my God, my God, You hold the nations in Your hands
ilovemyJesus!!

time to update!but my mind is kinda blank now.all i really feel like doing now is just to sing God's praises and jump in my room.really,even i'm typing this,i'm singing along with the Youth Alive CD that's playing on my com.

the difference between faith and LAZINESS.when we have faith,we dont just sit back and relax.we gotta take the Step of Faith,yea?when you dont bother to pray or respond to problems,leaving it hanging & say,"oh,i'll trust God and see how it goes",that's faith LAZINESS.faith comes with actions.James 2:17:"In the same way,faith by itself,if it is not accompanied by action,is dead."

i want to rely on the Holy Spirit,but i have to take action too.for my jc admission,i've been lazy-going overboard enjoying myself,not making any effort to be responsible for finding out my new campus,how to get there,when to report,when to register online,how to do my subject registration etc.and i thot i was having faith!but nooo.

my place in JC should have been forfeited because i didnt do my subject registration,nor did i report to the school on the 28th when its compulsory (stated on the letter that my place would be forfeited).but God gave me another chance.by His grace,i managed to register myself into the school even though registration was closed.though my subject combination is not my ideal choice,it could have been worse.thank You God.i'll learn to be content,like Paul in Philippians 4:11.

pls pray tht if its what God wants,i can appeal to go to another class.chances are very slim,in fact,impossible,for me to change class.but my mum's going to see Dr Lily Neo next wednesday and talk about my results and try to get me into a double sci class.right now i'm in the science stream,taking maths,chem,econs and geog.i wanna change that geog to bio.i really really really really..
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thanks.have a great Spirit-guided week ahead!

You are the source of life i cant be left behind
ilovemyJesus!!

i cant further emphasize how tired i am supposed to be.but i drew strength from God.since mission trip till YI camp till now, i've been having about 4hrs of sleep a day on the average.i know i would be tired,so i pray for a good's night rest bfore i sleep each day.when i awake in the morning,i pray for energy.and gee,look at me! :D

christmas bash was awesome!and my preparation was tiring.haha.my house was messy for the week bcause i was making gifts!but its clean tdy because its boxing day & i've boxed up all my thrash.literally :D anw,i thot the nash was a success.THANKS TO THOSE INVOLVED IN CHRISTMAS BASH:PASTORS,LEADERS,P.A CREW,SKIT PEOPLE,DANCERS,Z3 & THOSE WHO TURNED UP!:Dcould see tht many people enjoyed the christmas bash.and at the alter call,thr were pretty much people responding.let's pray that they're souls will be preserved!and in fact,since prayer without action is fruitless,let's take the initiative to make the newcomers feel welcomed.amen? of course we would also have to take up the responsibility of following-up with those we brought.yup!:D

i wanna share something about talking to God!heh,did u ever think that we could talk to God about anything?that's what most of us say,but we dont rly do it literally.well,not me at least.i talk to God only about spiritual things.but tdy i realised tht even things like switching on the laptop,we can tell God.heh.i just felt like praying bfore i switch on the laptop.and i went "dear God,i'm going online now.please help me not to be distracted by junk and guide my conversations with people online.i pray that i wun gossip or sin in any other ways."thn i came online.i was initially irritated by some things,but God helped me by sending melissa/mellimoo/sMELly online.and phew,glad she came.so i poured out my troubles to her.and things turned for the good.:D

so from tdy onwards,i wna tell God everything,LITERALLY!even bfore i wear my shoes,swtch on the television,eat my dinner,everything!i wanna talk to God all the time! :D

bigger than the air i breathe,the world we'll leave
ilovemyJesus!!

how to update?the last post was 18th, 6days ago.sooo many things alrdy happened & i'm pretty lazy.heh.as much as i would like to beautify my post with photos,i cant.bcause i havent been slpg well lately and my eyes are superduper microscopic in photos.its U-G-L-Y. :\ well.

street-evangelism;
gee!God was awesome,and still is actually,ytd!though only very few of us were present for street-e ytd, we managed to reach 20odd people!sufan was my partner, and we shared to 10 people in total.of which,3 accepted Christ.but its ok!bcause the rest were interested too,but due to parental objectn,they did not accept Christ.however,i believe the seed is sown & pretty soon we'll be seeing them every sat!amen? :D

melissa lim min li, the hardcore roti-prata auntie;
i dont have to post, photos tell it all! :D















































within the week i also went out with GRACE YEW TEO ZHIXIN and LAI JIAQI! we went to toysRus. LOL! and there was alot of BARBIE, DINOSAURS and TOY CARS! :D i miss! oh, if u happen to be reading this, THE PHOTOS ARE IN MY PHOTO ALBUM! :D

