairing up for the first time, our timing was great! and not to mention that coach took our timing when we werent even seriously racing.which means, we could have performed much better.our timing was 2:59, which was the jnrs fastest timing during the SDBA competition.and we went fast and straight.seriously,we were better off as a pair thn her with pras or me with charlotte.but this meant tt we were giving up our T1 (Tourer-1, 1-seater) races! )X i didnt rly like that.charlotte and deviane repleced us.but i didnt think it was good.because they were much slower thn us (i'm not being proud or what, bsides, sijing and i've got much more experience, considering our time in the team.).but ms ang and coach decided to "expose" thm to competition. (?!) oh wells.
anyway.i'm rly happy that sijing and i performed EXCELLENT.seriously.i didnt see that coming, but i'm glad.no, not glad.OVERJOYED.ELATED. XD
oh.i'm glad someone's like me.LOL.this acsi canoeist was carrying a K1 boat all by himself on his shoulder and crescent boats were blocking the way.so i shouted:"eh! hurry up! its very heavy!" for fun.thn the guy, trying to hide his laughter, said "terima-kasih".and a few of my teammates laughed cuz i use that too.mm.it doesnt sound funny to type it here.but it was funny then. XD
and thn bernice and i were talking abt speaking in tongues.and tabbie got interested in the topic.well, it was expected for her to actually ask me to say "HI" in tongues. -.- LOL.tabbi's cute. (:
half the team headed to tanglin mall for study session.tht meant bernice, siti, tabbi, jane, SHOEyun, wanmei, zakkiyya and myself.ha!this couplr sitting right in front of us were making out.the guy was frm ACSB and they actually were TONGUING in front of us! (?!) gross.and the guy attempted to bite her ear a few times.UGH.they knew we were watching thm intensely like we were watching the 7pm show, but they didnt care.and best part is, after they got off the bus, not forgetting to give us a stare first, we turned behind..AND THR WAS ANTHR COUPLE MAKING OUT!! what is the world coming to?!
i got mad on the bus when i saw CHURROS and MARKS&SPENCER [button chocs, heh.]and tabbi claims that thr are black and white button chocs.as in, one side black, one side white.I SAY IT DOESNT EXIST. )X
had a fun time at macs with my teammates.(i dun rly see thm as JUNIORS btw) haha.laughed alot at funny stuffs, and people, like the counter at mac.LOL.he's rly funny!cuz berns and i couldnt make up our minds what we wanted to eat and we didnt wanna delay the queue so we were like:"tabi! wht u wanna eat? quick order! jane jane! faster.come and order!"LOL.and the guy laughed and went like "relax, relax, u can take ur time."thn after tht when he sent my burger over, i said "terima kasih" and he went "sama-sama".LOL.thn we saw KEAGEN KANG!haha.he looks GOOD.he was with his mum. XD
after some of them left, it was siti, berns and i.we mastered the art of making stupid and silly faces and we took pics of thm with bern's phone.LOL.its rly funny.berns has this rly funny "angry" face and we all tried imitating her, but failing to do so cuz we kept bursting into laughters.LOL.it was rly fun! we acted so spasticated, people arnd us were rly entertained.LOL.grt time i had.i feel more bonded to thm now. XD
thn finally, i headed home.oh.i saw original barbie dolls going frm $5 at tanglin mall.i'm tempted to get them.HEH.and thr was a blue fairytopia one for i think $10?LOL.niceee
ilovemyJesus!!
HELLO XD
nice pretty rainbow at the corner of the room.
sweet
tdy we had trng.and i did a T2.it means Tourer-2 (repeat after me, like, "tu-uh-rrr-err tuuu" LOL).its a 2-seater.for a dead long time i nvr touched a 2-seater.and my partner was the strong sijing.who won me by 3 secs during the SDBA competitions. )X but anyhows,IT WAS AWESOME!though we were pairing up for the first time, our timing was great! and not to mention that coach took our timing when we werent even seriously racing.which means, we could have performed much better.our timing was 2:59, which was the jnrs fastest timing during the SDBA competition.and we went fast and straight.seriously,we were better off as a pair thn her with pras or me with charlotte.but this meant tt we were giving up our T1 (Tourer-1, 1-seater) races! )X i didnt rly like that.charlotte and deviane repleced us.but i didnt think it was good.because they were much slower thn us (i'm not being proud or what, bsides, sijing and i've got much more experience, considering our time in the team.).but ms ang and coach decided to "expose" thm to competition. (?!) oh wells.
anyway.i'm rly happy that sijing and i performed EXCELLENT.seriously.i didnt see that coming, but i'm glad.no, not glad.OVERJOYED.ELATED. XD
oh.i'm glad someone's like me.LOL.this acsi canoeist was carrying a K1 boat all by himself on his shoulder and crescent boats were blocking the way.so i shouted:"eh! hurry up! its very heavy!" for fun.thn the guy, trying to hide his laughter, said "terima-kasih".and a few of my teammates laughed cuz i use that too.mm.it doesnt sound funny to type it here.but it was funny then. XD
and thn bernice and i were talking abt speaking in tongues.and tabbie got interested in the topic.well, it was expected for her to actually ask me to say "HI" in tongues. -.- LOL.tabbi's cute. (:
half the team headed to tanglin mall for study session.tht meant bernice, siti, tabbi, jane, SHOEyun, wanmei, zakkiyya and myself.ha!this couplr sitting right in front of us were making out.the guy was frm ACSB and they actually were TONGUING in front of us! (?!) gross.and the guy attempted to bite her ear a few times.UGH.they knew we were watching thm intensely like we were watching the 7pm show, but they didnt care.and best part is, after they got off the bus, not forgetting to give us a stare first, we turned behind..AND THR WAS ANTHR COUPLE MAKING OUT!! what is the world coming to?!
i got mad on the bus when i saw CHURROS and MARKS&SPENCER [button chocs, heh.]and tabbi claims that thr are black and white button chocs.as in, one side black, one side white.I SAY IT DOESNT EXIST. )X
had a fun time at macs with my teammates.(i dun rly see thm as JUNIORS btw) haha.laughed alot at funny stuffs, and people, like the counter at mac.LOL.he's rly funny!cuz berns and i couldnt make up our minds what we wanted to eat and we didnt wanna delay the queue so we were like:"tabi! wht u wanna eat? quick order! jane jane! faster.come and order!"LOL.and the guy laughed and went like "relax, relax, u can take ur time."thn after tht when he sent my burger over, i said "terima kasih" and he went "sama-sama".LOL.thn we saw KEAGEN KANG!haha.he looks GOOD.he was with his mum. XD
after some of them left, it was siti, berns and i.we mastered the art of making stupid and silly faces and we took pics of thm with bern's phone.LOL.its rly funny.berns has this rly funny "angry" face and we all tried imitating her, but failing to do so cuz we kept bursting into laughters.LOL.it was rly fun! we acted so spasticated, people arnd us were rly entertained.LOL.grt time i had.i feel more bonded to thm now. XD
thn finally, i headed home.oh.i saw original barbie dolls going frm $5 at tanglin mall.i'm tempted to get them.HEH.and thr was a blue fairytopia one for i think $10?LOL.niceee
Monday, June 20, 2005
are you tired of chasing pretty rainbows?
ilovemyJesus!!
I AM A HAPPY GIRL!
LET ME SMILE FOR YOU TO SEE.
XD
SEE?
why am i so happy? that's because i just painted a rainbow on the wall of my house.i dun have a proper personal room by the way.so anyway.at the corner of the other room, i painted a nice colourful rainbow and i wrote the following:
are you tired of chasing pretty rainbows?
"cast all your anxieties on Him
because He cares for you
-1Peter 5:7"
now i love the wall! YUM XD
my sis was against the idea bcuz she thought it was vandalism.and my bro didnt rly sem to like it.and my mum was doubtful..BUT I STILL DID IT.and my sis and mum thought its nice.AHAHAHAHAHA.i am so happy!i wish i had a camera.then can take a pic of it and post it here right now.OH MY GOSH ITS SO BEAUTIFUL!
anyway.the history of it is like this:
one fine day, which is today, i was feeling depressed and angry because alot of stuff happened at home.so i vandalized the wall, using shuyun's sisters marker [oops.sry SHOE.LOL], writing stupid things.but no vulgarities anyway. (: thn i thought.why am i doing this? so i decided to draw happy stuff.i wanted to draw "ONE WAY" sign.but i dun knw which direction it should point.so.HEH.i drew a pretty pretty rainbow.YAY! XD
and now.every second i am happy. (:
alright.back to more isketching.TOODLES!
pretty pretty rainbow.
PRETTY.
ilovemyJesus!!
I AM A HAPPY GIRL!
LET ME SMILE FOR YOU TO SEE.
XD
SEE?
why am i so happy? that's because i just painted a rainbow on the wall of my house.i dun have a proper personal room by the way.so anyway.at the corner of the other room, i painted a nice colourful rainbow and i wrote the following:
are you tired of chasing pretty rainbows?
"cast all your anxieties on Him
because He cares for you
-1Peter 5:7"
now i love the wall! YUM XD
my sis was against the idea bcuz she thought it was vandalism.and my bro didnt rly sem to like it.and my mum was doubtful..BUT I STILL DID IT.and my sis and mum thought its nice.AHAHAHAHAHA.i am so happy!i wish i had a camera.then can take a pic of it and post it here right now.OH MY GOSH ITS SO BEAUTIFUL!
anyway.the history of it is like this:
one fine day, which is today, i was feeling depressed and angry because alot of stuff happened at home.so i vandalized the wall, using shuyun's sisters marker [oops.sry SHOE.LOL], writing stupid things.but no vulgarities anyway. (: thn i thought.why am i doing this? so i decided to draw happy stuff.i wanted to draw "ONE WAY" sign.but i dun knw which direction it should point.so.HEH.i drew a pretty pretty rainbow.YAY! XD
and now.every second i am happy. (:
alright.back to more isketching.TOODLES!
pretty pretty rainbow.
PRETTY.
