booO.today is sunday.i'm gg to rest.nt even gg with my sis fer tuition.

i feel like a loser troublemaker.in sch i cause troble.at hm i cause trouble.i go to church.and i still cause trouble.and what makes me feel worse is that everyone whom icaused trouble for tells me its okayy.i know they probably just said it becuz they didnt want to further upset me or anything.but it just makes me feel worse.and guilty.i dun want thm to treat me so well.u know?its my fault.so why cant u just tell me its my fault?

ytd.they went to west coast.i wanted to go with mel.but mel had a fever so she didnt go.and i didnt go.and they thot i was gg.supposed to meet at 1330 at jurong east mrt.and daniel called me at 1410 to ask me where am i.i am a troublemaker.thn after tt.went to church.saturday night life.when the speaker was speaking.i was talking.disturbed ppl around me.yifang had to ask me to keep quiet.and after church.we went fer dinner.and my freaking moronic stomach hurted agn.if i had just.if i had just controled the pain.overcomed it.and daniel called the ambulance cuz i was trembling and i passed out.and everyone said he made a wrong decision.though he says tt he isnt sad bcuz everyone says so, we all can tell he is.and it isnt his fault. u know? its my fault.if i didnt have whatever crap stomachache.he wouldnt call the ambulance.and they wouldnt blame him.and after tt.the ambulance came.they talked to my dad cuz i didnt want to go to the hosipital.and they said my sis had to come and fetch me or else i have to go to the hospital.and my sis was alrdy on her way hm.it was so troublesome for her.and she's usually very gd tempered.but ytd.she was pissed.she was all tired frm work.and she had to go all the way there to fetch me.and daniel yifang fay and mel had to wait fer me until ten plus for my sis.u know?if nth had happened, they wouldnt need to wait for me.and after tt.i spilled dan and mel's fries all over the floor.and they just kept telling me its okayy.and everything else.they just kept saying its okayy.u know how much trouble i caused?

but anw.thx to karyn,grace,yen,mel,yifang,daniel,fayanne and joy.thx alot.and to wanting [i think tt's the name] and the uncles and aunties at the hawker centre.thanx to all of u! and sorry too.

and to my sis.i'm really very very sorry.but thx anyway.

i really feel very very bad.maybe i shouldnt have one for dinner or whatever.the more time i spent with thm.the more trouble i bring to thm.i am trouble.