CHRISTMAS BASH IN 5 HRS TIME! CANT WAIT! :D :D :D

let my life count as pure glory for Your name
ilovemyJesus!!

woah! YI camp was such a blast i seriously dont know how to blog about it okay!firstly, let me introduce JACOB's leaders(!):
weijian(tribe leader)
lisa(tribe leader)
wanxin + jeremy (team 1)
lopez + cynthia (team 2)
andy ong + me (team 3)
shuen + sotongbrendan (team 4)
and the team 3 (J3) members(!):
andy ong
grace yeo
alexandra NICOLEtte khoo
siewyu
chowchin
ruxiang
jialin
estee
sylvester
junze
esther chong
yup! thr, my list of new friends! :D
firstly,i wanna say that i've rly gained alot this camp.learnt many lessons about Fighting a Good Fight!but more importantly,i wanna share my encounter with God and our promise.the session on the 3rd night was awesome because God assured me a fufiled wish.that day, even though i lost my voice because of cheering, i shouted out in tongues.thn when i went up to the alter(for non-believers, that's the area in front of the stage where people go to, to show God that they are serious about Him.like a step of faith!)at the alter, i said sth rly dumb like "God i really really really really really really really (to the power of almost infinity) want it!". "it" being salvation lah.i kept repeating the same thing and i felt stressed and desperate.thn a strange but lovely peace came upon me and assured me that it would happen.it seemed to be telling me that "hey, i know u want it.u dun have to beg for it, i'll give it to you, be patient..".AMAZING huh?and with that, i'm going to hold on to this promise, this hope, and fight a good fight, run a good race.i know that what happens in the supernatural realm will be fufiled in the natural realm.praise You, God!

and a few funny things that happened in camp (u can skip this part, really, unless u need serious entertainment)
1) i fell down the very second weijian told me to "be careful!"
2) andy ong likes to eat xiaolongpau
3) sylvester and i kept acting spastic, which was good, because it helped us come out with spastic, YET creative, cheers. :D we even pretending to be drug-addicts and psychopaths.HA!really,should have recorded it in a video or sth
4) chowchin screamed like caleb, the sissy way. :5) i mistook siewxia for siewyu 29438349203492 times! [they are twins, but siewxia has a mole] and i kept asking siewxia to "join the team" when she's not even in my team! HAHA! oh, i sent food to the wrong table and sat at the wrong table a few times too.
6) andy ong wanted to coordinate shirt color everyday.so i had to call him everytime before i bath to ask him what to wear. :7) i shouted "JOSHUA!" because i mistook JACOB for joshua when they were about to announce best tribe award.both "J" mah..
8) syl and i invented a very chinese boyband-ish action.imagine for urself: first u reach ur right hand up high into the air and grap some air, thn bend ur elbow and pull the air down with ur heads gradually looking downwards.and u say "hallelujah..." with a serious and solemn expression.thn u suddenly go crazy and throw ur hand into the air, shouting "JESUS!!" enthusiastically.um, did u get a rough idea of how its like? HAHA!
9) sylvester flashed infront of me twice.once, he "velcro"-ed (dno how to spell) his pants infront of me.second time, he was wearing white converse pants and i told him he shouldnt be wearing that.thn he went like "can see my boxers ah?", pulling up his shorts to reveal the red treasure underneath.the very next moment, he took off the white pants. o.0 okay, the red thing was actually not boxers lah, they were shorts.but its still disgusting since he first told me it was boxers.i've got prove:














that's disgusting sylvester's transparent white shorts on the left, and the "velcro" boardshorts on the right




























pervert in action!




























there you see sylvester being utterly proud of his red boxers-lookalike shorts.
10) lisa went crazy using the tribe identity, which was a yellow cloth tied around the wrist, as a dancing ribbon and did ugly chi dance with it, screaming "i'm not crazy! i'm not crazy!" ok lah.i did it, but she followed after.haha!
11) alex/nicole pretended to be singing with a microphone on stage during high praise
12) i gave my mortal a packet of tissue a day because i didnt know what to give.on the last day, i gave him all my tissue paper packs!
13) weijian kept nodding his kead at everything and cynthia and i followed after.u gotta be there to see it man!
14) JACOB went cukoo chanting "we will win the war" and "we have won the war"
15) ahh.too many too many! lynette is sleepy.goodnight folks! :D

the light inside me, You're the One i want
ilovemyJesus!!

if you have fallen, dont brood about it or stay in it.pick yourself up and go!
i know that God has forgiven me, and i dont have to wry about what other people think.i strayed, but as long as i turn back and repent, i know that God's arms are still open wide.