Sunday, June 19, 2005
is all that's within you heart seek to worship Him alone?
ilovemyJesus
mm.been 3 days since i last blogged.
well.thursday i went for trng half dead since i was playing isketch with muaji at night, or rather, in the morning.LOL.thn i went for SOUL REVOLUTION conference night rally.mm.manda didnt go with me.*sulks.LOL XD
was feeling quite awful at first due to some personal reasons.but when i got thr finally, everything was fine.i remember praying alot to my Father to lift off the burdens.ps daniel chUA spoke for the sermon.he talked about the SIN OF SILENCE.we need to be witnesses for Gid and share Christ with others or we are not of Him.in heaven, there is only ONE thing we cannot do.and it is to EVANGELISE.
thn took church bus back all the way frm connerstone church at katong to church at bkt tmh.and the most classic thing is, frm bkt tmh, i took a bus in the opposite direction again twards home.HA.was rly tired, and evn more tired when i had t wake up early next morning to go for trng.but my God empowers me. =D
so i went for trng on fri morning.and i was surprisingly very energetic whn in the water though at first i was vry vry sleepy and tired.i sprinted very quickly during the sprints.realized my strength in sprinting when i rotate my shoulders and bend forward.and yes, mindset is very important.
thn it rained haldway during trng after part 1 of water trng so we ended early.and God is GREAT cuz He knew i had to leave early for the conference. =D amazing huh? rushed of to bath and ran to the bus-stop.guilty of j-walking bcuz i was in a rush and i managed t catch the bus with the other canoeists even though i spent time bathing and they left immediately after trng.You're awesome, Daddy. (:
oh.i wore a skirt because my cell planned to.and people were shocked.i saw many jaws dropping.LOL.
met rebecca kan and made our way to connerstone at katong without knowing how to get thr.LOL.but we got thr just in time.they were going for lunch.so we had lunch tgt and went for wrkshops later.attended part 2 of 'Invading the Streets' (its about street evangelism) without attending part 1.LOL.that was me, rebecca, nicholas (her brother) and liying (her cousin).was kinda lost at first but everything went well later on.
hmm.thr's sth i rly have t say.i didnt feel comfortable about the method we were taught.we were given this structure and survey forms.i didnt think it was necessary to stick to a 'system'.shared with 3 people in the 2hrs.one of them was a little interested.stunned her when i asked her about life after "death" on earth.got her thinking about her salvation.well.i'm glad.i hope she'll know the truth soon. (:
PrayUntilSomethingHappens.
thn it was rally,and sermon was given by Ps Mark of Emmanual.awesome testimony he gave.he actually contracted GPS virus, at the same time this singaporean mountain climber (i forgot his name) contracted it.it was deadly.it messes up ur nervous system here and there.go check it out on the net for more info.LOL.anw.so everyone around him prayed and prayed AND prayed and he recovered in 3weeks! AMEN! he could walk and move as normal in 3 short weeks! and the mountain climber person took 6 whole months to recover and learn to walk and move again.and the doctor even told ps mark's wife that he wasnt going to make it.yet he did.God is real. (:
and his daughter is a miracle child.his wife had a cist in her womb when she had her baby and the doctor said women with cists in their wombs couldnt conceive.yet she did.HALLELUJAH!God is indeed real. (:
we're winners over our problems, because if God is for us, who can be against us?
and thn yes, went back t church late at night AGAIN and went home frm threre AGAIN and reached hm at 11+++pm AGAIN and had to wake up early the next morning AGAIN.because we had to reach church by 8am to take the bus to connerstone.but i did it.for the 3rd time.
so at first i was quite snappy and depressed.but during praise and worship, i was alright again.i knew what i'm called to do.and i'm going to live for God.so we had service whr a certain Ps Jeremy frm america preached.HA!that guy is GOOD i must say.awesome guy.spoke about sacrificing ourselves for God to use us and seeing the need in others.AMEN.i now know that everywhere i go, thr is a NECESSATY for me to be thr therefore i must be thr.i got to be thr to create the opportunity.i need to sacrifice my "lunch" for the sake of others, like the boy with the fish and bread in John 6:1-15.but i'm not called to be miss supergirl or what, i'm thr to witness God's powers. (: ps jeremy is AWESOME i say.and my God is AWESOMErrr. (: oh.and ps jeremy is funny too! to the max. XD
thn went for workshops "Penetrating the Y-subculture" and "Mobilising Campus Ministry" respectively.i thought the first workshop was useful and good.we didnt focus of like the subculture itself but instead, our focus was KINGDOM culture.AMEN to that.what need to we have to know about the subcultures if we do not know about the KINGDOM culture? the lady who shared is rly funny and cute and rly nice.she's sincere and caring.and she's a counsellor.heh. (:
thn after that we proceeded to take the bus back to church for night life.pretended to be some psycho secret agent with liying.LOL.thn SNL started.the australian speaker, Ps Paul spoke.he was the pastor of youth alive, which is where planet shakers is from.i was kinda distracted by fascinating feathers *AHEM*.sry.personal joke.LOL.and i was guilty of not paying attention.and i liked the guilt.bcause it tells me about my relationship with God. (: but i'm still sry anyway for allowing myself to be distracted. ):
oh! and nicholas shared his testimony and how he, like the prodigal son, turned back to God.i liked a certain line he said.
"even if we forsake Him for 5yrs, He will nvr forsake us." AMEN.
after nightlife found out tht we had cafe duty.and i thought,"oh man! and i was just thinking of getting a good rest."had t reach church by 0745.and i did it.for the 4th time.AMEN!i reached home on sat at 11.30pm++ but still could wake in time without alarm clock.LOL.
so we were at the cafe today.was quite tired at first.but i became less lethargic after tht.thn i became full of energy.mm.NANA is funny and blur.PINGFEN is the joke of the year.and SARAH is pretty and cute.quite easy to talk to too.and everyone else is nice. (: i did the frying.LOL.sarah, the waitress, kept popping in to give me a hand.but got herself into lots of mess.haha.she flicked the marinating sauce on herself a couple of time and cut herself with a knife accidentally.haha.and she likes to eat chicken wings.well, cant help it.i fried them.
AND MATTHEW IS HEALED OF HAND FOOT MOUTH DISEASE! within 5 days! AMEN!
oh.yvonne & lindy (cousins) went msia.lindy told me they got my jacket.and upon receiving, i was.SHOCKED.it was a HOT PINK and white VON DUTCH jacket.i shall not comment.but its just so NOT me.well.i thanked thm for the goodwill anyway. (:
thn cleaned up and went for the last 15 mins of bible study.and went down to eat the leftovers.i wanted to eat the pau but didnt want the fillings.so i passed silvestre a plastic knife so he could use it to dig and eat up the fillings inside.so he was eating and eating, digging deep in until he ate my bread part!!! and thr was a hole.and just to joke arnd, he delibrately pierced the kinfe right down the middle of the pau.and guess what? my finger was thr.so he cut my finger.AND THR WAS BLOOD ALRIGHT.LOL.i went arnd showing off the blood and the cut telling everyone how silvestre cut me."SEE! SILVESTRE USE A KNIFE AND CUT MY FINGER EH!"thn smart ken took this yellowish thing, i think its iodine, and applied it on my finger and immdiately i stopped bleeding.LOL.
this entry is rly long.i have more to say but i think entries shouldnt be THAT long even thought this is alrdy long.so.TATA! (:
ilovemyJesus
mm.been 3 days since i last blogged.
well.thursday i went for trng half dead since i was playing isketch with muaji at night, or rather, in the morning.LOL.thn i went for SOUL REVOLUTION conference night rally.mm.manda didnt go with me.*sulks.LOL XD
was feeling quite awful at first due to some personal reasons.but when i got thr finally, everything was fine.i remember praying alot to my Father to lift off the burdens.ps daniel chUA spoke for the sermon.he talked about the SIN OF SILENCE.we need to be witnesses for Gid and share Christ with others or we are not of Him.in heaven, there is only ONE thing we cannot do.and it is to EVANGELISE.
thn took church bus back all the way frm connerstone church at katong to church at bkt tmh.and the most classic thing is, frm bkt tmh, i took a bus in the opposite direction again twards home.HA.was rly tired, and evn more tired when i had t wake up early next morning to go for trng.but my God empowers me. =D
so i went for trng on fri morning.and i was surprisingly very energetic whn in the water though at first i was vry vry sleepy and tired.i sprinted very quickly during the sprints.realized my strength in sprinting when i rotate my shoulders and bend forward.and yes, mindset is very important.
thn it rained haldway during trng after part 1 of water trng so we ended early.and God is GREAT cuz He knew i had to leave early for the conference. =D amazing huh? rushed of to bath and ran to the bus-stop.guilty of j-walking bcuz i was in a rush and i managed t catch the bus with the other canoeists even though i spent time bathing and they left immediately after trng.You're awesome, Daddy. (:
oh.i wore a skirt because my cell planned to.and people were shocked.i saw many jaws dropping.LOL.
met rebecca kan and made our way to connerstone at katong without knowing how to get thr.LOL.but we got thr just in time.they were going for lunch.so we had lunch tgt and went for wrkshops later.attended part 2 of 'Invading the Streets' (its about street evangelism) without attending part 1.LOL.that was me, rebecca, nicholas (her brother) and liying (her cousin).was kinda lost at first but everything went well later on.
hmm.thr's sth i rly have t say.i didnt feel comfortable about the method we were taught.we were given this structure and survey forms.i didnt think it was necessary to stick to a 'system'.shared with 3 people in the 2hrs.one of them was a little interested.stunned her when i asked her about life after "death" on earth.got her thinking about her salvation.well.i'm glad.i hope she'll know the truth soon. (:
PrayUntilSomethingHappens.
thn it was rally,and sermon was given by Ps Mark of Emmanual.awesome testimony he gave.he actually contracted GPS virus, at the same time this singaporean mountain climber (i forgot his name) contracted it.it was deadly.it messes up ur nervous system here and there.go check it out on the net for more info.LOL.anw.so everyone around him prayed and prayed AND prayed and he recovered in 3weeks! AMEN! he could walk and move as normal in 3 short weeks! and the mountain climber person took 6 whole months to recover and learn to walk and move again.and the doctor even told ps mark's wife that he wasnt going to make it.yet he did.God is real. (:
and his daughter is a miracle child.his wife had a cist in her womb when she had her baby and the doctor said women with cists in their wombs couldnt conceive.yet she did.HALLELUJAH!God is indeed real. (:
we're winners over our problems, because if God is for us, who can be against us?
and thn yes, went back t church late at night AGAIN and went home frm threre AGAIN and reached hm at 11+++pm AGAIN and had to wake up early the next morning AGAIN.because we had to reach church by 8am to take the bus to connerstone.but i did it.for the 3rd time.
so at first i was quite snappy and depressed.but during praise and worship, i was alright again.i knew what i'm called to do.and i'm going to live for God.so we had service whr a certain Ps Jeremy frm america preached.HA!that guy is GOOD i must say.awesome guy.spoke about sacrificing ourselves for God to use us and seeing the need in others.AMEN.i now know that everywhere i go, thr is a NECESSATY for me to be thr therefore i must be thr.i got to be thr to create the opportunity.i need to sacrifice my "lunch" for the sake of others, like the boy with the fish and bread in John 6:1-15.but i'm not called to be miss supergirl or what, i'm thr to witness God's powers. (: ps jeremy is AWESOME i say.and my God is AWESOMErrr. (: oh.and ps jeremy is funny too! to the max. XD
thn went for workshops "Penetrating the Y-subculture" and "Mobilising Campus Ministry" respectively.i thought the first workshop was useful and good.we didnt focus of like the subculture itself but instead, our focus was KINGDOM culture.AMEN to that.what need to we have to know about the subcultures if we do not know about the KINGDOM culture? the lady who shared is rly funny and cute and rly nice.she's sincere and caring.and she's a counsellor.heh. (:
thn after that we proceeded to take the bus back to church for night life.pretended to be some psycho secret agent with liying.LOL.thn SNL started.the australian speaker, Ps Paul spoke.he was the pastor of youth alive, which is where planet shakers is from.i was kinda distracted by fascinating feathers *AHEM*.sry.personal joke.LOL.and i was guilty of not paying attention.and i liked the guilt.bcause it tells me about my relationship with God. (: but i'm still sry anyway for allowing myself to be distracted. ):
oh! and nicholas shared his testimony and how he, like the prodigal son, turned back to God.i liked a certain line he said.
