brought me to my knees, when God ran
ilovemyJesus!!

PRAISE YOU IN THE SANCTUARY, PRAISE YOU EVERYWHERE WE GO
YOUR WORKS SHALL PRAISE YOU, YOUR SAINTS SHALL BLESS YOU
indeed,we should always have a spirit of praise.firstly,it shows that we have faith in the God that we rely on,thus,we're able to stay joyful and in the spirit of praise all day.secondly,doesnt the things around u make u wanna praise God when u realised that they are ALL from God? especially food! haha.who doesnt like to eat?that's why we say grace!haha!

but ultimately,even if God doesnt do anything for you now,you should still thank Him.because His death on the cross alone is alrdy more than enough.He used His life to redeem you when He didnt have to.life had been hopeless,but not anymore!:D:D

imagine a plain cup of water.(for chemists,u might wanna imagine DEIONISED water,haha!)
will you drink it? yes right?
but if i were to pour 2 spoons of birdshit into the cup and stir it.
would you still want it? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.right?
now,what if i add in more (DEIONISED) water,would u drink it?
please dont say yes unless ure an irrational person.according to economics(haha,putting into practise what i learn),human are generally rational.but anw,i digress.

my point is,we're like the cup of water,meant to be pure.but sin entered our lives,represented by the birdshit.think about it,have you not lied bfore?if you say no,thn u just lied.everyone has sinned (according to the bible romans 3:23,"for all has sinned and fallen short of the glory of God.") and if u think harder,did anyone TEACH us how to sin?were u taught how to lie before ur first lie as a toddler?were u taught to be selfish whn u were a baby and refused to let people snatch ur toys?nope!we were not taught,its in out nature.and dont argue with me because u know its true.haha!and back to my point,no matter how much we try to redeem ourselves,its useless.just like no matter how much plain water i add to the birdshit-filled water later on,you still wont drink it.so life is hopeless, isnt it?

NOOOOOOOO!because hope is in CHRIST who died for us.Jesus Christis actually God,who came down to earth as a man to die for our sins,His blood,like soaps that seperates dirt from us,seperates us from sin.so when God looks at us,the birdshit-filled cup,He doesnt see the birdshit anymore.we're covered with Jesus' blood and our sins dont count against us anymore,as long as we repent,not out of fear of punishment,but out of fear of breaking God's heart because we love and are grateful to Him.if ure confused at this point of time,pls dont be.just remember this 5 things:
1.I WAS SEPERATED FROM GOD BY SIN
2.I CANNOT REDEEM MYSELF
3.ONLY JESUS CHRIST CAN REDEEM ME BECAUSE HE IS GOD
4.I MUST REPENT AND RECEIVE JESUS CHRIST
5.I HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD AFTER I RECEIVE CHRIST TO BE MY LORD AND SAVIOUR

:D

and on a lighter note,some interesting stuff:
sad enough,even SINGTEL people distort my name D;


a man,duh! (okay,its amanda) :DDDD

THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN _____ CHANGES HIS MSN FONT COLOR :D
ENJOY!

Coconut Lime. ﺕ [huh?] - There's no God like Jehovah says:
Shit color here
LYNETTE;servanthood says:
SHIT?!
Coconut Lime. ﺕ [huh?] - There's no God like Jehovah says:
looks browny
LYNETTE;servanthood says:
I DIDNT KNOW UR SHIT WAS GREEN
Coconut Lime. ﺕ [huh?] - There's no God like Jehovah says:
greenie brown
LYNETTE;servanthood says:
HMM...
Coconut Lime. ﺕ [huh?] - There's no God like Jehovah says:
nono
Coconut Lime. ﺕ [huh?] - There's no God like Jehovah says:
i mean looks lik
Coconut Lime. ﺕ [huh?] - There's no God like Jehovah says:
but its not green
Coconut Lime. ﺕ [huh?] - There's no God like Jehovah says:
my shit is brown
Coconut Lime. ﺕ [huh?] - There's no God like Jehovah says:
but..
LYNETTE;servanthood says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
LYNETTE;servanthood says:
U KNOW HOW FUNNY THAT SOUNDS?
Coconut Lime. ﺕ [huh?] - There's no God like Jehovah says:
i shall spare you the details

live to see Your kingdom come
ilovemyJesus!!

sorry,you might have to scroll right!!
(or click on anywhr in the video excpt the play button to view the original size)



