i just woke up.went to slp after the previous entry.and.i dreamt agn.about the competition.and i sweated alot.okayy.not THAT much.but i sweated anw.i dreamt agn tt i didnt win.the competition is making me nutss.no one is expecting anything at all.not evn mr josef and ms ang.not even coach.but i dun want to lose.i'm alrdy feeling so scared bcuz i lost in a dream.imagine.on that day.my hands are alrdy feeling weak.and i'm becoming paranoid.now as i type, i keep telling myself not to type so hard for in case i injure my fingers [?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!] and in class when i write, i try not to hold the pen too tight.and plus i'm sick.my tonsils [or however u spell it] is annoying. and my cough irritates me.and i have a very very very very slight fever-37.6.and my left elbow.the injury has been hurting since saturday.what if after the competition my scar tear?or i fracture my bone again?i will be seen as selfish if i dun take part in the competition.i'm so indecisive.both options arent satisfying enough.

i'm crazy!no one says that i must win.no one at all.coach says he'll be happy if i just reach the ending point and complete the race.i'm not given any pressure at all.yet i feel so stressd.

nononononono.no.i must stay calm and cool.its just a competition.why kick up such a big fuss?