"even if we forsake Him for 5yrs, He will nvr forsake us." AMEN.
after nightlife found out tht we had cafe duty.and i thought,"oh man! and i was just thinking of getting a good rest."had t reach church by 0745.and i did it.for the 4th time.AMEN!i reached home on sat at 11.30pm++ but still could wake in time without alarm clock.LOL.
so we were at the cafe today.was quite tired at first.but i became less lethargic after tht.thn i became full of energy.mm.NANA is funny and blur.PINGFEN is the joke of the year.and SARAH is pretty and cute.quite easy to talk to too.and everyone else is nice. (: i did the frying.LOL.sarah, the waitress, kept popping in to give me a hand.but got herself into lots of mess.haha.she flicked the marinating sauce on herself a couple of time and cut herself with a knife accidentally.haha.and she likes to eat chicken wings.well, cant help it.i fried them.
AND MATTHEW IS HEALED OF HAND FOOT MOUTH DISEASE! within 5 days! AMEN!
oh.yvonne & lindy (cousins) went msia.lindy told me they got my jacket.and upon receiving, i was.SHOCKED.it was a HOT PINK and white VON DUTCH jacket.i shall not comment.but its just so NOT me.well.i thanked thm for the goodwill anyway. (:
thn cleaned up and went for the last 15 mins of bible study.and went down to eat the leftovers.i wanted to eat the pau but didnt want the fillings.so i passed silvestre a plastic knife so he could use it to dig and eat up the fillings inside.so he was eating and eating, digging deep in until he ate my bread part!!! and thr was a hole.and just to joke arnd, he delibrately pierced the kinfe right down the middle of the pau.and guess what? my finger was thr.so he cut my finger.AND THR WAS BLOOD ALRIGHT.LOL.i went arnd showing off the blood and the cut telling everyone how silvestre cut me."SEE! SILVESTRE USE A KNIFE AND CUT MY FINGER EH!"thn smart ken took this yellowish thing, i think its iodine, and applied it on my finger and immdiately i stopped bleeding.LOL.
this entry is rly long.i have more to say but i think entries shouldnt be THAT long even thought this is alrdy long.so.TATA! (:
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
got to let You know You're the One that i adore
ilovemyJesus!!
CHURROS! =D my love.
iceskating with the team today.
LOL.more than half the population couldnt skate.
amanda, jane, peizheng, bernice and i had to go around helping them.LOL.hilarious to see ur teammates scream and stumble.
but after all these, we have grown closer and become aware of HOW MUCH WE NEED EACH OTHER!! LOL. XD
i cant believe i fell!
amanda and i were going at high speed, holding hands.she was rly fast and so i went fast too.however, my blades slipped sideways and i slid down, resulting in a WET BUTT. *SOBS*
thn we went to the arcade.amanda and i were watchin bernice and [i think it was] wanmei race when the man beside me sudenly pointed to bern's scrn and instructed her to do sth.i turned to look at the man..
*me shocked, jaws dropped, screams and points at the 30+yr old man*
me: YOUUUU!!!!
man: (semi-smiling) whaaaat?
me: YOOOOUUUUUUU!!!
man: (now laughing) yes?
me: WHEN DID YOU COME?! OH MY GOSH! HOW COME YOU COME? I DIDNT SEE YOU! OH MY GOSH
(to all) DID YOU ALL SEE HIM?
(to the man) WHEN DID YOU COME? HOW COME I DIDNT SEE YOU?
jane: just now he came..he was standing outside the iceckating rink.about 10, 20mins ago
LOL! hilarious.IT WAS MY COACHIE WOACHIE!uh.yes, my coach.
my coach is a man in his early thirties, who wears high socks with shirts tucked neatly into his slightly-above-knee-length shorts and asics shoes.occasionally, he wears a fisherman hat, a cap, and sunglassess.he is nice to laugh at, as u can see.LOL.
BUT DUN MESS AROUND WITH MY GREAT AND ALMIGHTY COACH MAN!
he has a driving license. XD he won prasana in car-racing ALRIGHT! (he actually played in the arcade! LOL) but bernice won him one. =D i thought he looked kinda funny in the arcade.imagine a tall and gentlemen guy in his usual "UNIFORM" walking in an arcade.positively FUNNY. XD
ok.so after that we had our indecisive lunch and left JE.most of them went home while bernice, jane and i headed for town.we took the longer MRT route since we needed to like KILL TIME.LOL.talked alot about christian stuff.mm.didnt expect that conversation.well i'm glad for bernice.i used to think that she wasnt walking the talk and talking the walk.but tdy, i saw that she was trying.and i can see the passion she has for the Father.i'm glad. (:
Dear Daddy, as You see how willing bernice is to do something for You, i pray that You'll use her to impact the youths around her mightily.i pray that in whatever she does, You guide her, and that she may glorify Your name and change the lifes of others.Lord, let her be a worldchanger for You.Amen.
okay.so we ended up in town, not doing muc except for alot of talking.and i had sprife float after 3months plus of craving.LOL.thn at 6.30++pm, jane had t go meet her friends while little bernie had to meet lindis [her sis] who WANTED TO HAVE MUTTON SATAY FOR DINNER (?!?!).LOL.she's cute alright.and so i headed home.
and once again, i find my sister doing the laundry.ok.i'll do it.not tmr, i have sth on.not fri, i have sth on.not sat, i have sth on.um.sunday evening?
ilovemyJesus!!
CHURROS! =D my love.
iceskating with the team today.
LOL.more than half the population couldnt skate.
amanda, jane, peizheng, bernice and i had to go around helping them.LOL.hilarious to see ur teammates scream and stumble.
but after all these, we have grown closer and become aware of HOW MUCH WE NEED EACH OTHER!! LOL. XD
i cant believe i fell!
amanda and i were going at high speed, holding hands.she was rly fast and so i went fast too.however, my blades slipped sideways and i slid down, resulting in a WET BUTT. *SOBS*
thn we went to the arcade.amanda and i were watchin bernice and [i think it was] wanmei race when the man beside me sudenly pointed to bern's scrn and instructed her to do sth.i turned to look at the man..
*me shocked, jaws dropped, screams and points at the 30+yr old man*
me: YOUUUU!!!!
man: (semi-smiling) whaaaat?
me: YOOOOUUUUUUU!!!
man: (now laughing) yes?
me: WHEN DID YOU COME?! OH MY GOSH! HOW COME YOU COME? I DIDNT SEE YOU! OH MY GOSH
(to all) DID YOU ALL SEE HIM?
(to the man) WHEN DID YOU COME? HOW COME I DIDNT SEE YOU?
jane: just now he came..he was standing outside the iceckating rink.about 10, 20mins ago
LOL! hilarious.IT WAS MY COACHIE WOACHIE!uh.yes, my coach.
my coach is a man in his early thirties, who wears high socks with shirts tucked neatly into his slightly-above-knee-length shorts and asics shoes.occasionally, he wears a fisherman hat, a cap, and sunglassess.he is nice to laugh at, as u can see.LOL.
BUT DUN MESS AROUND WITH MY GREAT AND ALMIGHTY COACH MAN!
he has a driving license. XD he won prasana in car-racing ALRIGHT! (he actually played in the arcade! LOL) but bernice won him one. =D i thought he looked kinda funny in the arcade.imagine a tall and gentlemen guy in his usual "UNIFORM" walking in an arcade.positively FUNNY. XD
ok.so after that we had our indecisive lunch and left JE.most of them went home while bernice, jane and i headed for town.we took the longer MRT route since we needed to like KILL TIME.LOL.talked alot about christian stuff.mm.didnt expect that conversation.well i'm glad for bernice.i used to think that she wasnt walking the talk and talking the walk.but tdy, i saw that she was trying.and i can see the passion she has for the Father.i'm glad. (:
Dear Daddy, as You see how willing bernice is to do something for You, i pray that You'll use her to impact the youths around her mightily.i pray that in whatever she does, You guide her, and that she may glorify Your name and change the lifes of others.Lord, let her be a worldchanger for You.Amen.
okay.so we ended up in town, not doing muc except for alot of talking.and i had sprife float after 3months plus of craving.LOL.thn at 6.30++pm, jane had t go meet her friends while little bernie had to meet lindis [her sis] who WANTED TO HAVE MUTTON SATAY FOR DINNER (?!?!).LOL.she's cute alright.and so i headed home.
and once again, i find my sister doing the laundry.ok.i'll do it.not tmr, i have sth on.not fri, i have sth on.not sat, i have sth on.um.sunday evening?
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
saved me, forgiven me, this hole inside my heart You filled
ilovemyJesus!!
training today.i was terribly late and so was wanmei.
LOL.ironically, bfore the holidays, wanmei was the one who pointed to us the change in time for trng.however, she was the only one who came late for trng.LOL.
and as for me, i was late due to the fact that i was playing isketch and also because the washing machine is spoilt and i have to help my mum handwash the clothes like a kampong girl.SIGH.
forgot to eat breakfast cuz i was late.thn because i have low blood pressure, i almost died.while doing my run, i felt so faint and weak that a few foreigners had to help me by supporting me.i thought i could have died.LOL
but i guess my Father doesnt want to see me yet.heh. XD
mm.yesterday had dinner with my mum and sis.and they both asked if they was a second i could stop complaining about this and that.LOL.mm.i do complain alot.
HA!tdy after trng SHOEE [shuyun LAH] and i went to far east for the uh.what was it called? its outside the shopping mall.beside old chang kee.its like this long stick thing made of dough, and before that SHOEE told me it was a DOUGHNUT! [duh] to think i asked the whole team if they wanted doughnut.LOL.it was YUMMILICIOUS.i had the big onewhich was caramel filled.*smack lips*immediate addiction.HAHA.the mini chocolate-glazed ones SHOEE ate were nice too!
thn we walked and walked and walked and walked.
and after that, when we were going home, we waited at the bus stop for 16 for about 2947183472847928572094829048209482 years.usually its quite fast.but because SHOEE was thr..so the bus didnt wanna come.LOL.