10 random observations:
1.zhixin is the (lousy) cameraWOman
2.grace(my partner) is wearing a maroon SA tshirt (yes,she's a SAINT la)
3.i'm wearing a yellow AC (!!!) shirt!
4.lydia is wearing a white cjc shirt
5.cherlynn is not wearing a macdonalds shirt,its her band shirt
6.the "cjc team" kept picking shuttlecocks.u know what tht means la.. HEEEE!
7.i'm wearing contact lenses
8.cherlynn dances and its pretty hilarious
9.i walk funny D;
10.we all had fun!!

of praise to the King of all kings,its Jesus
ilovemyJesus!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!!


i'm sorry, i love you, mom.

be happy.be very very happy for me.the past 20hours has been hell and i've decided to give it to God.of course i always knew He was thr but i just didnt chose to let Him help me.i realized i think too much.i should just stop thinking and start praying.and solutions come as easy as *snaps fingers* this.

PESERVERE

DONT BE AFRAID OF CHANGE

IGNORE THE NORMS
(whoever said u had to be be depressed for 10days to prove u are rly affected and upset?)

i dun want to come to any conclusions.i want to live the better life.if u wanna help me,pray for me.i wanna have wisdom to speak and react at home.it would be very very very very very much appreciated because u dun knw how desperate i am for God's guidance.and if u can,text me or something because i wanna know who u are and thank you for praying for me.

conclusions are nonsence.because only God has the answers.

no,i wont take my life.
all i wanted was time alone myself.

dear _________,

maybe ure right about everything abt me,and u may even be right that i should go kill myself.u know,sometimes u talk so much i really rather take my own life than listen to you.but it dawned upon me tht it's not worth dying for you.afterall,you are but "an insignificant side object in my life".yes,call me cynical,like you've always did.haha,you're right again.i AM veeerrry cynical.its amazing how everytime you seem to know me better than i do,u know?i am very amused.

and u wanna know the truth?u havent changed at all.because ure still coming at me me me me me me me me me.the only difference is your approach.yea,in the past it was physical,but now,u mentally and emotionally torment me.u make life hell for me and thn tell me that you love me alot,and that its not fair that i dun love you back.for one,it doesnt just take a day to convert 16years of hurts to happily ever after love.if you believed in that,you are sooo wrong.because ure speaking to lynette,one who is cynical (remember?) and absolutely unwilling to forgive.yes,i am bad.i am rotten.pls give up forcing me to love you.

i shall start on point number three,that is you forcing me to love you.if you really want my love,woo me to it,not force me to it.and by wooing me to it, i mean being patient with me and being sensitive to my feelings.this is something you seriously dont know.even God cant force me to love Him.He woos me to Him.tell me about it.

why do i not speak to you?reason simply because u wouldnt listen and (pls jot this down with a pen and notebook or carve it on ur hand) I AM SICK AND TIRED OF IT.dont come to me again with all the crap that you dont ignore me because i say u do and that means u do.i can feel it even if you dont mean it.haha,are u feeling mistaken yet?good if you are,u know?because that's how i feel most of the time and its good u an be in my shoes for a while.but i digress.back to you ignoring me.u want me to talk to u,communicate with u,but u dont listen.u know what's the most common answer i get back everytime i try to talk to you.its, "F*KING BULLSHIT." (oh yes,and that reminds me.i hate your language u know?pls be polite.)its very tiresome to be your _______, because one would need to know the words to say exactly,and such words,amazingly,do not exist.when i try to console u sometimes,my words are blocked out and u stay in ur same angry/depressed/trouled/annoyed state.it happens all the time.yes,i repeat,all the time.

as for being mistaken,haha.i guess we both are mistaken about each other.but my attempt to clear my name in ur heart has alrdy ended 3 yrs back when i realised that i was on mission impossible.whnevr i tell you "i dont mean it that way",u dont let me explain myself but interrupt me and say,"but u know how it feels like to me?"so now,yea,we're quits arent we?whtever shit u wanna say about urself DOESNT matter (so save it) because the great I at the receiving end dont think so.

