While everyone seems to be doing quite well, I do feel like giving up. I feel like I've taken one step forward and 2 steps backward. Circumstances have decided the way I am externally and internally. To some degree, I think I am afraid of all that I'd have to give in order to mediate my plight.

"Maybe I have been living too fast, too restlessly, too feverishly, forgetting to pay attention to what is happening here and now, right under my nose. Just as a whole world of beauty can be discovered in one flower, so the great grace of God can be tasted in one small moment. Just as no great travels are necessary to see the beauty of creation, so no great ecstasies are needed to discover the love of God. But you have to be still and wait so that you can realize that God is not in the earthquake, the storm of the lightning, but in the gentle breeze with which He touches your back."

- Henri J.M.Nouwen, "The Genesee Diary"

我們愛 (讓世界不一樣)
讚美之泉

你和我是天父愛的創造
每個人有最美的夢想
一路上彼此照亮　扶持擁抱
我們的愛讓世界不一樣

我們愛　因神先愛我們
雖你我不一樣
我們一路唱
走往祝福的方向

我們愛　因神先愛我們
心再堅強　也不要獨自飛翔
只要微笑　只要原諒
有你愛的地方就是天堂

Alas, when nobody loves anymore, do you still bother?

Q: What kind of a flu is a dry flu?
A: A deadly flu.

Mood now: Awflu (Awful).

I'm so amazingly good at one thing:
Being distracted.
Asset or liability?
I think both.

THIS IS TO DIE FOR ):

"Actually there are a lot of better things to die for la, seriously. Like the gospel." -Christine the Martyr

Dance, liberates the soul.

How queer. I got here without meaning to, and without knowing how to.

When I was stuck in a rut, I picked up all sorts of rather pessimistic attitudes to get me through. The only one thing that I held on to that was "right" if I may say, was the belief that since God has not decided to take me away yet, I shall remain. Perhaps I was just existing, not living. Yet, it was this small little teeny weeny mustard-seed faith in God that "if I would just be around, He could - and if I had more faith, would - do something" that saved me.

I lacked the faith to expect or even hope. All I could believe in was mere existence for the sake of God. In fact, I was so defeated for an apparently long period that I honestly thought I'd never escape such artful desolation of the innermost. But (cliche as it is), I did.

Where I am now is the sum of all the experiences I've ever been through, multiplied by God's grace infinitely. I feel like I've matured in my relationship with God, despite not knowing how that happened. The only thing I did was to start with a little faith. And faith increased. And God did it. And faith increased. And God did it. And faith increased. And God did it. Now I look back to the not so historical past, and I can very confidently say, "God did it."