SHOEE YOU BUBBLE BURSTER CUM CALORIE-MAGNET CUM DUMMIE.
iloveyouLAH! XD
oh.we had bubble tea at tiongbahru after that.HILARIOUS.i got lemonlime and she wanted to try.and she took a tiny sip and made this loud chicken-like sound!LOL.it was really funny:
SHOEE: AUUUUGGKKGGG! (the high-pitch rooster sound)
me: MY GOSH! SHOEE! that was an awful noise! it was ugly!
SHOEE: sry la.i dont like sour stuff
**people around all turn to look at us**
**me laughing**
me: that was really an ugly noise!
**guy who is still looking burst out laughing and nods his head in agreement to my statement**
LOL!
its not funny when i type it here.u should have been thr.
I PROCLAIM POH SHU YUN (PSY-cho) the JOKE OF THE YEAR!arent u honoured my lil lil jnr who cant order drinks/food for herself and needs me to do it? LOL.awww.
XD
ilovemyJesus!!
training today.i was terribly late and so was wanmei.
LOL.ironically, bfore the holidays, wanmei was the one who pointed to us the change in time for trng.however, she was the only one who came late for trng.LOL.
and as for me, i was late due to the fact that i was playing isketch and also because the washing machine is spoilt and i have to help my mum handwash the clothes like a kampong girl.SIGH.
forgot to eat breakfast cuz i was late.thn because i have low blood pressure, i almost died.while doing my run, i felt so faint and weak that a few foreigners had to help me by supporting me.i thought i could have died.LOL
but i guess my Father doesnt want to see me yet.heh. XD
mm.yesterday had dinner with my mum and sis.and they both asked if they was a second i could stop complaining about this and that.LOL.mm.i do complain alot.
HA!tdy after trng SHOEE [shuyun LAH] and i went to far east for the uh.what was it called? its outside the shopping mall.beside old chang kee.its like this long stick thing made of dough, and before that SHOEE told me it was a DOUGHNUT! [duh] to think i asked the whole team if they wanted doughnut.LOL.it was YUMMILICIOUS.i had the big onewhich was caramel filled.*smack lips*immediate addiction.HAHA.the mini chocolate-glazed ones SHOEE ate were nice too!
thn we walked and walked and walked and walked.
and after that, when we were going home, we waited at the bus stop for 16 for about 2947183472847928572094829048209482 years.usually its quite fast.but because SHOEE was thr..so the bus didnt wanna come.LOL.
SHOEE YOU BUBBLE BURSTER CUM CALORIE-MAGNET CUM DUMMIE.
iloveyouLAH! XD
oh.we had bubble tea at tiongbahru after that.HILARIOUS.i got lemonlime and she wanted to try.and she took a tiny sip and made this loud chicken-like sound!LOL.it was really funny:
SHOEE: AUUUUGGKKGGG! (the high-pitch rooster sound)
me: MY GOSH! SHOEE! that was an awful noise! it was ugly!
SHOEE: sry la.i dont like sour stuff
**people around all turn to look at us**
**me laughing**
me: that was really an ugly noise!
**guy who is still looking burst out laughing and nods his head in agreement to my statement**
LOL!
its not funny when i type it here.u should have been thr.
I PROCLAIM POH SHU YUN (PSY-cho) the JOKE OF THE YEAR!arent u honoured my lil lil jnr who cant order drinks/food for herself and needs me to do it? LOL.awww.
XD
Monday, June 13, 2005
i want to tell You what You mean to me, Lord, i give You my whole life
ilovemyJesus!!
mm.i'm quite angry now for 2 reasons.
1.) the washing machine and spoilt and my father was supposed to give my mom money to get it repaird.he promised.but he actually spent the money on gambling! and when my mum ticked him off for that, he blew his top unreasonably at my mum.i mean.HE IS ABSOLUTELY UNREASONABLE.i cant believe him.
2.) i was supposed to meet zhixin and her classmates tdy.they were going cycling at eunos at 9am.and guess what? i awoke at 3.28pm.i know it sounds absurd..but i did.LOL.slept quite late ytd playing isketch.heh.thn i smsed zhixin to ask where they were now.they were at town.and i was lazy to go out of the house now.so.heh.
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on saturday, jingan and shanshan joind us for cell.but it was still pretty quiet with missing people like, amanda [i miss her like nuts!], yifang, sufan, alex and grace.but.it was considerably fun still.we celebrated karyn and rachel's birthday.haha.karyn's a classic.she dressed up so nicely that day for an "unknown" reason [LOL] and even brought a camera.HA!funny.
thn night life's speaker was wanping.mm.i wasnt rly paying attention.was quite distracted.but i took some notes which i'll go through later. (:
thn we had dinner at the 5star chicken rice place where the chicken didnt rly seem like it was 5star.LOL.i ordered porridge which i regretted deeply. ):
ltr on went to good old pataya for milo dinosaur and banansplit.LOL.mine was semi-treated by MUAJI because i only had $1 left after paying my tithes, dinner and the soul revolution conference fee.haha.
after all that.i went over to zibing/jingan's house to stay.thought i could get some decent rest but.LOL.i was wrong.i was UNEXPECTEDLY woken up by a vicious POKE from ms kuang jingan when i was soundly sleeping on zibing's bed.she asked me to go downstairs so she could so-called hack into my account and chat with my friends.LOL.but it was an "enriching" experience since i was introduced to many new games.namely, ISKETCH! haha.please click here.SO FUN!my current obsession.LOL.
thn we played until quite late and until we were quite bored.thn i went up to sleep at 3am.ZzZzzZz..
the next morning i woke at 11.30am AND MISSED MY KIDS SHOW AT 10.30AM ON CHANNEL 8! *sobs* i also realized that jingan has weird sleeping positions.i shall not go into details.LOL.then we talked for a long long time while i tried to complete chapter one of the book zibing asked me to read, while we were both still slacking on the beds.we finally went down to have our branch after her mum called for the 4th time.LOL.and her mum calls me "xiao-mei-mei" or "ah-girl" or anything else that made me sound small. -.-" well at least she recognizes me as "amy-de-zhi-nui"(amy's niece).LOL.i'm content. =D
and so.after brance we went for more ISKETCH.LOL.until 10 mins before zibing came home, we went up to the beds again.and she showed me her yearbooks.LOL.she looked positively FUNNY all 4 yrs and her msg thing was "STC will always be the ONE."are u laughing yet?how corny can that get? LOL. =D
oh.another thing to laugh about MUAJI would be her inability to pronouce certain english word.LOL.kicking = ticking.HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA.oh wells. =D
thn i went home on 75 and fell aslp in the bus, overshotting by 4 stops.
got home, bathed, and went to play isketch AGAIN.heh.supposde to go to KFC for dinner with my sis but apparantly, she fell aslp.thn at 10+++pm, she woke up and asked me if i wanna go eat KFC.HAHAHAHAHAHA.but we still went anyway.only to realize KFC closses at 10pm.so we settled for BK.and we got dinner for my brother frm LJS.mm.i think i ate quite alot ytd night. =X
i think this entry is rly long. XD
ilovemyJesus!!
mm.i'm quite angry now for 2 reasons.
1.) the washing machine and spoilt and my father was supposed to give my mom money to get it repaird.he promised.but he actually spent the money on gambling! and when my mum ticked him off for that, he blew his top unreasonably at my mum.i mean.HE IS ABSOLUTELY UNREASONABLE.i cant believe him.
2.) i was supposed to meet zhixin and her classmates tdy.they were going cycling at eunos at 9am.and guess what? i awoke at 3.28pm.i know it sounds absurd..but i did.LOL.slept quite late ytd playing isketch.heh.thn i smsed zhixin to ask where they were now.they were at town.and i was lazy to go out of the house now.so.heh.
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on saturday, jingan and shanshan joind us for cell.but it was still pretty quiet with missing people like, amanda [i miss her like nuts!], yifang, sufan, alex and grace.but.it was considerably fun still.we celebrated karyn and rachel's birthday.haha.karyn's a classic.she dressed up so nicely that day for an "unknown" reason [LOL] and even brought a camera.HA!funny.
thn night life's speaker was wanping.mm.i wasnt rly paying attention.was quite distracted.but i took some notes which i'll go through later. (:
thn we had dinner at the 5star chicken rice place where the chicken didnt rly seem like it was 5star.LOL.i ordered porridge which i regretted deeply. ):
ltr on went to good old pataya for milo dinosaur and banansplit.LOL.mine was semi-treated by MUAJI because i only had $1 left after paying my tithes, dinner and the soul revolution conference fee.haha.
after all that.i went over to zibing/jingan's house to stay.thought i could get some decent rest but.LOL.i was wrong.i was UNEXPECTEDLY woken up by a vicious POKE from ms kuang jingan when i was soundly sleeping on zibing's bed.she asked me to go downstairs so she could so-called hack into my account and chat with my friends.LOL.but it was an "enriching" experience since i was introduced to many new games.namely, ISKETCH! haha.please click here.SO FUN!my current obsession.LOL.
thn we played until quite late and until we were quite bored.thn i went up to sleep at 3am.ZzZzzZz..
the next morning i woke at 11.30am AND MISSED MY KIDS SHOW AT 10.30AM ON CHANNEL 8! *sobs* i also realized that jingan has weird sleeping positions.i shall not go into details.LOL.then we talked for a long long time while i tried to complete chapter one of the book zibing asked me to read, while we were both still slacking on the beds.we finally went down to have our branch after her mum called for the 4th time.LOL.and her mum calls me "xiao-mei-mei" or "ah-girl" or anything else that made me sound small. -.-" well at least she recognizes me as "amy-de-zhi-nui"(amy's niece).LOL.i'm content. =D
and so.after brance we went for more ISKETCH.LOL.until 10 mins before zibing came home, we went up to the beds again.and she showed me her yearbooks.LOL.she looked positively FUNNY all 4 yrs and her msg thing was "STC will always be the ONE."are u laughing yet?how corny can that get? LOL. =D
oh.another thing to laugh about MUAJI would be her inability to pronouce certain english word.LOL.kicking = ticking.HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA.oh wells. =D
thn i went home on 75 and fell aslp in the bus, overshotting by 4 stops.
got home, bathed, and went to play isketch AGAIN.heh.supposde to go to KFC for dinner with my sis but apparantly, she fell aslp.thn at 10+++pm, she woke up and asked me if i wanna go eat KFC.HAHAHAHAHAHA.but we still went anyway.only to realize KFC closses at 10pm.so we settled for BK.and we got dinner for my brother frm LJS.mm.i think i ate quite alot ytd night. =X
i think this entry is rly long. XD
Saturday, June 11, 2005
You alone, i'm born to worship
ilovemyJesus!!
despite the very long post i posted a few hours ago, which was yesterday, i shall post another one now.cuz its important.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KARE + RACHEL TEO!
uh.let me tell u sth funny.i sent kare a bday msg and i got this for reply:
wheehee.thx dear nette.a great event in my life.i'm looking forward to my birthday.i was born at 10.47am at mount elizabeth.