true enough,i dont bother about u when u have a bad day because i dont wanna talk to you(pls pardon my frankness.u asked for it).thr's no point talking because u never take my advice.oh yes,did u know u were the one who helped me figure that out?yes,you,when u told me that i'm "the youngest and know nothing at all".oh,thanks for reminding me that i'm ignorant once again last night.indeed,i AM ignorant.so yes,being the ignorant me,i keep stepping on ur toes and angering you.u reeeaaallly gotta pardon me.i was brought up to believe that i am ignorant.

even as i type all these, u wun be able to understand whr i'm coming from.because you are you, stuck in your pathetic way of thinking,believing that i am evil to the very core.yes,i do hate you,but i am not evil,or so i believe(since i really dont know who i am and only you,yes the great YOU,knw who i am).i believe i am sitll reasonable.and i do not do things intentionally to harm you.the only thing i anger you with is my not doing of anything.but no,my words have NEVER meant to hurt you.

why u must u take my letter with a dose of doubt?why cant you see it as a way i'm trying to connect with you and communicate with each other?why must u think i'm all out to anger you?no i am not.no i am not.no i am not.

and if u wonder why i dont wanna tell u all these face to face?haha.i shall not repeat myself.the answer is thr, up thr.its a vicious cycle we're stuck in u know?and i think we'll not ever come up with any solution because you are YOU and i am I.yes,once more mr high and almighty,u are right! (wow,amazing!) "either u should die or i should die" and knowing that i will not not not not not kill myself because i have alot to live for (or in ur terms, u shall just call me a "timid weakling") maybe u should intentionally get into an accident and die.oh yes,its a good idea.because i wont feel guilty that way.

happy now?

lynette is gone! say hello to LYNETTE the second! :D
the one with the answer.

SAY HELLO TO JOEL'S EYES :D
(he didnt have a proper pic of himself on friendster la..)


and...

u witnessed it, he promised to friendster ttm for me ;D ;D
speaking of which, mel, kare, kongsheng, caleb, brendan, jack, micbay, adeline and minxiu still owe me ttm too!

and ta-da, due to micbay/micci/michael complaining tht i didnt blog abt her,


HELLO PEOPLE IN LALALAND! ;D

laid aside Your majesty,gave everything for me
ilovemyJesus!!

i think God is really more than enough for me.when we do things that are not right,we always feel guilty later on.the need to be forgiven always defeats us,and sometimes,we dun knw who to look for forgiveness from to rly feel forgiven.it happens to all of us.

but i chose to ask from God His forgiveness.

His grace is enough,in fact,more than enough!though we might repeat the mistake time and time again,and break His heart 24/7,He's still willing to forgive us because He loves us.of course this doesnt mean we can take Him for granted,because He looks at our heart.do we ask of forgiveness to rid off our guilt?or is it because we love Him and are rly repentent so as not to disappoint Him?
___________________________________________________________________________________

oh yes,i wanna introduce u my very cute friend!he's like a second schvelle!and coincidentally,he happens to be lisa's 3rd brother.(yes,i know u didnt know thr was another one but thr is)so its like,lisa,joshua,jordan and *TA-DA* joel!a pity i dun have his photo.oh wait!maybe i can browse friendster..

my gosh,i've been surfing for about 40mins and i cant find his friendster!
oh! i found jordan's! :D and vincent's! :D i'm one step closer!
my gosh!jordan and vincent didnt link him!
oh,i just rmbed,i think maxie shd have his link..hmm.
sigh.maxie doesnt have his link.probably bcs she hasnt been online for a looong time.i'll just try random searching for joel lim.
AHHH! SAVE IT! I'VE WASTED 1HR30MIN TO GET THE PIC.HAIYO!NEXT TIME LA!

anw,joel is a very blur guy.u'll understand the statement as u read on..
case 1:
*micbay talking about a joke abt MTV*
joel: what is MTV?

case 2:
joel: (innocently) what is your name?
minxiu: minxiu.
joel: (draggily) hhiii minxiu...nniiccceee tttoooo kknnnooowww yyyooouuu... iii aaammm jjjoooeeeelllll iiiinnnn cccaasssseee yyyooouuuu dddduuunnnn kkknnnooowwww....
(took him almost 4hrs to complete his sentence)

case 3:
me: see, superman! *points to the sky*
chienru: (playing along) yah yah! there, there! *points in the same direction*
joel: huh, what superman?
me: u see..there! *points*
joel: are u asking me to look on top of the building or on the cloud?
me: oh, u see the cloud on top of the building? yea..can u see it?
joel: noo...
me: u stare for 10secs, there! stare for 10secs and u can see superman.
joel: really? *stares*
the rest: HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.

