ok. yesterday fell aslp. din blog. hahaha. anw. yesterday had training. felt extremely diff yesterday. bcuz of wad zx said... sounded familiar... "its not the first time... it happened many times alrdy...". sigh. nvm. i shant type for in case someone who is not supposed to read it reads it. but. nvm. decided to type it out afterall. since things are as bad as they are now. it makes no diff whether she reads it or not.
things between us cannot never get better again
n before i type anything. let me say this loud n clear. i m straight. totally straight. n she means to me alot as a fren. just. a...fren...

i cried during canoe training. i had been thinking abt wad zx said the whole day. n until canoe training... i couldnt help it. n went to the toilet to stop crying... n when i came back.... n mr josef asked what happened... somehow or another. i broke down again. i miss her. i shouldnt have been so mean. n bad. i shouldnt have said 'sorry' when i didnt mean it. n... i shouldnt have made her cry. does she mean tt she hates me when she cried? or did she mean... tt.. no. nvm. forget it.

you don't know how much i cried because of this. i'm sorry. for the hundreth time. the thousandth time. the ten thousandth time. i dun know how many. but. i m sorry. i really am. n this time, i mean it.

ppl frm canoe must have thot tt i went to the toilet to thrash things out with huiqin. cuz i dragged her there. n not jiaqi. but no. i dragged huiqin bcuz i din know her well. i dun want to cry in front of someone i know well. esp if tt person is ur best fren. n i DID NOT cry bcuz of huiqin being vice captain. n i DEFINITELY did NOT quarrel with huiqin.

sigh. nvm. anw. so after training. went to mobil to eat. n after tt went home. i bathed. n went out with my sister. n did alot of shopping. bought alot stuff. went home. bathed again. n slept.

as for today. after sch went jq's hse to watch Anastasia. again. liked it so much. love it love it love it love it. i think i can break world record liao! for watching anastasia for more then 10 times in 2 days. hahaha. nvm. anyway. i gtg liao. bye bye!