(?!) cute karyn.i think she wants me to msg at 10.47am next yr.LOL
and melissa is rly sweet.she sent me an sms t make sure i was ok.and it had a picture of a girl singing with sounds of drums.i love mellimoo!
MOOOO!
ilovemyJesus!!
despite the very long post i posted a few hours ago, which was yesterday, i shall post another one now.cuz its important.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KARE + RACHEL TEO!
uh.let me tell u sth funny.i sent kare a bday msg and i got this for reply:
wheehee.thx dear nette.a great event in my life.i'm looking forward to my birthday.i was born at 10.47am at mount elizabeth.
(?!) cute karyn.i think she wants me to msg at 10.47am next yr.LOL
and melissa is rly sweet.she sent me an sms t make sure i was ok.and it had a picture of a girl singing with sounds of drums.i love mellimoo!
MOOOO!
Friday, June 10, 2005
pour down like rain, come touch me again.Lord let Your presence fall on me
ilovemyJesus!!
i'm a christian who happens to be a student.
not a student who happens to be a christian. =D
mm.and i dun think i am a brainwashed person who just absorbs everything the pastor says and have no mind of my own.and i dun think i'm one who "protects/defends Jesus Christ without logical reasoning".i do knw what i'm believing in, and i do knw its real.i'm not a "fundamentalist" (btw, please get ur defination of "fundamentalist" right) who just accepts everything that is from the mouth of a "holy" person or thing.i do make sure what i'm learning is true.and the reason why i dun doubt it because i alrdy knw my God is real, so i dun have to keep doubting and confirming etc.
i've tasted the goodness of God and i've swallowed it.and in fact, ONCE is enough.i dun have to keep experiencing Him.i live with the God's Word as my greatest authority.
can You see how great God is? read the Bible.and if it isnt enough for you, go to church.it doesnt mean u cnt go to church bcuz ure not a christian.church is for everyone, not just christians.u'll find what you need to know in church.
God is real.miracles after miracles i've witnessed during mission trip.the blind see, lame walk and deaf hear.do you not believe?
and recently, my cellgrp mate's brother was demonised.he was sent to the hospital and the doctors were helpless, even they didnt knw what was wrong.and my friend's parents called the taoist ppl etc etc.and finally my pastor.my pastor and 2 other church leaders went and prayed for a long long time and finally the demon came out.there is a spiritual realm indeed.and it is right HERE.
yes, u may say that demonized people become ok after taoist people come.that is possible, i'm not saying only praying works.satan can work "miracles" too.but those are lies.because satan's aim is to prevent people from coming near God.who cares if they believe in buddhism, taoism or even hinduism? as long as they do not know God, satan is happy.
perhaps u think satanism and christianity are the same.NO.we may seem like the same, but we are diff.we have diff motives.satan is here to steal kill and destroy.he hates God, he hates Christians.but God is not like him.God is here to save.and he doesnt want people to become satanists because he wants to save them.and we do not hate satanists, what we are against is SIN, which satan loves.satan hates us and is against holiness.
Love the sinner but hate the sin.
we are here to save.
God loves us so much.the knowledge of men is FOOLISHNESS to God.i do hope people take a step towards the Father, and stop falling into their own deceit.
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okay.so i woke up rly late tdy.and i missed all the morning lessons.i only went for bio at 1.30pm.ha!ms ng was 'pleasently surprised' that only 4 of us in the class turned up.haha.and we even left early.honestly, i felt bad abt leaving early.i think we rly disappointed her alot.i didnt think it was right.but i had alrdy left the place.sry ms ng.
MELLIMOO GOT PINK BRACES.i'm congratulating her, on her journey twards BIMBOism.now.
trng was alright today.technique trng.love it.i dun see any point paddling like nuts and constanly racing with each other when we dun even get our techniques right.so today was PRODUCTIVE for once. =D and now i knw whr i go wrong.my catch/punch..though it rly lookd right and no one could tell what was wrong, i had actually missed out a step inbtween recovery and catch/punch.uh.why am i typing this here?
anyway.so i'll work on that.and rotation. (:
thanks coach, *smiles.
thn i went home with shoee as usual.and i had t keep telling her to "SHUT UP".LOL.please, though we do look like enemies whenever we talk, we are rly good friends.haha.that's our way of love. (: and she calls me a calorie-magnet. *sulks
oh.i had honeydew sago w pearls tdy again! with shoee.she lent me 40cents.sweet. (:
ok.so i pangsehed many people.1) the canoeists 2) pri sch friends 3) shalom people.the team is staying over at pras's house now.and they're having a party.but i'm giving it a miss.anw, not many people are going la.only 5 ppl staying over.so i guess i may be pretty boring.besides, amanda is out of town.which means she obviously wun be thr.and..yea.and as for my pri sch friends, they're having some gathering at..uh.i forgot whr la.yea.so they're probably still tgt now.and i'm home.bcuz..haha.i didnt knw whr t go so i decided not to go anywhr.and lastly, shalom people went t sentosa tdy and sherie asked me along.mm.but like i said, i was in a dilema.so i'm at home.
haha.came home t find my sis creating a blog.and i sat bside her while she typed her entry.she RECITES everyword she types.HAHA.so cute!
like this:
sis: afhsfhetjeslrherkjsnb (reciting her entry)
me: why are u reading out the words?
sis: its a habit ajhgsdljgtslkjrselrjsfjsldkf
me: huh.but u dun read out when u chat with friends on msn
sis: ahfsljfhslf that's because it doesnt involve one party
me: but u dun recite out what u write when u do compo/write stories/etc
sis: actually, i do.
me: *LAUGHS OUT LOUD*
sis: *looks at her retarded sister and laughs along*
i like this.i like to laugh with my sis.i like feeling as if we're very very close with each other.
today i tried t talk serious with her casually.she said i was dramatic and didnt respond to what i said.i mean, i didnt consider nodding her head as a response.
oh.let me continue with her blog.after she typed a whole 15min worth of words in her entry.she asked me if i wanted t use the com and told me t help her delete her blog. (?!?!?!?!) what can i say? i got a rly weird sister.
alright.the nice neighbour just brought some ginko+barley(or white bean?) soup.just that i nvr liked what she cooked.LOL.but i thank her for the goodwill and i'll eat it eventually.
mummy cooked beehoon.perhaps its because of me.recently i have been a bad bad daughter, complaining that she doesnt sweep the floor, wash clothes (btw, the washing machine is spoilt), cook etc.i think i hurt her alot.i mean, i could have done it.she's just as busy and tired as i am.so i'm touched that she cooked.and i feel guilty.i love my mother alot, just that recently..she's just different.she's becoming a very depressed person.we cannot communicate, and i dunno how to show that i love her.i want t be thr for her, but everytime she tells me sth and i console her, she doesnt listen.to her, i'm not a friend, i'm a daughter.to her, i dun understand.to her, i'm her daughter.i'm her daughter only.
this morning i saw her sitting, one hand hugging her knees and the other supporting her forehead, at the corner.she nvr looked so depressed.wrinkles formed around her draggy eyes and she seemed to have aged alot suddenly.i felt like crying at that sight.what can i do?i want to be a good daughter, and i want to be her friend at the same time.i rly hope she'll not treat me just as a daughter so i can relate with her.
honestly, if what she wants is a daughter frm me, i should be like her friend and provide her with what she wants right? well, be a daughter then.
i see my mum praying everyday.for us, the family.she's given so much for us.i ought to not just love and care for her.i ought to let her know that.i ought to show her.
Daddy, please put a smile on mum's face, as she puts a smile on Yours.Teach me how to honour her, and guide me each day as i see her.let love overcome everything else that displeases me about her.Lord, i pray for strong bonds in this family.may we grow to love each other more and put away our the past, where we all hurt one another.Daddy, dwell among this family and may it be what You want it to be.Lord, speak to all of us.i pray that we can all forgive as You have forgiven and love as You have loved.let our relationship with each other grow deeper as we walk towards You as one.in Jesus' name, i ask and pray, amen.
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i just read one of my teammate's blog to find out that sijing had applied to go to NJC through DSA.mm.good for her.at first i felt kinda..like.jealous?yea, close t that.thn i thought.why should it bother me?i dun wanna go to NJC just because she is going and i'm afraid of losing out.i know what i want.and i dun wanna limit myself to anything. (: her life doesnt affect me.
ilovemyJesus!!
i'm a christian who happens to be a student.
not a student who happens to be a christian. =D
mm.and i dun think i am a brainwashed person who just absorbs everything the pastor says and have no mind of my own.and i dun think i'm one who "protects/defends Jesus Christ without logical reasoning".i do knw what i'm believing in, and i do knw its real.i'm not a "fundamentalist" (btw, please get ur defination of "fundamentalist" right) who just accepts everything that is from the mouth of a "holy" person or thing.i do make sure what i'm learning is true.and the reason why i dun doubt it because i alrdy knw my God is real, so i dun have to keep doubting and confirming etc.
i've tasted the goodness of God and i've swallowed it.and in fact, ONCE is enough.i dun have to keep experiencing Him.i live with the God's Word as my greatest authority.
can You see how great God is? read the Bible.and if it isnt enough for you, go to church.it doesnt mean u cnt go to church bcuz ure not a christian.church is for everyone, not just christians.u'll find what you need to know in church.
God is real.miracles after miracles i've witnessed during mission trip.the blind see, lame walk and deaf hear.do you not believe?
and recently, my cellgrp mate's brother was demonised.he was sent to the hospital and the doctors were helpless, even they didnt knw what was wrong.and my friend's parents called the taoist ppl etc etc.and finally my pastor.my pastor and 2 other church leaders went and prayed for a long long time and finally the demon came out.there is a spiritual realm indeed.and it is right HERE.
yes, u may say that demonized people become ok after taoist people come.that is possible, i'm not saying only praying works.satan can work "miracles" too.but those are lies.because satan's aim is to prevent people from coming near God.who cares if they believe in buddhism, taoism or even hinduism? as long as they do not know God, satan is happy.
perhaps u think satanism and christianity are the same.NO.we may seem like the same, but we are diff.we have diff motives.satan is here to steal kill and destroy.he hates God, he hates Christians.but God is not like him.God is here to save.and he doesnt want people to become satanists because he wants to save them.and we do not hate satanists, what we are against is SIN, which satan loves.satan hates us and is against holiness.
Love the sinner but hate the sin.
we are here to save.
God loves us so much.the knowledge of men is FOOLISHNESS to God.i do hope people take a step towards the Father, and stop falling into their own deceit.
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okay.so i woke up rly late tdy.and i missed all the morning lessons.i only went for bio at 1.30pm.ha!ms ng was 'pleasently surprised' that only 4 of us in the class turned up.haha.and we even left early.honestly, i felt bad abt leaving early.i think we rly disappointed her alot.i didnt think it was right.but i had alrdy left the place.sry ms ng.
