i will wait for You, Almighty God,
in the beauty of Your Holiness

I'm utterly answerable to have blistered The Lover.
Guilty.

Why so spirited regarding acquisitions, and absurdly next-to-comatose apropose critical intendment? I definitely know the root of the perplexities- and its apprehensive succession through each generation.

14We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin.
15I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do.
16And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good.
17As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me.
18I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out.
19For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing.
20Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.
21So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me.
22For in my inner being I delight in God's law;
23but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members.
24What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death?
25Thanks be to God—through Jesus Christ our Lord!
-Paul in Romans 7:14-25

Dear Holy One who is Love,
Forgive me and change my ways. I give You permission to hold me steady, and make me one who honors You in thought & behavior. Your mercies are new, but may I not take them for granted.
I'm sorry, Benevolent Lord.