i thot there was still at least 1% of hope. but its all gone now... all gone... no more.
and for a moment i was jumping with joy... tears nearly flowing out bcuz i was too happy. but covered by my insane laughter. nv felt any better. but. just after one lesson. one D&T lesson. all gone.... all gone....i didnt know y too. y did i feel so sad. i didnt even understand what was going on. tears flowed down... they just did. n i allowed them to. one drop by one drop, the crystals flowed to my maths textbook. there was no reason for me to cry. bcuz i din even know anything. maybe its just another of my cunning ways to attract other's attention. i didnt need attention. but i wanted it. for once. for someone to really care. like in other cliques. where everyone is bonded. like some shitty sticky glue. where everyone knows ach other well. n no one has to bottle up their feelings in fear of being ignored. [to a paticular person] i'm sure u have felt tt way too. n i know how it feels now.... i'm sorry. i'm really sorry. i swear i will never be that bitch again... ok. getting out of point. n thx sherilyn n jan. i dun noe wad u did. but u cheered me up. thanx. really.
sigh. bad things just keep happening today. zhiying came. we went out. to tbp. wanted to take picture. n i pressed the wrong button. n there goes $6. nvm. sigh. n wad happened in school. i dun wanna talk abt it. i cant. bcuz i'm so confused now. if i say another word. things will get worse... worse... i should have just shut my mouth n not shared anything with grace... n bring back all the memories.....
not exactly in the mood to blog today. yep. end of story. =P
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