MELLIMOO GOT PINK BRACES.i'm congratulating her, on her journey twards BIMBOism.now.
trng was alright today.technique trng.love it.i dun see any point paddling like nuts and constanly racing with each other when we dun even get our techniques right.so today was PRODUCTIVE for once. =D and now i knw whr i go wrong.my catch/punch..though it rly lookd right and no one could tell what was wrong, i had actually missed out a step inbtween recovery and catch/punch.uh.why am i typing this here?
anyway.so i'll work on that.and rotation. (:
thanks coach, *smiles.
thn i went home with shoee as usual.and i had t keep telling her to "SHUT UP".LOL.please, though we do look like enemies whenever we talk, we are rly good friends.haha.that's our way of love. (: and she calls me a calorie-magnet. *sulks
oh.i had honeydew sago w pearls tdy again! with shoee.she lent me 40cents.sweet. (:
ok.so i pangsehed many people.1) the canoeists 2) pri sch friends 3) shalom people.the team is staying over at pras's house now.and they're having a party.but i'm giving it a miss.anw, not many people are going la.only 5 ppl staying over.so i guess i may be pretty boring.besides, amanda is out of town.which means she obviously wun be thr.and..yea.and as for my pri sch friends, they're having some gathering at..uh.i forgot whr la.yea.so they're probably still tgt now.and i'm home.bcuz..haha.i didnt knw whr t go so i decided not to go anywhr.and lastly, shalom people went t sentosa tdy and sherie asked me along.mm.but like i said, i was in a dilema.so i'm at home.
haha.came home t find my sis creating a blog.and i sat bside her while she typed her entry.she RECITES everyword she types.HAHA.so cute!
like this:
sis: afhsfhetjeslrherkjsnb (reciting her entry)
me: why are u reading out the words?
sis: its a habit ajhgsdljgtslkjrselrjsfjsldkf
me: huh.but u dun read out when u chat with friends on msn
sis: ahfsljfhslf that's because it doesnt involve one party
me: but u dun recite out what u write when u do compo/write stories/etc
sis: actually, i do.
me: *LAUGHS OUT LOUD*
sis: *looks at her retarded sister and laughs along*
i like this.i like to laugh with my sis.i like feeling as if we're very very close with each other.
today i tried t talk serious with her casually.she said i was dramatic and didnt respond to what i said.i mean, i didnt consider nodding her head as a response.
oh.let me continue with her blog.after she typed a whole 15min worth of words in her entry.she asked me if i wanted t use the com and told me t help her delete her blog. (?!?!?!?!) what can i say? i got a rly weird sister.
alright.the nice neighbour just brought some ginko+barley(or white bean?) soup.just that i nvr liked what she cooked.LOL.but i thank her for the goodwill and i'll eat it eventually.
mummy cooked beehoon.perhaps its because of me.recently i have been a bad bad daughter, complaining that she doesnt sweep the floor, wash clothes (btw, the washing machine is spoilt), cook etc.i think i hurt her alot.i mean, i could have done it.she's just as busy and tired as i am.so i'm touched that she cooked.and i feel guilty.i love my mother alot, just that recently..she's just different.she's becoming a very depressed person.we cannot communicate, and i dunno how to show that i love her.i want t be thr for her, but everytime she tells me sth and i console her, she doesnt listen.to her, i'm not a friend, i'm a daughter.to her, i dun understand.to her, i'm her daughter.i'm her daughter only.
this morning i saw her sitting, one hand hugging her knees and the other supporting her forehead, at the corner.she nvr looked so depressed.wrinkles formed around her draggy eyes and she seemed to have aged alot suddenly.i felt like crying at that sight.what can i do?i want to be a good daughter, and i want to be her friend at the same time.i rly hope she'll not treat me just as a daughter so i can relate with her.
honestly, if what she wants is a daughter frm me, i should be like her friend and provide her with what she wants right? well, be a daughter then.
i see my mum praying everyday.for us, the family.she's given so much for us.i ought to not just love and care for her.i ought to let her know that.i ought to show her.
Daddy, please put a smile on mum's face, as she puts a smile on Yours.Teach me how to honour her, and guide me each day as i see her.let love overcome everything else that displeases me about her.Lord, i pray for strong bonds in this family.may we grow to love each other more and put away our the past, where we all hurt one another.Daddy, dwell among this family and may it be what You want it to be.Lord, speak to all of us.i pray that we can all forgive as You have forgiven and love as You have loved.let our relationship with each other grow deeper as we walk towards You as one.in Jesus' name, i ask and pray, amen.
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i just read one of my teammate's blog to find out that sijing had applied to go to NJC through DSA.mm.good for her.at first i felt kinda..like.jealous?yea, close t that.thn i thought.why should it bother me?i dun wanna go to NJC just because she is going and i'm afraid of losing out.i know what i want.and i dun wanna limit myself to anything. (: her life doesnt affect me.
Thursday, June 09, 2005
this is specially for the person who saved me from battling the evils of the enemy, MR SPYWARE.after 3 nights of fighting and lack of sleep (look at the worm-like things forming under my eyes please)..I AM VIRUS-FREE!
i shall make this big and bold since i always bully MUAJI.LOL.
THANK YOU MUAJI! =D
and now, i dun feel guilty for bullying her.we're quits.
therefore..i shall start bullying her again. (:
i shall make this big and bold since i always bully MUAJI.LOL.
THANK YOU MUAJI! =D
and now, i dun feel guilty for bullying her.we're quits.
therefore..i shall start bullying her again. (:
i will praise Your name, praise You all day long
ilovemyJesus!!
AIYOH!
my house nearly burnt down just now.strangely, the washing machine had overworked or sth and thr was a fire apparantly.and my dad was sleeping in the living room, my mum in the bed room.i was using the com and my sis was watching TV.thank goodness my house is small, that's why my sis smelt the burnt smell and could stop the fire in time.all i know was i was fighting Mr Spyware (virus LAH) and suddenly my sis went nuts, making funny noises and stomping loudly and quickly ard.
the rest were all OBLIVIOUS.ahaha.i like the word.makes me sound smart. =D
anw, so my sis killed the fire and woke my mum..who woke up whining depressingly (e.g: aiyooh,ahhh,tsk*,aiyoh eh, aiyoh).yea.the long series of whines was due t the fact that we HAD TO get a new washing machine.and that does not come free.sigh. :(
everything is WRONG! the house nearly burnt down, thr's a virus in the NEW laptop (which gets worse each day), and WORSE STILL.i cut my hair today.as you all know, me cutting my hair is never a good thing.i told the auntie to CUT IT SHORTER.but she didnt.i said LAYER.but its straight.but well.i still go thr despite all the bad experiences bcuz 1) it is cheap and 2) they give u free drinks and occasionally, cheesecake or sth.*smiles
but still.sigh.now my hair is long when i intended t keep it short. ): i'll wait anthr 3 months and i shall give it a decisive CHOP. =D for now, i shall just visualise. ):
GGRRRR! now i'm mad.spyware/elitebar/etc etc VIRUS is getting worse everysince i installed search&destroy.IRONIC but true.please ask jingan t testify bcuz hers got worse too.HRMPH!my poor poor laptop, barely 2wks (?) old.*cries*
and even though its near the end of the week, i find myself busier and busier each day.sigh.talk about holidays..SIGH.liars.
ilovemyJesus!!
AIYOH!
my house nearly burnt down just now.strangely, the washing machine had overworked or sth and thr was a fire apparantly.and my dad was sleeping in the living room, my mum in the bed room.i was using the com and my sis was watching TV.thank goodness my house is small, that's why my sis smelt the burnt smell and could stop the fire in time.all i know was i was fighting Mr Spyware (virus LAH) and suddenly my sis went nuts, making funny noises and stomping loudly and quickly ard.
the rest were all OBLIVIOUS.ahaha.i like the word.makes me sound smart. =D
anw, so my sis killed the fire and woke my mum..who woke up whining depressingly (e.g: aiyooh,ahhh,tsk*,aiyoh eh, aiyoh).yea.the long series of whines was due t the fact that we HAD TO get a new washing machine.and that does not come free.sigh. :(
everything is WRONG! the house nearly burnt down, thr's a virus in the NEW laptop (which gets worse each day), and WORSE STILL.i cut my hair today.as you all know, me cutting my hair is never a good thing.i told the auntie to CUT IT SHORTER.but she didnt.i said LAYER.but its straight.but well.i still go thr despite all the bad experiences bcuz 1) it is cheap and 2) they give u free drinks and occasionally, cheesecake or sth.*smiles
but still.sigh.now my hair is long when i intended t keep it short. ): i'll wait anthr 3 months and i shall give it a decisive CHOP. =D for now, i shall just visualise. ):
GGRRRR! now i'm mad.spyware/elitebar/etc etc VIRUS is getting worse everysince i installed search&destroy.IRONIC but true.please ask jingan t testify bcuz hers got worse too.HRMPH!my poor poor laptop, barely 2wks (?) old.*cries*
and even though its near the end of the week, i find myself busier and busier each day.sigh.talk about holidays..SIGH.liars.
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
into marvellous light i'm running, out of darkness out of shame
ilovemyJesus!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! i'm laughing.and so is my sis.
my sis's friend,also my new friend, eileen, is so funny LAH!
i 'lamed' with her and she 'lamed' back.
and we were talking about playing soccer tmr:
me: i can be the ball!
she: haha
me: ok.let's go play soccer tmr! =D
me: i be the ball, you be the goal post
me: belle[my sister] can be the CHEERLEADER!
me: and lisi[another of my sis + my friend] can be...mm.THE GRASS!
she: haha.no la.grass too cruel.
she: she be the flag at the corner la.LOL
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAAHAHHA.and alot of other stuff.i got a sugar rush.bcus i had van houten chocolates for dinner.i swang arnd on the fan just now. =D
tdy's trng was..hmm.i still need t buck up abit more.i am so rusty. *screeching sounds*
and ytd was rly accomplishing.i packed my table.*bleams*its quite neat now, though thr are still many things lying around and it looks kinda overcrowded.but heck.
and thn i went t meet MUAJI.we ate a tub of wall's ice-cream each.u knw..the nice nice one.they were selling it a tiong bahru for just $3 a tub.2 for $4, so we got 2 tubs.actually i was anti-buying, but she was pre-buying.and she went like, "challenge me."so..LOL.mine was strawberry and hers was choc.and we set off for great world.half way thr, she got sck of her ice-cream.i finished 3/4 at tht time and she finished 1/4.thn we exchanged which is very unfair.so obviously i couldnt finish.we both threw the left overs away before we died of over-consumption.and MUAJI insists that she is the champion.sigh..immaturity is still getting the better of her.oh wells.if she insists..but as we all, the matured people, know..i'm THE UNDENIABLE WINNER.MUAHAHAHAHAHHA.muaji ought t be thrown into the reservior.
and the lit seminar tdy.SIGH.i gained NOTHING.excpt for alot of entertainment frm stupid questions posted by this guy who wanted t flaunt his inexistent intelligence.SIGH.and he thought he was cool, asking us if we wanted his msn.HMMMM.strange people of the nation.