and his most commonly used line would be, "huh,i dun get it.."

yes, that's joel lim ___ ____ (?) for you.let's just call him joel lim xiao mei lah. :D btw, his new fav colour is pink.

oh yes,though this post is alrdy vry long,i shall add on since:
1.i rarely blog nowadays
2.i really wanna blog la! hee.

i.)i dropped my blue star earring in the toilet bowl accidentally when i wanted to take it out while bathing.thought i could scoop it out but it sunk in, i dno why.if u still see me wearing it,its the other one frm the pair.haha.so micbay,pls stop pointing at my right ear lope and shouting, "TOILET"!

ii.)i daydreamed on bus 95 and forgot to alight after the mrt stop to change bus and ended up at some terminal bus stop in holland v.no matter what bus i flagged,the driver shook his head,indicating tht i'm not allowed to go up.yea.i think its a terminal in the form of an orangey bus stop la.had to walk a looong distance out to take bus.

iii.)bcs of that,as i walked,the purple clip for my ac orientation dropped out and i cant find it!

iv.)tried to be adventurous and walked home frm the 32 busstop whr i was supposed to alight and change to bus 64.got lost around the estate.felt really dumb.

v.)watched ninja turtles

never walk away because my future's in Your hands
ilovemyJesus!!

authencity
courtesy
mutuality
hospitality
unity

"in Christ,we who are many form one Body, and each member belongs to each other" -Romans 12:5

i want to remember.

here in this moment i surrender to Your love
ilovemyJesus!!

school yesterday was fun as usual.except for the fact that i didnt live up my resolution of being quiet(er) and attentive in class.well,its okay.i still have many days ahead to change.

i'm suddenly reminded of schvelle.let me introduce to u my friend, schvelle.THE born joker.i keep laughing at her bcs she's so cute. :D


chronicles of shengjingbing schvelle part I:
schvelle and i volunteered to help naughty nellie clean up her chem apparatus when joel broke a beaker
me,loserlovely lynette:oh oh oh, broom, broom.i go get the broom!
schvelle:(stern)NO! YOU CANNOT!
loserlovely lynette turns to look at schvelle, who was washing 2 beakers
schvelle: you must put these (indicating beakers) back first!

chronicles of shengjingbing schvelle part II:
schvelle carring our drinks,trying to get her way thru the crowd
schvelle:'squiuz me 'squiuz me (its excuse me in sporean way)
meridians ignoring her,not moving away
schvelle:(angrily)'SQUIUZ ME LA!
sea of meridians split open to make way for her

chronicles of shengjingbing schvelle part III:
s411 and s412 girls playing tennis during pe
boonwei picks tennis ball frm floor around schvelle
schvelle:OOI! you take my ball!
boonwei:(cautiously)orh orh,sry.bu hao yi si, bu hao yi si.
boonwei puts ball back on the floor while schvelle surveys her every movement until she walks away

chronicles of shengjingbing schvelle IV:
naughty nellie, ,loserlovely lynette, shengjingbing schvelle and adeline walkg
naughty nellie, ,loserlovely lynette and adeline happily chatting
schvelle: (very suddenly) WHERE'S THE CLASSROOM LAH! *immediately twists her right ankle* (squeals) aiyo!!!!!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! you really have to spend a day in sch with her to know how cutedumb (!) she is! :D :D

oh yea,forgot to add that she actually didnt knw how to wash a burette! ure supposed to use the deionised water to rinse it but she tried to stuff the tap hose into the burette to wash it.and she did it with SUCH innocense i cldnt stop laughing. ROFL.

and i distinctly rmb her as the girl who ran to the classroom after lecture just to sleep for that few minutes.hahahahahahaha!and also the girl who put her jacket on top of her head when she had no hands to hold it while she searched for sth in her bag.she looked reeaaally dumb.LOL!

disclaimer: shengjingbing schvelle is not a loud, rowdy girl. at first glance, u'll think she's a soft-spoken, innocent little lampgirl.to a certain extent,she is.but some things she do really make u think twice abt her being sweet.hahaha.

okay lah.she's 70% sweet.
for her sake.



























and this is how she bullies me in return. D;

oh my.i spent the whole post talking abt her.wanted to blog abt sth else.but well, nvm.haha!