so i guess i can forget about watching "The Wedding Banquet". so can those CGS peepz who are interested. sigh. false hope. arghs! only ppl above 18 can watch tt play. arghs. sob sob sob sob sob...
hm. i have decided to go on a diet. ok. i'm alrdy "on a diet". hahaha. for those sua-kus who dun noe y i alrdy "on a diet"... its bcuz my mum cut my allowance so tt i dun spend so much on food. she wants me to be 45KG or less. close to impossible. somehow. i still continued eating... n eating... n frm today onwards.. i'm serious abt going on a diet. sigh... i wanted to be serious a long time ago. but there r just too many temptations!!! n i just keeping eating. n somehow... i nv feel full when eating!!! if sth tastes nice... i just keep putting it into my mouth... until all's gone. THEN, i realise tt... i feel so bloated. i dun feel bloated at all during the proccess of eating. dun noe y. i can eat for 24hrs non-stop n dun feel full at all... n when i stop on the 25th hour... realize tt i'm so full n bloated tt i can hardly move. ARGHS! take for example... i was eating a watermelone just now. at first. i told myself. i'll just eat one slice. BUT after the first slice... somehow i went on to the second slice and then to the third.... n so on. so... i ended up eating the ENTIRE watermelon. n i din feel full at all. it was until i realized i finished the whole watermelon did i feel bloated. sigh. same for the apples. i ate 3 apples today. n 3/4 a papaya. n alot alot alot alot of popiahs. uncountable... hahahaha. n one egg sandwich. 5 kit kats. 2 bowls of red bean soup... bcuz tt was all left. arghs! a little here n there... adds up to ALOT!!!!
so back to my main point. i'm gg to resist temptation. i'll try. i'm not gg to think about food... try not to anyway. n if i do over-eat... um... i... will be punished. yes. will be punished. arghs!
reasons for dieting:
-over eating is bad... bcuz u feel like vomitting later on n cannt vomit. all tt happens is: the vomit reaches ur throat... u gg to vomit it out... n somehow...u swallow it back in. YUCK! ok. i know this sounds gross... hahahahahahaha.
-when i reach 45kg (finally)... i can get back my original allowance frm my mum
-rmb how i always say i dun care abt my weight anymore? ok... i'm starting to care abt it now. hahahaha.
-simply bcuz zhixin's hip size.... is my waist size. hahahaha. ok. i AM fat. everyone should tell me i AM fat to motivate me to diet. stop saying tt i'm not so tt i will not stop eating. i swear. even if u shout out loud in public tt i'm EnOrMoUs... i wouldnt mind... n i wouldnt starve myself. at most... i'll cut down on fatty stuff.. i wun torture myself. i promise!!! n ppl always have this thinking tt dieting is unhealthy. its not true. its only when u bcome aneroxic!!! dieting is just keeping a healthier diet.... IT DOES NOT AFFECT SOMEONE'S HEALTH! so tell a person who needs a diet badly tt he/she is fat. its for his/her own good. n stop telling me i'm not fat!!!
maybe i should do a chant to motivate myself... hm...
LYNETTE IS FAT FAT FAT . LYNETTE IS FAT FAT FAT . LYNETTE IS FAT FAT FAT . LYNETTE IS FAT FAT FAT . LYNETTE IS FAT FAT FAT . LYNETTE IS FAT FAT FAT . LYNETTE IS FAT FAT FAT . LYNETTE IS FAT FAT FAT . LYNETTE IS FAT FAT FAT . LYNETTE IS FAT FAT FAT . LYNETTE IS FAT FAT FAT . LYNETTE IS FAT FAT FAT . LYNETTE IS FAT FAT FAT . LYNETTE IS FAT FAT FAT . LYNETTE IS FAT FAT FAT . LYNETTE IS FAT FAT FAT
hahaha. chills.
before i end my entry....
i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat i am fat
ok. end. bye!!!