ok.so thr's not lit tmr cuz AUNTIE AZLIN is sick.but i'll still be going t sch for bio up till 3pm.thn i'll meet my sis t go t the sports warehouse tgt t get some anti-porn shorts.anti-porn bcause i realized my FBTs are transparent.hmmm.thn we'll go watch eileen's match.but maybe i wun go.for fear of being shot since i dun have a certificate for being lame.HMMM.and maybe we'll plau soccer. =D
ONE PROBLEM: we dun have a player yet.any takers? LOL.
alright.goodnight, world.
ilovemyJesus!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! i'm laughing.and so is my sis.
my sis's friend,also my new friend, eileen, is so funny LAH!
i 'lamed' with her and she 'lamed' back.
and we were talking about playing soccer tmr:
me: i can be the ball!
she: haha
me: ok.let's go play soccer tmr! =D
me: i be the ball, you be the goal post
me: belle[my sister] can be the CHEERLEADER!
me: and lisi[another of my sis + my friend] can be...mm.THE GRASS!
she: haha.no la.grass too cruel.
she: she be the flag at the corner la.LOL
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAAHAHHA.and alot of other stuff.i got a sugar rush.bcus i had van houten chocolates for dinner.i swang arnd on the fan just now. =D
tdy's trng was..hmm.i still need t buck up abit more.i am so rusty. *screeching sounds*
and ytd was rly accomplishing.i packed my table.*bleams*its quite neat now, though thr are still many things lying around and it looks kinda overcrowded.but heck.
and thn i went t meet MUAJI.we ate a tub of wall's ice-cream each.u knw..the nice nice one.they were selling it a tiong bahru for just $3 a tub.2 for $4, so we got 2 tubs.actually i was anti-buying, but she was pre-buying.and she went like, "challenge me."so..LOL.mine was strawberry and hers was choc.and we set off for great world.half way thr, she got sck of her ice-cream.i finished 3/4 at tht time and she finished 1/4.thn we exchanged which is very unfair.so obviously i couldnt finish.we both threw the left overs away before we died of over-consumption.and MUAJI insists that she is the champion.sigh..immaturity is still getting the better of her.oh wells.if she insists..but as we all, the matured people, know..i'm THE UNDENIABLE WINNER.MUAHAHAHAHAHHA.muaji ought t be thrown into the reservior.
and the lit seminar tdy.SIGH.i gained NOTHING.excpt for alot of entertainment frm stupid questions posted by this guy who wanted t flaunt his inexistent intelligence.SIGH.and he thought he was cool, asking us if we wanted his msn.HMMMM.strange people of the nation.
ok.so thr's not lit tmr cuz AUNTIE AZLIN is sick.but i'll still be going t sch for bio up till 3pm.thn i'll meet my sis t go t the sports warehouse tgt t get some anti-porn shorts.anti-porn bcause i realized my FBTs are transparent.hmmm.thn we'll go watch eileen's match.but maybe i wun go.for fear of being shot since i dun have a certificate for being lame.HMMM.and maybe we'll plau soccer. =D
ONE PROBLEM: we dun have a player yet.any takers? LOL.
alright.goodnight, world.
Monday, June 06, 2005
pushing every hindrance aside, out of my way, cuz i want to know You more
ilovemyJesus!!
as DAPAO sits here in front of the laptop screen, with fingers moving as quick as mice, waiting for MUAJI's sms which she will react to be switching off the com and running t tiong bahru plaza..DAPAO has something to say...
I HATH MADETH UP MY MIND.
DAPAO has decided not to apply to go to NJC through DSA even though all doors are opened and all DAPAO need to do is to step.uh.no.correction: bounce.inside.but DAPAO does not do so.
DAPAO decides to go the traditional way.
thanks to njc canoeing team anyway for the opportunity to train with you.special thx to mindy, shi'en, chiteng and the one who did physica trng with me though i forgot ur name! a thousand apologies.
DAPAO has learnt that nothing comes easy and with each decision made, thr's always something to lose.if so, are we to live in regret? NOOOoooO.DAPAO understands this fact alrdy and is at peace with herself.no regrets, no regrets.DAPAO smiles.
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BY THE WAY
amazing race was GREAT! ahahaha.kept me smiling and laughing and high for almost one day.thx to team 25 aka BIMBO 25! *smiles* we were the best girls team [since there was ONLY ONE girls team] HA! and we came in 9/31.mummum.
at the end of the day, LYNETTE learns tolerance, teamwork and patience.LYNETTE also realizes that being too ambitious is not very good.LYNETTE thought amazing race was a grt experience.
AND YESTERDAY AFTER BIBLE STUDY
i was at first drowned in sorrow.
but mel put a smile on my face for the rest of the day.
spent the whole time laughing and laughing at our past experiences esp in pri sch days! how immature we were..LOL.
THANKS MELLIMOO!
despite gg of the msia the next day, she took time t make me happy..after one sad long week.and now i feel lighter! um.i mean,not literally.in fact, in literal sense, i'm HEAVIER! oh well.
LYNETTE should exercise.about time!
and LYNETTE hereby thank her SAVIOUR who is sitting up there in heaven now for being wit LYNETTE the whole time when she felt that no one else was available for her.yup!
THANK YOU JESUS!
alrights.MUAJI has smsed.DAPAO shalt be goneth. (:
ilovemyJesus!!
as DAPAO sits here in front of the laptop screen, with fingers moving as quick as mice, waiting for MUAJI's sms which she will react to be switching off the com and running t tiong bahru plaza..DAPAO has something to say...
I HATH MADETH UP MY MIND.
DAPAO has decided not to apply to go to NJC through DSA even though all doors are opened and all DAPAO need to do is to step.uh.no.correction: bounce.inside.but DAPAO does not do so.
DAPAO decides to go the traditional way.
thanks to njc canoeing team anyway for the opportunity to train with you.special thx to mindy, shi'en, chiteng and the one who did physica trng with me though i forgot ur name! a thousand apologies.
DAPAO has learnt that nothing comes easy and with each decision made, thr's always something to lose.if so, are we to live in regret? NOOOoooO.DAPAO understands this fact alrdy and is at peace with herself.no regrets, no regrets.DAPAO smiles.
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BY THE WAY
amazing race was GREAT! ahahaha.kept me smiling and laughing and high for almost one day.thx to team 25 aka BIMBO 25! *smiles* we were the best girls team [since there was ONLY ONE girls team] HA! and we came in 9/31.mummum.
at the end of the day, LYNETTE learns tolerance, teamwork and patience.LYNETTE also realizes that being too ambitious is not very good.LYNETTE thought amazing race was a grt experience.
AND YESTERDAY AFTER BIBLE STUDY
i was at first drowned in sorrow.
but mel put a smile on my face for the rest of the day.
spent the whole time laughing and laughing at our past experiences esp in pri sch days! how immature we were..LOL.
THANKS MELLIMOO!
despite gg of the msia the next day, she took time t make me happy..after one sad long week.and now i feel lighter! um.i mean,not literally.in fact, in literal sense, i'm HEAVIER! oh well.
LYNETTE should exercise.about time!
and LYNETTE hereby thank her SAVIOUR who is sitting up there in heaven now for being wit LYNETTE the whole time when she felt that no one else was available for her.yup!
THANK YOU JESUS!
alrights.MUAJI has smsed.DAPAO shalt be goneth. (:
Friday, June 03, 2005
all day all night, i press on toward the goal.You are my King, and that is why i sing.all because Christ Rules EVERYTHING About Me
ilovemyJesus!!
i do love Jesus.even in times like this, when i feel so down and cant keep smiling for more than 10 secs for almost one week, i have learnt t keep a spirit of praise with me.i dun wanna base my relationship on feelings anymore.i know God is real.i dun have to FEEL Him all the time.remember TEABAG? yes, times like this are my hot-water tests.and i praise God for it, not hypocritically.
people around me.i'm sorry havent been able t act/speak/etc normally recently.many things are happening around me and i cnt take my life so lightly and happily like i had been doing.i'm a grown girl, i must learn to think and act maturely.i'm still trying to adapt to a more serious surrounding, give me time and i'll learn t balance my life properly.we'll still have fun in the future. (:
i feel awfully horrid! i'm lagging behind in trng, far far behind.i'm under-performing even though i seem to have given my best.and i rly doubt my abilities of going to njc.i dun wanna t become a lie to them.i can secure a place RIGHT NOW, but nothing comes easy.i'll have t train hard, and study hard.i'm going t need t put in alot of time and energy so that i can become worthy of the DSA programme.i dun want t be taking advantage of the system.i want t go there with true abilities.
i feel awfully horrid a second time! whatever it is, there's something bothering me.i cant sleep at night and when i do, not more than 15mins.and i wake very early.as tired as i feel, i just cant get t slp, causing the sluggishness in me for the rest of the day.
i feel awfully horrid the third time! people around me just cant get serious about things, and disciplined about what they want to do.i dun see the reason of going t a place t do sth but not doing it in the end.we'll just be losers going thr for the sake of going, and wasting our precious time which could have been used t do something more productive.and if u wanna do something, why dun u give it ur best shot? aim for the best, not just above average.i'm rly disturbed by slackers who slack just because they are more skillful and are better in the field, so wasting EVERYONE's time.
i feel awfully horrid the forth time! after a long, tiring and depressing day, i return t a house where i find no true comfort.perhaps because i've nvr rly opened myself and stated what i want."knock and the door shall be open".i guess i nvr rly knocked on the door bfore.but i find it hard t talk t my family.my dad's totally oblivious t everything that happens in the family.my mum..sigh.she nvr understands what ure trying t say bcuz she is quite dumb.i dun mean t use the word..but she is.i cant find another word t replace 'dumb'.for now, let it stay.i dun mean it in a negative sense.my mum's sweet, she prays for me everyday.and she asks me what's wrong whn something happens.but when u try t tell her ur problem..she drifts away and its just IMPOSSIBLE t talk t her.but her good intentions i'm aware of and appreciate much.i love my mum.and for my sis, who often tells me she loves me and shows it through buying stuff for me and fufiling my material needs, doesnt rly care abt my emotions.perhaps she does, but she says nothing more than an "oh." when u tell her what ure going through.even if that's what she means by caring, or that's just how she expresses it, i'm not satisfied.i dun feel comforted.i need help, not just knowledge of how much everyone cares or loves me.and as for my brother.i dun want t seek anything from him.i dun hate him.he is my brother in Christ and physically.i do not rake up the past and hate him for that.i've moved on.but i just dun want t tell him anything.i shall address that when i knw why.
call upon the name of the Lord and be saved
i have other rantings.but this phrase just stoke me.i feel much better.alright.i'll rant it to my God. (:
ilovemyJesus!!
