something in my heart is burning like a fire, i want to live for You
ilovemyJesus!!

God has a been great.
i repeat, God has been great!
and He will continue to be

i was flipping through old photos recently, and many photos of myself reminded me of the various phases of life i went through.but none of these phases proved to be important or beneficial to anyone.in fact, almost all my life up then, i had been somewhat destructive.i remember the immature Lynette, spoilt Lynette, insensitive Lynette, defiant Lynette, unsubmissive Lynette, rude Lynette, manipulative Lynette, stubborn Lynette, short-tempered Lynette, hurtful Lynette, sadistic Lynette, arrogant Lynette, dishonest Lynette and the list does not stop there.i remember inflicting pain on others because i myself was a victim.but God has filtered all these things away and given me a new life.though i must say sometimes i dissapoint Him and do not live the perfect life He has given me, i'm grateful tht He did.and even more so since He doesnt hold it against me when i make mistakes and disappoint him.i love Him so much.

word;
why should i live in bondage knowing that there is liberty where the Spirit of the Lord is? -2 Corinthians 3:17 indeed. God has set me free from all kinds of abuse inflicted on me.i live for God and nobody else.i'm no longer obliged to torture because the Spirit of the Lor dlives in me.this doesnt mean i have the right to rebel because we are called to submit (Hebrews 13:17).but God's wisdom will tell us when and what to submit to.abuse is not from God, it's the destruction of the temple of God.its not right and we are not subjected to abuse under any circumstances.God will never approve of it.

i'm really thankful for the church in my life.special appreciation to aaron(yeh) korkor, zibing, melissa and the rest of i4C who prayed for me on saturday, when the spirit of fear came over me.and most importantly, thanks to the One and Only Abba Father, who pulled me through.if not for Him who set peace in my heart, i would never snap out of my emotional state.

speaking of which, i now fully understand what it means to "stand strong".it means to stay calm and grounded in God's word, and not let emotions get over u.because when you cry, when u let emotions overcome you, God's word cannot surface.afterall, its the Father's voice that sees us through, not ourselves, much less our feelings.we cannot cry, we must praise God.we cannot feel sad, because God is with us and will see us through.we must always know and remember God and His words.amen.

thank You Lord