yooOo.so funny.i came online so many times and didnt blog.anyway.today was super funny.was laughing abt 3/4 the day.the other 1/4 eating and slping.so funnyy!everything.frm ss to PE to maths.BWHAHAAHHAAHHAHAHA.so lazy.shant type out what's so funny.die die.dun noe if i can blog everyday frm now on.so sian.keep slping.u know.last wednesday to friday,i slept for an average of 14.5 hours a day.my goshh.and the more i slp,the more tired i get.and on sat and sun.my schedule.woah.so packd.until i cannt evn go for tuition at grace's.i think next time sunday i nt gg lerhx.i'm really very very sorry.bt thn.sometimes.i just want to do what i really need to do first.i'm sorry okayy?anw.next time.my schedule will be routined on sat and sun.sigh.boring.will be so tied up and wunbe able to spend time with my frens that often anymore.tragic-
sat
morning go for trng.[8am to about 1pm]after trng go bath in sch.[1-1.30pm]thn go for cell.[2.30pm to uh.abt 4-5pm]after cell go for sat night life.[5-7pm]after sat night life wait there to meet my sis and aunty to join thm for their service.[7-9pm]frm there.at bukit batok.take bus to choa chu kang.frm choachukang take mrt back.reach hm at abt 10++.i'll be dead.dead tired.out for more thn 12hours.out for 14hours.sigh.wonder if i can commit myself. =[
sun
morning go church with grace and lydia.[8.30-10.30am]after church breakfast/lunch tgt.[10.30-abt 11am].go home.bath.etc etc.thn go with my sis.to church for a while.time not confirmed.cuz we can leave anytime.thn go for tuition at choachukang.my cousin's house.thn tuition finish.reach hm at abt 9plus.if end early.i have to go to grace's hse for tuition.my gosh.

my sis wants me to be ahead of the teacher.sigh.my mum still believes inmy independant learning.thinks tt i'm matured enough.bt my sis.dunno larhx.my brother also.in fact.my sis wants me to do well bcuz of the pressure my brother's giving on me.my sis doesnt stress me.its my brother.sigh.he doesnt understand tt i'm not supoerwoman.like my so-much-bttr-thn-me-in-his-eyes sister.he wants me to work.when my sis is against it.bt dares not voice out her opinions.sigh.i'm the only one who dares to stand up for what i believe.but what's the use.i'm forever losing to my brother.i dun understand.he keeps saying tt in our family, i'm the most outstanding and has the most potential.yet he keeps saying tt i'm nothing in the family.that i havent made any contributions and is not fit to be in the family.unlike him.so what am i?my gosh.i am so confused.one moment i'm the best.and the next.i'm the lousiest.dun get him.dun care anyway.
i want to change.i'm serious this time.i'm going to change.okayy?i dun want to always feel lousy abt myself.and thn want to change.and thn dun change.and thn feel even lousier.and thn want to change.and so on and so forth.
i want to be more spiritually involved.
i want to draw closer to God.
i want to trust and have faith in God totally
i want to learn to control myself and stop giving myself excuses.
i want to study.
i want to stop slacking.
i want to be committed in everything i do.
i want to put my best efforts in everything i do.
i want to do what is most important first.no more last minute stuffs.
i want to love everybody.
i want to be more courageous
i want to be able to forgive and apologize to people willingly
i want to be a good girl
i want to make everyone happy
i want to love myself and make myself happy also
i want to keep to promises i make
i want to stop giving in to temptations
i want to be down-to-earth [not materialistic]
i want to be accepted for who i am.that is,if i'm not doing anything wrong.i wun expect the world to accept me for who i am if i'm a selfish bitch.
i want to be able to swallow insults and turn my other cheek
i want to smile at people who are not on good terms with me
i want to be less ambitious
i want to be able to accept failure and learn from them
i want to get over failures, and work harder.and not get over failures, and forget them
i want to learn lessons, and not repeat mistakes.
i want to appreciate everything and not take things for granted.
i want to speak with caution.
i want to be polite no matter what.
i want to feel good everytime. no one can make me upset or angry without my consent. =]

blogged so much.feel like continueing.but i need to go get my bike.hehe.speaking of bike.whoever did it.i forgive u.=]

anyway.what happened to my poor bike.uh.someone dismantled it.and broke the brakes and gears.=[.its okayy.i just wun park it just anywhere next time.i should be more careful where i park it.anyway.i was partly at fault.since i gave those people a chance to meddle with it.oh wellx.but.if i find out who did it.haha.i'll still go confront tt person.to get my money back.repair fees=$40.not as much as i thought. i though it was $60.haha.oh well.shall go collect my darlingg now.yayys.thn can cycle agn tmr.yayys!!!