i do love Jesus.even in times like this, when i feel so down and cant keep smiling for more than 10 secs for almost one week, i have learnt t keep a spirit of praise with me.i dun wanna base my relationship on feelings anymore.i know God is real.i dun have to FEEL Him all the time.remember TEABAG? yes, times like this are my hot-water tests.and i praise God for it, not hypocritically.
people around me.i'm sorry havent been able t act/speak/etc normally recently.many things are happening around me and i cnt take my life so lightly and happily like i had been doing.i'm a grown girl, i must learn to think and act maturely.i'm still trying to adapt to a more serious surrounding, give me time and i'll learn t balance my life properly.we'll still have fun in the future. (:
i feel awfully horrid! i'm lagging behind in trng, far far behind.i'm under-performing even though i seem to have given my best.and i rly doubt my abilities of going to njc.i dun wanna t become a lie to them.i can secure a place RIGHT NOW, but nothing comes easy.i'll have t train hard, and study hard.i'm going t need t put in alot of time and energy so that i can become worthy of the DSA programme.i dun want t be taking advantage of the system.i want t go there with true abilities.
i feel awfully horrid a second time! whatever it is, there's something bothering me.i cant sleep at night and when i do, not more than 15mins.and i wake very early.as tired as i feel, i just cant get t slp, causing the sluggishness in me for the rest of the day.
i feel awfully horrid the third time! people around me just cant get serious about things, and disciplined about what they want to do.i dun see the reason of going t a place t do sth but not doing it in the end.we'll just be losers going thr for the sake of going, and wasting our precious time which could have been used t do something more productive.and if u wanna do something, why dun u give it ur best shot? aim for the best, not just above average.i'm rly disturbed by slackers who slack just because they are more skillful and are better in the field, so wasting EVERYONE's time.
i feel awfully horrid the forth time! after a long, tiring and depressing day, i return t a house where i find no true comfort.perhaps because i've nvr rly opened myself and stated what i want."knock and the door shall be open".i guess i nvr rly knocked on the door bfore.but i find it hard t talk t my family.my dad's totally oblivious t everything that happens in the family.my mum..sigh.she nvr understands what ure trying t say bcuz she is quite dumb.i dun mean t use the word..but she is.i cant find another word t replace 'dumb'.for now, let it stay.i dun mean it in a negative sense.my mum's sweet, she prays for me everyday.and she asks me what's wrong whn something happens.but when u try t tell her ur problem..she drifts away and its just IMPOSSIBLE t talk t her.but her good intentions i'm aware of and appreciate much.i love my mum.and for my sis, who often tells me she loves me and shows it through buying stuff for me and fufiling my material needs, doesnt rly care abt my emotions.perhaps she does, but she says nothing more than an "oh." when u tell her what ure going through.even if that's what she means by caring, or that's just how she expresses it, i'm not satisfied.i dun feel comforted.i need help, not just knowledge of how much everyone cares or loves me.and as for my brother.i dun want t seek anything from him.i dun hate him.he is my brother in Christ and physically.i do not rake up the past and hate him for that.i've moved on.but i just dun want t tell him anything.i shall address that when i knw why.
call upon the name of the Lord and be saved
i have other rantings.but this phrase just stoke me.i feel much better.alright.i'll rant it to my God. (:
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
we bring sacrifice of PRAISE into the house of the Lord
ilovemyJesus!!
still.
passion does not equate feelings
you can have passion for something you dont feel.
in our christian walk, what do you seek for?
encounters with God? feelings?
"i cannot feel God, i dont think He is real"
"but i never encountered Him before, how can i have faith?"
"i cannot see/hear/feel/smell(?!) Him.."
sounds familiar?
LIES.
knowing God's word is far more important than encountering Him.our christian walk is NOT sustain by experiences and feelings.yes, these are part of our relationship with God.but what are we truly seeking from Him? its His Word we are to seek, not some holy holy mighty mighty *BOOM* touch at the alter that will make u fly a thousand yards.that's not the main point, dear.
our job is just to read His word, obey and have faith in Him.ultimately, our aim is NOT to experience Him, but to KNOW Him.
i do pray that you'll seek not encounters but His will.i do pray that that you'll understand that you can have passion for God even when you claim you never felt/experienced Him before.i do pray that God adds unto you knowledge that you may understand how your life should be.i do pray that things are not routined.i do pray that you not only know but apply.i do pray that you head the right direction in seeking God.i do pray that you will still be coming to church and doing your quiet time even when you think nothing happens.i do pray that you understand the spiritual realm better.i do pray that christianity is not JUST "christianity" to you.
and i do pray that you rly want to know God that's why you go to church and stuff.and not because you go to church and stuff that's why you tell people you want to draw closer to the Father.
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icesktg was pretty fun tdy.just that i felt rly rly tired and looked rly rly moody.and some funny stuff happened btwn kare and i.we held hands while sktg and this guy came out of no whr all of a sudden.i nearly fell and was pushing some part of kare's body for support for abt 10secs.i'm not supposed t go into details lah.hahaha.but i found it rly funny.laughed till i couldnt stand properly.and she was embarrased..sry kare.and thx for rendering assistance. =D
ah.i'm out.for the week plus nxt week.and most probably the following one too.since the canoe team is gg t go icesktg agn.
well.we'll witness how the Father works again. *smiles
ilovemyJesus!!
still.
passion does not equate feelings
you can have passion for something you dont feel.
in our christian walk, what do you seek for?
encounters with God? feelings?
"i cannot feel God, i dont think He is real"
"but i never encountered Him before, how can i have faith?"
"i cannot see/hear/feel/smell(?!) Him.."
sounds familiar?
LIES.
knowing God's word is far more important than encountering Him.our christian walk is NOT sustain by experiences and feelings.yes, these are part of our relationship with God.but what are we truly seeking from Him? its His Word we are to seek, not some holy holy mighty mighty *BOOM* touch at the alter that will make u fly a thousand yards.that's not the main point, dear.
our job is just to read His word, obey and have faith in Him.ultimately, our aim is NOT to experience Him, but to KNOW Him.
i do pray that you'll seek not encounters but His will.i do pray that that you'll understand that you can have passion for God even when you claim you never felt/experienced Him before.i do pray that God adds unto you knowledge that you may understand how your life should be.i do pray that things are not routined.i do pray that you not only know but apply.i do pray that you head the right direction in seeking God.i do pray that you will still be coming to church and doing your quiet time even when you think nothing happens.i do pray that you understand the spiritual realm better.i do pray that christianity is not JUST "christianity" to you.
and i do pray that you rly want to know God that's why you go to church and stuff.and not because you go to church and stuff that's why you tell people you want to draw closer to the Father.
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icesktg was pretty fun tdy.just that i felt rly rly tired and looked rly rly moody.and some funny stuff happened btwn kare and i.we held hands while sktg and this guy came out of no whr all of a sudden.i nearly fell and was pushing some part of kare's body for support for abt 10secs.i'm not supposed t go into details lah.hahaha.but i found it rly funny.laughed till i couldnt stand properly.and she was embarrased..sry kare.and thx for rendering assistance. =D
ah.i'm out.for the week plus nxt week.and most probably the following one too.since the canoe team is gg t go icesktg agn.
well.we'll witness how the Father works again. *smiles
Your mighty hand, makes the whole world tremble.Your loving hand, comforts one forever.
ilovemyJesus!!
ytd we had prayer meeting in church.
and i went thr in my semi-pyjama cuz i woke up at 1:20pm when i needed t leave at 1:30pm.
AHAHAHA.
a crumpled BIGWALK tee and oversized orange ripcurl board shorts.
and sneakers.
total mismatch.
ahahaha.
anw.we prayed for alot of things.
people, good weather, safety etc etc.
continue praying, fellow prayer warriors!
=D
AMAZING RACE YOUTH IMPACT VERSION
4JUNE, SATURDAY, 9AM AT CHURCH OF SPORE BKT TMH [NEAR BEAUTY WORLD].FREE REGISTRATION AND PRIZES UP TO $1000.FOR FURTHER ENQUIRIES, uh.tag on my board?
hehe.and if u dun knw how t go.FRET NOT.LYNETTE will personally take u thr. =D
and i stayed over at mellimoo's house after prayer meeting ytd.
OH!the makan heaven western food stall auntie is so cute! she made trumpet noises (with a grand ending), trying t imitate my talking.she said i spoke fast and sounded like a trumpet.SHE'S SO CUTE! (: and mellimoo and i had icecream after that.yums. *smack lips* thn we went over t her house and ate maggie mee at 11pm.hehe.*rubs tummy* oh.EDWIN IS SO CUTE! he burped and vomitted on his shirt and stood thr looking innocent and helpless.HAHAHA.so cute!
and this is a song mel and i wrote(partly inspired by rixiang's sermon about being a world-class worldchanger):
i want to be a worldchanger
i want to fix my eyes on eternity
know what You have in store for me
looking forward, i put my trust in You
cause i know You're true
i want to put others before me
not conform to the world's mentality
i am different, Holy Spirit's living in me
and i wanna live for You
(chorus)
i live to worship You
i live to praise Your name
i want to change my world for You
all glory goes to You
-end-
ilovemyJesus!!
ytd we had prayer meeting in church.
and i went thr in my semi-pyjama cuz i woke up at 1:20pm when i needed t leave at 1:30pm.
AHAHAHA.
a crumpled BIGWALK tee and oversized orange ripcurl board shorts.
and sneakers.
total mismatch.
ahahaha.
anw.we prayed for alot of things.
people, good weather, safety etc etc.
continue praying, fellow prayer warriors!
=D
AMAZING RACE YOUTH IMPACT VERSION
4JUNE, SATURDAY, 9AM AT CHURCH OF SPORE BKT TMH [NEAR BEAUTY WORLD].FREE REGISTRATION AND PRIZES UP TO $1000.FOR FURTHER ENQUIRIES, uh.tag on my board?
hehe.and if u dun knw how t go.FRET NOT.LYNETTE will personally take u thr. =D
and i stayed over at mellimoo's house after prayer meeting ytd.
OH!the makan heaven western food stall auntie is so cute! she made trumpet noises (with a grand ending), trying t imitate my talking.she said i spoke fast and sounded like a trumpet.SHE'S SO CUTE! (: and mellimoo and i had icecream after that.yums. *smack lips* thn we went over t her house and ate maggie mee at 11pm.hehe.*rubs tummy* oh.EDWIN IS SO CUTE! he burped and vomitted on his shirt and stood thr looking innocent and helpless.HAHAHA.so cute!
and this is a song mel and i wrote(partly inspired by rixiang's sermon about being a world-class worldchanger):
i want to be a worldchanger
i want to fix my eyes on eternity
know what You have in store for me
looking forward, i put my trust in You
cause i know You're true
i want to put others before me
not conform to the world's mentality
i am different, Holy Spirit's living in me
and i wanna live for You
(chorus)
i live to worship You
i live to praise Your name
i want to change my world for You
all glory goes to You
-end-