i guess many of us are stuck in the cycle of "backsliding" because we did wrong things and are afraid of repentance, because of the guilt we feel.but bear in mind that Jesus already died for us, washing away our sin.by condemning yourself, you're belittling Jesus's death and resurrection.its as good as saying "Jesus' blood is not enough to forgive me!" DONT belittle the crucifying of Jesus, DONT!

and if what's in your mind is,
"if i become good now, people will think that i am acting good.or they might think that i strayed to get attention and that i'm attention-seeking."
then, YOU ARE REALLY AN IDIOT.are you going to sacrifice your reconcilation with God just because of what OTHERS are going to think? c'mon, its just not worth it! and besides, arent you going to trust God that He will work out good when you repent? do you lack the faith to do things GOD's way, but to have faith in yourself to do things YOUR way? get this clear: when you do things men's way, you get men's kind of result.but when you do things God's way, you get God's kind of result.if you wanna win, play by God's rules.

personally, i experienced what i written above.yup, i was stuck because i was afraid of what others think.and i felt guilty, and i didnt dare to face God anymore.it was so serious that i didnt even dare to open the Bible, i didnt even dare to pray.and i felt utterly shattered and miserable.when things started to happen at home, i couldnt pray since i was afraid to do so.and we all know, without prayer we are nothing! everything was sooo distressing.i even had to lie that my spiritual life was okay and put up a front.

but on friday night(2nights ago), i finally plucked up the courage and talked to God.i remember the very words i said:
me: God, i really dont know what to say to You, i believe You already know everything right?
God: i cant help you if you dont want to do things my way
me: i'm really scared of the results
God: i still love you.trust me.
and immediately i snapped out of what satan tried to trap me in.why had i been so foolish? have i forgotten that the wisdom of man is foolishness to God? i had been seeking the wrong things, i thought with my own mind and did things with my own strength.and i felt so tired of trying to keep everything from crumbling.

on friday i made the decision to LET GO AND LET GOD.but we all know its not that simple because satan is constantly trying to torment us.in the midst of stabalising my relationship with God, satan kept trying to tempt me to sin by giving me thots and stuff.i struggled since friday until today, when God told me that i didnt have to struggle anymore because i am His child.

praise God for His faithfulness.i owe Him my everything!
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on a lighter note,
1)amanda and bernice got me barbie stuff! a barbie watch, a barbie bowl and a barbie cup!
2)i was chased by a random monkey because silvestre made it run after me for a good distance of probably 200m?
3)i bought amanda a SPORTY watch.HA!
4)samuel (fish!) wore my barbie watch throughout cell ytd

that's all folks, sry for the super long entry :\

Your love is irresistable, Your grace is ever flowing
ilovemyJesus!!

ahhhh! hotmail is stupid okay.i was typing an email to fanghui to tell her about my mission trip.by the time i was at the 2nd last paragraph (trust me i typed a looong chunk), it all disappeared! D:

anw, i'm going to summarise my trip in thailand here.PLEASE READ ON BECAUSE IT IS REALLY INTERESTING AND IT WONT TAKE LONG!
i'm going to make this applicable to both christians and non-christians.so its going to be mainly about healing miracles:
1) an old lady who had poor vision came out to be prayed for, and after we did, her vision was restored!
2) we prayed for a little girl who was weak and couldnt walk.when she came up, caleb saw her face being literally black and having really dark eye-rings around her eyes.but after prayer when caleb looked at her again, she was smiling and her face lit up and her face was no longer black.the eye-rings were gone too.and best of all, she could then walk and run! she ran to wee (thai church member) and hugged her.
3) a man who was paralysed in the left arm became completely mobile in that arm after a few prayers.
4) a severely hunched old lady (permanantly doing sit and reach kind of severe) could stand at not just 180degrees, but in fact 200degrees. after prayer.
5) a woman with painful and weak knees was completely healed when we prayed for her
there are still other miracles definitely, but i'm not here to count them because my point is just to tell you that GOD IS REAL.

in fact, above all else, the greatest miracle of all is the miracle of salvation.because healing is only temporary in the world, but salvation is eternal! its living forever in heaven.our souls are eternal while the bodies are temporary.when we die, our souls either go to heaven or hell.it really makes me glad to see that so many thais and hmongs are going to heaven eternally.this is a truest and best miracle.what's the point of being healed on earth but having to go to hell to suffer eternally? praise God for the gift of eternal life!

*yawns* i'm really tired.goodnight and if you've not received Christ into your life yet, think about it.YOU NEED GOD. :D